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hmm, there are 8 active windows infront me right now. 1 word, 2 acroba reader and 5 ies - 2 blogs, 1 blogger, 2 google search result.
at dis state i am supposed to focused on da word document, eventually it's too boring.. haha. i couldn't continue to write, gee type anymore. i'm working on da report thinggy. damn bored. haha maybe due to da fact today's friday and i'm gonna be home in another 3 hours.

so, how's dis weekend gonna be, tak dapat nak predict. 2 weeks ago, it was juicy-mango-mangosteen maniac. last week's was durians' xtra-vaganzza and tommorow.. durian some more eh. durians are cheaper than apple here. 1 fine meduim size durian only cost you rm1, a fijian apple about half of da durian's size would be ~ rm1.5-rm2.

pulut durian, kek durian, serawa durian are yum.yum.yummy howeva, sendawa durian.... gonna be tough.. heh






uh.. a week since last week's entry. gee, bukannya apa, no posting - tanda penghormatan kepada dilla yang tengah mengambil final paper. GOOD LUCK SISTA!!

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i recalled david teo's statement in melody , somewhere in april,
"orang besar, bila dah besar, kecik hati pun jadi besar". expressing his feeling towards kartina aziz, a well known actress.

now, david teo is one of da surviving film producer in malaysia. his first product was syukur 21.

so, what's da big deal about dis fella's statement. well, i find out it's true in many ways as i'm suffering from da syndrom, just now, and yeah dat feeling kinda faded away somehow. yep, i couldn't swallow da 'kecik ati' feeling for a couple of hours jugakla justnow, which drew me to post dis im-matured stuff here. not to say dat i wanna exaggerate da kecik2 ati thinggy, but as a reminder for myself to enlarge back da 'kcik-ed' ati.

as people used to say, "yang buruk datang dari kita, dan yang baik itu dari Maha Pencipta", well,it applies here. remember alqas oi! hehe

'revenge' pops in mind. but, naaa, it wouldn't heal, because da resent-motion is nowhere but it's inside me. it would never end unless me myself vanquish it. hehe. well, i'm not dat good, either, for what i myself not a prophet. thus, da best way is to get busy and leave behind da kecik-ed ati for a while. it'll blossom with time, in nanosecond. yeah, really, now im aleady ok what...

hehe thanks to diyana, not only for justnow, but for da tuesday's inokom trip as well. and sorry dude, cause sometimes, i take you for granted! i'll be more aware...






due to 'pop corn wednesday' i quenched my kerepek's thirst with a pack of rempeyek. a lil' bit 'ralat' though as da chips aren't spicy as it SHOULD be.

whatsoeva, a pack had been consumed! a pack of 160g with approximately 200-300 Kj. damn, those calories.

5 months ago, no single c.a.l.o.r.i.e annoys me. uh back then, it was like whateva da 'input' is, the 'output' will always echo for what i have a deep faith in we live to eat.

i remembered accompanying a dude to meet her physician. about 7 months ago. well dis dude is cautious about her weight management and diets. eventhough her BMI is ideal, hmm around 22, her 'apprehensiveness' of being overweight was more than me, whose BMI was 26 back then.

"it depends on how you think, your mentality " .. dat was what dat dr. uttered. i assumed da dr. says dat as she herself is overweight. hehe. but, being a pro, she still continue explained to us 'bout good eating habits, da pyramids, calories, bla.bla ... all those losing weight non-bullemic ways, all those un-anaroxia tips..
and me, personally, i wasn't bothered, as long as da sugar, fat, cholestrol in da blood are low. it's da inner health i looked for. heh konon la. [gee i did a throughly blood test, even was a lil' panic to those jarum!]

now, things are different. gee it's just hard to explain why, how, when. it all begins when a close pal introduce atkin's. although atkins is a 'non-hunger' stuff, as you just need to change ur diet- to a low carb hi protein meals and minus those fruits, any form of fruktose or glucose, i still have dis uncertainty in accomplishing it. i decided to gie a 5 days trial. it somehow prolonged till 2 weeks.

only then i realized dat "low carb, hi protein" stuff is much harder to find, as my menu was mainly chicken, tauhu [soy based products], and nuts. believe me, 'hi carb-low fat-low protein' diet is easier to do as there are variety of carb meals out there, plus it's much cheaper. i loaf of bread only cost a roughly 2 bucks while half of a bird-chicken would cost around 5 bucks.

it's a history doing atkins. i could only managed to maintain following it for about, hmm.. approximately 1 month. i couldn't further on as my appetency for FRUITS mounting like hell. haha, really, i had even experiencing 'gulping' da saliva upon seeing my sista savouring da juicy watermelon as if da watermelon is like a honey-caramel-cheese-strawberry-triffle.
gee, then a dude, a buddy hmm.. well, a sista indeed -> dilla, personally emailed me, saying dat atkin is banned in uk as many people died during da program. thus, i decided to consult a physician.

went to klinik bapa' jalis wakaka. da panel suggest a moderate hi-protein-low carb-hi fruits diet. their explaination make sense, thus i tuned from atkin to da newly proposed diet. but, for only 3 months. later tuned to only fruits and vege diet. till today. [well there are times when i broke da rules, hehe during open house, and during weekends, yeah EVERY weekend, menu is as usual, moreover when balik kampung. tok's cucur and pulut is just sooooooo IRRESISTABLE!!]

i began to develop a faith towards 'we eat to live'.

so. life should be better huh, happier perhaps. well it did until lately. when i decided to end all those diet thinggy. tuned to normal me-menu. but i find out dat i couldn't.

a guilty-feeling after every meal kinda bugs my mind. i couldn't stop myself from counting those haunting-calorie. damn. damn. i love eating, da guilt-ridden mind can't stop from thinking about those sipan calorie. thus, i consult another dr. and guess what. she suggested to folloe da counting calorie till da rest of my life. cipan!

aarrgh.. now i agree with da first physician, "diet, it depends on how you think, your mentality". it's true. very true!!

tok called justnow. ujung minggu nih nak buat pulut durian. uh!






girly day, lady's night, woman's outing day
hmm i wonder why tuesdays are indicated, gee.. dedicated for women. why isn't it friday ke, monday ke..






happy belated teacher's day to all da teachy-dudes out there. being one of da honoured people is such a bless.

kinda 'out of mood' today. maybe due to da outing last weekend. gee, went to a family outing faor about 40 hours. hmm.. kinda tired, but overall it was fun. went boating nearby da japenese coral area, yeah da diving area.

reached dis lab around 1200 and suddenly was overwhelmed by da 'what-my-future life-gonnabe' blues... uh, such tiring, mentally. moreover when da surrounding was a lil' 'unhappening'.

"it's how you wanna your life to be" dat string of words keep pop in mind wheneva dis cipan-'what-my-future life-gonnabe' blues comes in mind. uh. sometimes, life is fun, is enough the way they are. it's like i've landed on da comfort zone, in da secure area. everything is in ordered; outdoor life, indoor achievements, 18-hours schedule.. everything is fine as wished.

howeva, there are times when a subtle voice creeps in, articulating how life could be much more fun, more worthful, much better than it is now. and dat phase ain't equilibrium no more. it's like ...

"takkan forever nak jadi gini.. takkan forever nak dok sini!"

uh! damn! reformulate! reschedule!, uh.. ideas drying-chow!!!






last night's tv3 sms poll question ; should misbun be blamed for thomas cup defeat?

hmm.. should he? well, he's da coach, but definitely he's not da playa. gee for sure, he's not da one whose racquet is in grip. ok.ok. we lost, but does dat mean dat blaming is the only way to accept da defeat?

then, it's da players' fault....

for goodness sake! they played.. if not well pun, they did play hard, at least they fought till da last point.. every drop of their sweat marked their effort to win. and we're da spectator. only spectators.. who's experiencing adrenaline rush every second as the shuttle flow, blaming them for da lost.

come on dude. where is da sportsmanship spirit. defeat doeesn't mean dat we're weak. sometimes the opponents are just good.

not only do da players carry da responsibility to win da game, as well as da burden of being defeated. there's no such thing as win-win in game. it's either you win or lose. if you goddamn good pun, if you opponents are better still you'll lost. no point of winning over weak opponents.

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35 years ago, dis date mark a black tragedy... yeahh da very black one...






finally i have something to say. gee, not dat i don't before this, it's just dat sometimes things are too trivial to tell the whole world. moreover when it's one sided based story!!!

"it's their blog, their life, they can say, can write, can type whateve they wish"

no objection to dat. afterall, we are responsible to what we do kan. but somehow, there are also other 'things' dat need to be considered as we are not alone in dis world. yep, we live in a society, we have neighbours, we have mates, we have siblings, we have friends, we have foes, we have boses, and jangan lupa we have supervisors jugak haha!

being sincere is what they might claim.

heh, sincerity is such abstract. one thing for sure, sincerity has nothing to do with sarcasticsm. it's funny though, when one claims dat she or he is being sincere by throwing sarcastic words. and.and ontop of dat, sarcastic isn't just words. it's BEHAVIOUR!

"the anger is in you"

dat is what Mak has been telling me all the time whenever i got pissed off by something [memang la kan.. tak kan tetiba nak mem'bara'.. mesti ada sebab musabab!]. and upon being told dat, i get angrier heh. only later i realize dat how miracle dat phrase is. yeah, not until dat fire inside is extinguished will i be happy again. heh!

thus, da best solution now is to drink a HELL lot of water, to increase the metabolism rate as well as to overcome dis femish stomach and.and to lit off dat fire!

gotta find some spritzer, chow!






wow! da new look of blogger.. hehe awesome, more colors.. as well as more interactive huh...

surprises are excitement... which comes in when when they're least expected...uh, how i missed 'em!!






not dat i've lost interest to blog... it's just i'm lack of words lately... anyhow, check dis stuff dudes...








have a toast......