da whole life guard course ended last saturday. i've uploaded some pictures. click here --> photolog http://alqas.fotopages.com .

da closing ceremony was launch by da state lifeguard instructor. she yep SHE looks garang. moreover with those seniors' description about her. dat day, she is however, kinda cool. maybe, da rain cool her off kot. yeah those assesments were done under a moderate-heavy-rain. a couple of events had to be delayed.

in her closing speech, she said (lebih kurang)

"da medals will only collect dust. but still, why are we still chasing them?.....
its da memories behind them dat we look for. da effort, da satisfactoris and da pain and da FUN is priceless"

yeah she's right. da satisfactory!

tomorrow's nisfu sya'aban. last year, there was a kenduri upon celebrating it. but dis year.. huhu no more lab mates to share huhuhuhuh..
15 days countdown to ramadhan. syoknya. pasar ramadhans, tarawikhs, berbuka, uh.







it's september and today happens to be friday.

a long distant schoolmate found dis blog.
on a first thought, it was kinda a normal situation for me. as people come and go, passby da site as it's published in da web. once inside da web, its for public. thus, what ever had been said or published in da web is meant to be read. and therefor, as one of da participant of dis so called blogger community, it's a normal thinggy when people found your site and comment about it.

for a second thought, it's a lil' bit awkward when someone who you knows found your virtual side of life. well, sometimes it's easier to talk with fingers. not to say dat one is being a coward when doing so, but it's more like .... da web offers much freedom to express feelings as its a one-way-communication stuff. yeah, human sometimes need space. hehe spaces actually--> dat's why there are people who talk to their pet -cat, fish, cows, chicken. and having someone you know in real life reading your inner virtual thought kinda an uncomfortable situation for me, somehow. heh!

however, in da thrid thought, it was like GILA! absolutely GILA. as dis blog was traced from its archive, which contains a part where i myself couldn't believe what i blogged. haha! some sentimental cum jiwang cum ntah hapa2 cum cipan kinda post hehe. arrrrrrrrrrrrgh. moreover when da friend comment " oooo nanti aku report kat ....... jaga hang!" hehe . well, not dat i'm afraid over da report. it's just dat choi!!! pecah rahsia . heh.

anyhow, on da fourth thought. it's kinda funny. hehe those incidents was like 2 years ago. well, people change. i myself felt dat i've changed. i might not fully got over it, but i've moved on. yeah, mentally and physically of course. wakakaka.

ikut kata hati
tu dia ... there are 4 thoughts on an event. dat's how da world works afterall. different perspective will definitely offer different alternatives, different paths. we can choose. we should choose. and of course da surrounding does influence who weare today... but da final move is still in your hand. "ikut kata hati" dat's a cliche frequently uttered by azno. heh. da reason is dat d instinct is directly from Allah d AlMighty. dat's why we need to jaga hati. hati yang bersih mudah mendapat sinarNya.







24 hours ago, i was standing about 2 meter radius from USM Pool, waiting for my turn to complete 8 events, first stage, of life saving skills. gathered there around 1230 and half an hour later, 1300 it begins. yep, sharp at 1300. rembang tahap matahari iklan gula2 halls.

at last, i manage to get through stage 1. however, i flunk 2 events, 100m and 25 meter underwater swim.
for 100 m, da time limit is 1 min and 40 sec. cipan kan. out of 40 participants only 10 manage to challange da time. da rest, hehe, including me, i exceed da time! heh! by 40 sec. yet, i'm satisfied as da previous time was 2 min 40 sec. and da underwater event, i could only do 21m. memang rasa paru2 dah kempis gila2 though left only 4 meters to complete. i was told dat there's something wrong with da technique. lantokla.

the other 6 events were 300m, adapt tow, cross chest tow, defence & releases, compact jump (3 meters only - yet, goyang2 jugak lutut nih haha), combined rescue (+cpr - hehe wek2).

da whole stage 1 events ended around 1845. yeah, dat was da fist time ever being at pool for staright 6 hours and 45 minutes. hehe ke'jelaga'an memang terserlah. however it wasn't as bad as diving in payar last year.

and next week, is da final, 2nd stage. then, no more rushing to da pool heh.







i need to do something...no.. i HAVE to do something!!!!

since june, i've increased 5 kilos.








nikki was voted out.

well, it wasn't dat shocking since she had been in da bottom two, twice. however, jac's ranking as one of da bottom 2 was a surprise. well, she sang well, however, roslan aziz's comment has it's own credibility. her performance has became flat, nothing, orno more surprises. it was energetic but didn't mesmerize enough. heh

i'm interested with nikki's statement, during an interview with rina and phat phabes,

" the God wanted it to be this way, and i want it to be this way as well"

something which i consider as a positive attitude.







my mom used to say

"jangan cakap waktu makan... kurang sopan"

and i want to add, " makan waktu cakap" is bad as well.







today mark the end of my days in no15 taman pekaka. and yeah, i will no longer be pemastautin in parit buntar area indeed, a musafir. dis mornin' i felt nothing. well, not dat i must feel something but, dis day is just da same friday as da friday in previous weeks. upon departing from home dis mornin' i reconfirmed with abah dat i wanted to brings all my stuff alone, not needing him to accompany. because of two reason - as today is friday, i dont wanna him to rush after his friday's prayer just to accompany me and secondly, i wanted to menghayati da last day of my route to no 15 taman pekaka.

i reached taman pekaka around 1 o'clock. thought of droping by da lab to meet diyana, azno and azani. but, kinda exhausted and da weather was kinda hot, i cancelled da plan. adjourning to drop by them on my way back home. then i started to packing. nothing much though, since kak gazi had packed most of our stuff. thanks kak gazi for da help.

as i walked around da house (to find any things left) images, memories of da home blinks in. i went to da kitchen, i remembered when a phyton sneaked into da house, da day when all of us went to tanjung piandang - brought back lots of seafood - made mee ketam, satay there were usop, kak cik, anuar, salam - open house. i took pictures with azani - dude, you should see da picture. we look so different then (chubby heh!), as i moved into diyana's room (tumpang semahyang dan pinjam telekong dude), i remembered when a theft broke into da house. kopakkan pintu diyana, curik duit dalam bilik azno. as i were going down stairs, i glimps into azani's and azno's room, i saw moments when we were together. lepakking in da master bedroom, talking about stuffs, crushes (hehe usopian, adian, gohian, hamidian).i saw da moments when i highlighted my hair. took pictures in da master bedroom, i saw da moments when i used to step on da weight scale whenever i enter da room. i saw da moments when da 3 of us woke up so late - we watched x-men2 da night b4. balik dalam kol 3. da next mornin ada match antara pasukan JIM kol 8. non of us could mangkit. kak ina called. kak ina came to wake us up. we won da netball match dat day. azno's car punctured. cikgu johar taught us da right way of changing tayars,..i saw da moment when thousands of stories were traded among us. damn i couldn't stop da tears from flowing. it's touching. as i walked down da stairs, in da living room, i saw da moments when we celebrated azno's 23 birthday. 2 cakes. 1, we bought another one she brought from home. i saw da moments when anzo, diyana and me staying up late trading ghost stories. then out of sudden rumah sebelah jerit. diyana jumped over me and azno, i saw da moments we kalut2 prepare to play badminton at night. play tennis.
then as i walked by da car porch.. i saw da moment when azno, azani and me, trapped outside da house. because we fogot to bring da keys. we slept in abv. under da dark sky. couldn't resume da sleep as nyamuk were disturbing.

all of da moments keep flashing. i cried. damn. i did. macam budak2. but believe me dat was so touching.

and i cancelled da plan to drop by diana, azno, azani because it was kinda emotional. i couldn't resume..
we were friends, are friends and will be friends foreva and after... insyaalah

perhaps it's true,

"If you can't let it go, then it's no worth having"~Zen Buddhist riddle