read een's blog, hmm... wonderfull storyline. hhehe then, i realized dat i haven't write, i meant a long write-up for quite sometime.

next month will be my next coming 25th birthday. wow, i've lived a life for almost a quater decade. next month as well mark my first anniversary of serving dis department.

dis department was small, but it's expanding, becoming a big-small department, currently occupying 15 researchers. gee in a r&d, in d only r&d of it's kind in malaysia.

life has prety much changed here. da first phase, 11 months ago was such awesome. i've been exposed internationally, ermm what i meant was to being able sit in a meeting room with international people as such having diner with a leading company dat supply antenna for NASA, having to say hi to a hi-personel of a xilinx as well as and having been introduced to d director of an europian union.

being in dat phase was really a moment. hehe dugaan. yep. and while dis department is expanding, lots of procurement is running.

and yes, it was a tension as well. being in d limelight dat really dictates my commitment.

in da middle of da way, da center of this duration, i met with a unique soul dat i solute.. and will always solute, InsyaAllah. his character had lighten d tension i faced and slowly i've changed d direction of my commitment. i changed my direction, and i realized dat for those first quater, i was no longer me anymore.

life was sunyi. hehe only then baru sedar. heh ntah hape2. but really, although it was just like a 4 months of being quite a vip here, i could feel the situation of being lonely. you just have everyhting, money fork in quite a sum, immunity from da bos, being listed in all functions BUT there'll be dis one moment, before shutting d eyes, a vacuum. it's just '0'. well, away from family ( i called my mom nearly everyday - and dat everyday will always be from office, 8,9,10 pm). life is as well a rush. yeah, one secong you're in ptrajaya and another second you're somewhere in KL.

and he made me realize dat life is about sharing. and yes, i felt da changes.

and now, i was really touched when all da researchers, my friends gathered justnow. they handed me over a letter. i read. i was being transfered to da headquarters.
gee. let me rephrase, i'm being rejected from dis position. huh, it was expected due to da way da bos treated me. but really, i was touched dat my collegues was there asking weather i'm ready to confront with da bos.

leaving dis place hard, though it's an option.

but i have to move...

wish me luck.






if there's no word such as 'lazy', no one will understand 'hardworking'
if there's no word such as 'unhealthy',no one will definitely understand 'healthy'
if there's no word such as 'uncommited', no one will for sure understand 'sacrifice'

the bottom line is,

if there's no word such as 'bad', there will be no 'good'.


hehe 'konon2' speech aku against da bos heheh






dilla's progressing towards her project,
een dah selamat di ijabkabulkan,
azanie's proceeding into career,
azno's heading to finish her thesis,
diana's busy to excel in academia...

how glad to be surrounded by you guys!






I've been waiting so long to make a decision, wheather to quit or not to quit.

in doing so, i've 'bestowed' many opinions which lead me nowhere. a fact dat dis is a gold-oppurtinity to be left is undeniable. but another subtle yet d ultimate fact dat i'm not happy is another matter.

yes ali. you did mention dat rezeki Allah di mana2. in fact it had motivated me in stepping foward. dis time.

this will be my last assignment. though back home, people aren't on my side, hoping dat i could remain here.

i have to take d chance.

i'm scared if one day, one moment in future someone will say 'dulu elok2 pi berenti...' or 'tu la peluang yg ada dibuang...'

arrrrgh it's just so so wek wek wek!

i have to play my game. it won't be easy i bet but 'impossible is nothing'. i guess all of dis is to educate me on da limitation of human-reliability compare to Allah The Almighty.

i have to play. yes i do.






dilla, kad dapat, lawa .. hehe poskad gambar tema lagi tuh.. syabas inspektor shahb

hey welkom home Pon, welkom. kerja kat mana la nih?

nina, i was away everytime you call.. from now on, i'll tag da phone whereeva i go.. hehe call la lagi.


to all.. selamat hari raya aidilfitri..






deepavali ranggoli everyone


pierre na!!