sedangkan nabi mengampunkan umatnya, inikan pula kita insan biasa... huh!

gee... down with flu... heh .. yesterday went to sharena's and fiza's raya dates.. hehe.. uh lots of stories were updated... and thanks to both of them for da motivating talk.. uh....sounds tempting.... i'm gearing up to proceed next stage... as fast as i could la tapi heheh..

then, went to PISA with fiza.. gee it was like 3 months i didn't swim... yeah right after da dive in pulau payar, PISA in an indoor international sized pool, [was used during 1998 kl-commonwealth] hehe bekas Ian Thrope lah nih.. at first we thought of going to USM's everlasting-classic-8 lane pool, but then it rained heavily... thus .. we headed to PISA... heh ..

sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, inikan pula kolam PISA huakk!

sejuk nak mampos... nearly frozed... no wonderlah charmine, da diving instructor, rejected the idea of having da water confined session there... it's like impossible to be in dis pool longer than 3 hours.. anyhow, da cleanliness of it's facilities had somehow improved... one good thing about dis indoor pool is that you need not to worry about da wheather, but as a trade, you'll get frozed eventhough during crystal clear weather ...

sedangkan belakang parang di asah berkali2 inikan pula mata pensil... aakkkk!!

gee.. stamina dropped.. did 4 laps rest 2 laps rest 2 laps rest 1 lap rest rest rest... uh.. sejuk plus a weakened lung.. need to do something, since a weakened lung could somehow provoke those athma yinkies to bark!

hidup sehat tanpa dadah, hidup sakit kalau tak 'shake'..huakk!

as usual, after each session, pasti disusuli dengan makan... heheh if there's output... for sure input will echoes... went to Mc D with fiza... pekena da classic McSpicy + shake.. gee thanks fiza... hehe on da way home, crunch some of her delicious makmur cookies...

tempat jatuh lagi diingat, inikan pula tempat bermain, wekk!...

balik2, catch survivor on tv... chilloookkk ... this season, survivor 7 was really a heart break... i couldn't understand how dat 2 fella, christia and sandra could still layed faith on jon, who once wanted to vote them out... buduhs... burton macam bagus... and lilll is 'macam bagus' too... blast away ya two.. heheh however darrah and t made a good move ... heh darrah... senyap yet rocks.. t, you played good dude... it's luck... yeah... it's about politics, strategy, luck and stupidity... da worst is jon... cheated about his grandme's death... uh... if he became d ultimate survivor... memang chillok!!...if lil, memang cipan... if burton... heh memang blueewwkk! .. hehe menda2 nih sembang ngan nadia baru best... setakat taip kat sini dengan takdek responnya... tak syok... umpama melihat kebuduhan sandra dengan christa.... heh!






uh.. homework tak buat lagi...

assignment 4 - write your own epitaph

uh... imagine that you're dead .. and what would you like to be written as your epitaph... --> duhhh... remembering death is good.. sunat....BUT.. having what to left behind [written] is somewhat sucks... how would i know what i'm to the others... huh!..

answer A
Don't grieve for me for now I'm free.
I am following dis path...
I heard da call,
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day.
To laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
I found that peace at the close of the day.
If my parting has left a void, then fill it with remembered joys
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss,
Oh yes these things I too will miss.

alqas [1980 - 20.... ]

or

answer b

i'm such a lucky soul lying in heaven
an hour before the devil knows i'm dead

alqas [1980 - 20.... ]






... it's malam raya ... eiuuu! malam raya...

heh why "eiuuu"??... ntah...
i've been waiting for this moment to arrive... to experiment da remedies which was formulated since da beginning... don't know what to expect.. and how da feeling would be... heheh let it be ... cuma wanted to post theese stuff...

excerpt from d.rizal's tazkirah..

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu engkau bakal bersedia batin dan zahir
mempersiap diri...rohani dan jasmani
menanti-nanti jemputan Izrail
di kiri dan kanan ...lorong-lorong redha Ar-Rahman

duhai Ilahi...
andai ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kami
jadikanlah ia Ramadhan paling bererti...paling berseri...
menerangi kegelapan hati-hati kami
menyuluhi diri ke jalan menuju redha serta kasihsayang mu Ya Ilahi
semoga bakal mewarnai kehidupan kami di sana nanti

namun saudara...
tak akan ada manusia yang bakal mengetahui
samada Ramadhan ini merupakan yang terakhir kali
hanya yang termampu bagi seorang hamba itu
berusaha...bersedia...meminta belas-NYA
andai benar ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kita

and...








uh. internet line kat sini macam berposa 27 hari tanpa sahur..tanpa berbuka... sebab macam 'sakit' tak mampu hidup walau untuk setengah jam.. lantas sedikit sebanyak telah cuba mencantas tahap kesabaran insan berposa ini, secara tak langsung akan membuatkan si insan tersebut memarahinya..kerana tak mampu bertahan meneruskan operasi yang legal..dan asyik2 berillegal walau si makhluk yang berpuasa ini tidak pernah mengajaknya melakukan sebarang aktiviti2 illegal sebagai menghormati bulan posa ini!!! dah dia nak ikut... ikut je la... yg dok illegal operation nih kenapa... huh pi buat kueh raya lagi besh.. uh!






yesterday, a couple of things suddenly pop up...
..fiza's plan
..ivan's updates
..assignmentsssss..sss
..'hoax'ing designs
..tutor's schedule

raya with loads of assignments.. uh terhimbau zaman dolu2.. uh!
assignments
..riwayat - typed uh!
..warkah
..gurindam
..titik tolak
..nisan

anyhow, do you know dat a.samad said doesn't have driving licence.. and.and..he wasn't interested pun to have one... with a reason dat .. driving would limit ones observence..
hmm.. it's somewhat true la jugak.. after all it's not da destination dat counts.... it's da journey..

last night's movie was interesting..."the astronauts' wife" [tv3, 2200].. heh dozed off in da middle though.. but was persistently updated by diyana's shocking exclaimation.. heh ..
da story ponder me back to colleen's ideology... dat it's not what make you attracted to those kind of ppl but ..it's what about you dat draw their attention...
she was refering to a case of spouse abuse... where a lady married to abusive husbands for 3 times..if viewed once, da situation is as if da lady herself dat was attracted to them.. but collen made a twist where she claimed dat da lady who is actually attracting them .. heh what's da different?... attracted vrs attracting...








perhaps.. it's true what was once said dat.. da greatest gift for human is death...

gee...it LOoKS kinda interesting tough... to be one of da immortal dudes [mr. mickey above] [da elves dude] [tuck everlasting]

p/s nina, greennnny nina... i've linked you... easy access...






on dis day, next week... it'll be aidilfitri.. one week countdown to raya.. heh.. uh dis entry is partially dedicated to satria..

having diarrhea while fasting is really a challenge... heh moreover upon azno's arrival from ipoh (heh, ingat dilla, kita lepak bilik azno sebab makanan.. heh super2 delicious makanan!)... those triffle, was left 'begitu sahaja' .... uh.. somemore when you could do nothing.. except.. watching envoiusly diyana sipping da melty-creamy custard ... uh.. dis sick tastebud just won't tollerate... even during sahur... uh. even to da soupy chocolate-nestum... pekat macam bubur.. uh..

worst was last night... heh when da body starts to shiver and demand for a warm surrounding heh.. (uh da red soflan-scented blanket became da most precious asset las night).. but at da same time.. da soul was planning for some other things...memang bosan... selalu kapla penat badan tarak hal.. tapi semalam.. uh... hehe it took nealy 10 minutes to swallow dat dry-white-bitter-drug... (wonder how azno could consistently consume 5-7 tablets of food suppliments everyday).. and if dis happened at home, for sure i'll 'slurp' da honey... which will be much sweeter, creamier.. uh.. how i missed home (heh.. padahal baru je balik dari umah pagi kemarin)

anyway.. then straight away went to bed.. chillok!pukol 2100 da lenyap.. bangun tadi pagi.. 12 hours of sleep(campor after sahur).. uh.. still .. fatigue... thought of not coming to school.. heh layan tv-alam ria cuti sekolah will be much more exciting huh... rather than sitting in dis little cube, with dat siren blaring continously as if bilik dr os was on fire, and having to shelter under dis aircond gigantic pipe (ntah panggil apa)..

but still why am i here?.. at dis very moment huh!... sebab.. dat cukoo dream lah.. ceritanya begini... i resume sleeping after subuh (heh gara2 dakyah nilah- sapa ke pernah cakap mimpi lepas subuh 47% menjadi kenyataan).. i was in da car with azno and einazani... passby miss mawar.. she stopped da car .. cakap dekat window screen akuplak tuh..

" you are supposed to attend the class kan"
" yes, miss, but yesterday ... forgot"
" you request for a place..... but abscent....... bad impression.... 1st class ..."

uh.. menda2 .. maybe sebab aura miss mawar kot.. geee.. kinda cuak .. sebab she's kinda garang.. but not dat garang.. umm.. tapi garang la jugak .. heh. uh and today da class is on 1300-1400... hehhe remind me in case... terlupa lagi... heheh






jengkil2 is over.. thanks dudes... thanks..

when these 'things' happens to others you know what to say, how to comfort,.. but when IT landed on top of your very own head.. it just so so the very the mati the kutu... uh then i went to dis one pal.. and she said ..

".... apa ko ingat benda yg ko nak, tu elok ke bagi ko... zahiriah it's what you aim.. khuluqiah, ko tak tahu.. dengan menda tuh maybe ko akan lagi jauh dari Allah.. and dat will be da worst eva could happen to a makhluk like us.... you just don't know....setiap permintaan pasti dimakbulkan,.. as a matter of time jek... "

yeah2 .. sometimes, you need to be told, need to be notified... yeah even a doctor need a doctor to prescribe him medicines.. uh.. sebab mua'nas itu hakikatnya pelupa... as simple as dat..

anyway..
upon finishing dis stuff.. there are several things dat have been planned.. hmm... plans.. though it's somewhat like synschronous [berzuzukan heh]... executing it is in a way can only be done 'asynschronous'ly..

lately.. everyone is hooked with friendster... one thing dat dis 6-degree-recorded-eva stuff offers is an open testimonial ..

jap.. sebut pasal testimonial.. i remember a friend of mine... one day.. we were asked to write down our ko-k activities (to be written on our testimonials)... and dis fella was asked to collect all da forms...so in d end of da class, he announced..
" ...semua , diminta menghantar borang ko-k untuk ditulis dalam testis .."
he didn't realised what he said (i guess he kinda gabra kot).. untill da whole class burst out laughing... heh!

weh catchup later.. wanna pi tgk ju-on...






OMG... ahhhh nih lama punya blogger punya templete posting... ada keling juga ah... ahh.. soalan aku kepada azno...

aku : azno, salah ke kalau tetiba kan kita rasa macam 'jengkil' terhadap expression seseorang... maksud aku.. erm macam wek wek... padahal takde salah kacau aku pun .. tapi macam wek wek... tapi macam kacau gak ah .. sebab nak tak nak involve atmosfera aku.. silent farter!!!
azno: normal la tuh.. memang aa..
aku : masalahnya kan.. salah ke aku .. aku tak undang pun fasa 'wek' 'wek' dekat keadaan dia .. cuma bila kejadian berlaku macam nak wek wek tapi macam bersalah tapi wekkkkk wek ah
azno: gilo ke apo!

gilo gilo... ah.. menda2 posa nih... tak larat.....

just returned from post office ... [menjengkilkan ! huh]... lantaklah lantak
masuk cerita post office..

ok.. my parcel for dilla was rejected .. wakakaka i made it in a silinder wrapping but later dat 'anne' [ sebut betul2 an~ne] 'requested' for a cube shape.. thus, went to da ko-op to find a suitable box.. none was match.. thus get da smallest which happen to be 4 times bugger than dat silinder.. grab dat box, went to kak ju's photostep corner... borrowed some stationary..

aku : terima kasih,............ erm berapa nak caj.............?
kak ju : tak pelah.......... kamu yg buat ............ menda nak buang........ nanti kirim salam kat dilla...

one thing about dis kak ju is dat her super marvellous memory box inside her small head... she could recognize everyone and list out their name, school and photosteps prop's .. nemonic kot..

then . rush back to da post office.. was later inform dat only after about 2 months, baru you could get dat parcel, dilla... uh... uh.. hehe countdown begins today.... huh!!

[menjengkilkan]... hehehe lawak lahpulak bila pikir2.. lantak ke dia .. lantak.. hummnmmammmaaa amamammmaahummm hauahahahmamam [dalai lama's recital ...



i read an article about dalai lama, after sahur justnow... he said...

being arrogant will only distance your soul away ... moreover when you're in da process of knowing who you are... it's important to know who you are as it would help you face da challenges ahead.. only after knowing who you really are, you could step ahead..

yeah.... he might be true... .... it's all here...






uh, settled out certain things today... though it's kinda cipan punya lagha.. this semester, it'll be a lil' busy as it's be 3 class in a week.. i could escape, but i choose not to.. as i'm having a thought dat dis would be d last time doing all these class-ing2 stuff..

and. i've been thinking dat i would now opted to be straight foward ... damn cipan2 punya.. sebab it'll be fair for both parties la kan..
ah aku posa..posa posa....!






uh..sesubuh2 gini hitz.fm aired 'faint-linkin'park' ... perhaps energy booster to those sleepy-eyed la kot eh.. heh!

tonight, it's gonna be da eve of 15th day of ramadhan, and there will be qunut recital in da 3rd raka'at of witir prayer.....
in yesteryears, dis was da time most awaited in ramadhan...as it indicate da mid of ramadhan... syawal is gonna toarrive soon, and in a way it's a motivation to end dis month.....at this time jugaklah ba'e will start his '10sen-a day-fund raising' project back in kampung - heh to buy all those pelita, fireworks, mercun katak, pop2.. seronot! nak raya..

raya is a happy moment... is it?...

anyhow, lelama, true meaning of raya kinda bugs my raya mood... heh.. da excitement of this fitr-fest started to descent.... and all those pelita2, ketupat2, and kueh2 raya is nothing except an annual-raya-symbolic-stuff ...

but then, raya should be a happy moment.. isn't it?...

once, this matter arose while having lunch with chee keong and teh yong (gee, there were couples back then)... and what draws in my attention was dat, they were too experiencing da same conflict on CNY... heh perhaps it was da process of maturity-when fun is no longer da main agenda in life... keong said dat celebration is only ment for children... and only a child-minded adult can really enjoys it...yeah it's true in a way...

raya will be a happy moment... will it?...

as da brain grew bigger (heh!.. do you know dat ur brain size is twice da size of ur hand?).. raya is viewed differently... appreciating a'id fitr starts as early as da 1st day of d fasting month.... whereby it depends on ur 'performances' in ramadhan... and.and ...only by appreciating dis, one could understand why a'id fitr is a sad-happy-moment... it's sad to leave ...yet it's a happy moment as well to accomplish.. this barakah month..

"surah al-Ankabut menerangkan bahawa seseorang yang mengatakan dirinya beriman, belum dapat dikatakan beriman sebelum imannya itu dicoba dan diuji.orang yang imannya lemah setelah disakiti barang sedikit sahaja hancur imannya, adakalanya mereka menjadi munafik dan adakalanya mereka kembali menjadi kafir" - sinopsis penutup surah al-Ankabut






hoddy doddy...
just returned from terawikh after berbuka at mak tok's...nothing much was served... anyhow da 'gado2' a.k.a pecal really hits dis esophogus!! hehe it was such tantalising...

at da mosque justnow, i sat beside dis one young lady... with her ~2 year old toddler.. gee ... it was such a beautiful scene, heh.. of a mother praying and a child crawling on her back.. hugging her mom's leg... it was so cute, moreover when da cool mother kept entertaining her child.. ..and she wasn't angry at da child at all!... heheh ... gee.. paling garang pun, dia ketip bibir.. hmmmp..
well, in a way, it's kinda disturbing for da mother...yeah ..
having to do both; prayer and at da same time taking care of her child... once, i've been to dis one mosque where they prohibitted children from entering da prayer compound, as they were claimed to make noises dat could
just disturbed da jemaah... however, personally, i don't think it was a good move... moreover when we, at the same time loud for da public to 'imarahkan masjid'... and of courselah it's good to begin at d early age... but it's also true dat these youngsters might also annoy the adults with their mischievous behaviour... and this also depends on how well da parents deal with their children...


[ uh da radio is playing vitamin c - graduation.... huh cipan ah lagu nih!... membuatkan aku terhidu memori2 silam]

gee.. survivor is starting.. sambung kendian... till then,
selamat bersahur semua!!

uh! returned from survivor... huh Lily's conspiracy with da ex-morgan tribe will only cause her trouble in future.. she caused andrew's outcast.. uh.. well, she's da one who losed da tribe's only fish-hook... uh..which is one of da main of her being voted out.. then alih2 in this episode, she's blaming andrew plak... for voting her dolu2... thus this is a revenge ... huh... dis suvivor is just so human!...






"kalau tak ada angin bertiup, masakan pokok boleh bergoyang"

uh.. boleh appa... kalu ko tiup...






life goes on...
afterall it's ramadhan kan, shahru-tarbiyah....

things are done when you COULD get it over(1).... and this must come naturally... yeah you could force and might aswell push your mind to get rid da matters(2) ...but this won't be da same as in da first situation... howeva, dis(2) is far more better than TO PRETEND dat things are over(3).... though in manyways (3) could 'neutralise' a situation.... saves lots of souls heh!.. it's just so so sooo unsatisfying... huh!

life goes on...

if only lah one could choose, either to be (1), (2) or (3).. unfortunately, we, human, can't... but, somehow, we could manipulate these (1), (2), (3) stuff... descend it... everything is peculiar, hard, kills, in da beginning... heh! thus (3) is actually a norm reflection of a human.... but gradually, you could transfer to (1) ... (2) as an added booster huh!
anyhow, i learned to be (3), and am now about to be in (1)...soon, hopefully,gee after a whole lots of (2) huh!!.... apa2pun life goes on.. and time waits for nobody...

life goes on...

Dato' Seri Dr. Mahathir is a history (as he is now Tun Dr. Mahathir)... all his inspiring speech, thoughts, and most of all his press confrence sessions .... knowing him through 'the malay dilemma' is a great start....

life goes on...

"... sayu dengar takbir...."
".. uh, tiba-tiba sayu?..... tadi baru cakpelom... lelaki mana main sayu2..."
".. sayu ah............. lepas esok, kehidupan back to normal sampai bulan posa balik..."
since then, ramadhan is valued worthly.. turning point to become a divine soul, tarbiah to a great muhassabah, tazkiyatun nafsi to a deep understanding... and... and....
MATRIX REVOLUTION uh!

life goes on...

yesterday, i was stucked in a heavy traffic jam... i was on da road for ~ 3 hours... thanks to da queing cars, was extremely bored, tahap dewa kikapooh!... called almost everyone,... ada yg kat ipoh, ada yg baru selesai berbuka, ada yg tengah mandi, ada yang tak angkat... huh! howeva it thought me something... never ever outing / plan a journey after asar during ramadhan + always equipt ur car with snacks !

life goes on...