hari ni semua serba tak jadi.
serabut kiri kanan
semua plan musnah . sebab terlalu 'eager' to join da club.

"susah senang, biar bersama" current cliche yg bermain di kepala hotak
serabut damn. triple damn sebab tindakan sedar aku men'damn' kan semua plan.

takde salam sesapa. salah sendiri. tak best. sendiri kena face sebab sendiri yg beria-ia nak jaga semua pihak. damn. nih akibat sebab pentingkan diri la nih. damn!!!!

uh kena perbaiki ah .. kena sesangat!!






cipan!

aku still kat opis.

log in dis morning at 7 am.

yet cipan dis moment still kat opis! cipan!






malaysia, i'm back!






well, dis is my last entry away from home. gee, i'm gonna return on saturday, but da internet is off tomorrow. and yep it's not an april fool's fool. anyway,

there's lots to be said, lots to be conclude and absolutely lots of works need to be done upon arrival.

gee, where am i now. hmm right in front my bos, who is watching tv and we are both in my immediate senoir's apartment. gee, i kept pinching m cheek, whether dis is a reality of fantasy <-- uh like duuhh..

me, da senior pal, and my bos have eventually become so so sooo kamceng. it ended up me getting a pair of 90 usd pants from both of them justnow. and it scares me. heh gilo ke apa kan.

8 weeks ago, when i arrived here, it was kinda a stess situation, whereby, i felt alienated with lots of things to cope and with a 'reputation' to carry as well as a high expectation from d superior. which slowly kills d excitement of being abroad. gee, i dunno, maybe everyone who follows my story getbored huh, with those entries, previous entries which is full of cipan. hehe nak buat guane, da situationis really cipan + i've no one to talk to.. hehe tipu, well, i do communicate with wonderfull dudes back in malaysia, hehe syok oo, often da calls are during night, as well as calls from a lovely sista from uk and a supportive buddy from washington.
hehe how i wish i could 'teleconference'. well, dis whole trip make me really appreciate those friendship. hehe
ok back to my fear.

now, for da past 7 weeks, i kinda cuak+tense+'cipan'2 with every matters yg berkait dengan office, hmm.. everything .. haha dari assignment sampaila ke friendship hehe relationship. uh..

and da tense was on it's peak last friday, upon d superior's arrival. heh, nih termasuklah rasa kecipanan sebab nak study dengan otak yg nak absorb banyak menda baru dengan limited .. read --> L I M I T E D knowledge source. uh uh uh

and, since last monday, i followed, joined d superior in those superior's meeting.. and it wasn't just a meeting, it's masalah negara kinda meeting. now, masalah negara here is not 'masalah negara' it's really maslah negara. hahaha cipan kan. hehe and d meetings is always followed with agreat2 vip dine. hehe and as expected lah... memnag macam kenit ah aku masatu .. kenit se kenit2.. mampos ah, hehe dengan jakun melihat dine utilities (segala garfu2, pinggan, kepit2) cipan, masa first diner tuh,i accidently took a wrong fork, heh orang sebelah punya.

and i get to see how dis superior deals with those superior kinda matters, which made me ternganga. serious! uh, sebab memang dia tahu semua benda. every bit of every byte of every speech. heh

well, eventually, i have dis assignment to be done. and it scares me a lot since

dis superior knows everything, and dis is no joke as from what i can see, a bundle of 'serious' quality of work is expected in future..

now, back to da starting of dis conflict i'm facing... i'm kinda scared sebab ke'kamceng'an might lead to ke'terasa'an bila kena marah apabila buat salah keja kat opis nanti. gee, memula kinda nak create a profesional relationship la konon, sebab takut bila kena marah nanti terimpan dalam hati stail power. huh .. tak taula apa nak expect, yg pasti, jejak aje malaysia - protein, atkin mampos mampos diet,

alqas,
70 kg. cipan cipan