geee.. at last, heheh at least i can spare a lil' bit of myself to enjoy tomorow's payar trip... heheh selagi menda2 serabut dalam kapla hotak tak setel... hehe susah gak nak bercuti... ye tak diyana?... heheh apa2 pun... up till today i'm impress with dilla's way of handling things... really dude... you kinda have the 'sorting' power management... professionalism - bak kata puan asiah (masa matrik)...

hmm.. happy merdeka day everyone.. do have fun .. (for those who's celebrating, performing or simply watching malam merdeka celebration - life /on tv )... and for those that will be joining me... heheh lets lite up fire-crakers with da fishes.. heheh... good luck!






lately i have been downloading some songs from maroon5... hmm buleh tahan gak lagu2nya...

And mama I've been cryin'
Cause things ain't how they used to be
She said the battles almost won
And we're only several miles from the sun
-The Sun

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle
-Harder To Breathe

There is nothing left to say
To you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
-Tangled




mornin' dudes...

wallaweh today is thrusday... tomorrow, friday.... and da day after is saturday, then sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday and back to thrusday...again... ....bravo to da clock for its accurate, loyal 'ticking' ... time waits for nobody... heh!

anyway, supposedly, today i should attend a seminar on 'data analysis' ... it's a one week thing.. but today, it turned out dat i'm not in da mood... hehe ... thus, it's better to absent both body and soul rather than having a body with an absent soul...

merdeka day is just around da corner... gee wheneva this day... hmm dis 'date' arrives, it reminds me about this one song, sang by dr sam... which somehow had faded with time...merdeka nowadays is like a whole nation celebration..hmm yalah kan -memang one of da national festivals pun... those patriotic songs, blaring through da tvs & radios ...

now, dis dr sam's song, (1957, aku dilahirkan...) is hardly to be forgotten... it brings me back my childhood days... heh!... it was in 1986, loceted at da museum of usm.. me, soraya and all of our tadika mates were entertained by dis uncle sam.. it was one of da merdeka day activity...he performs a couple of songs and was helped by this one clown.. heh dengan aksi2 megik tricknya..
during da interval, soraya and me went sauntering around da museum and as we were about returning to da crrowd, uncle sam was announcing for volunteers to sing along his final song (da merdeka one).. gee, da teacher, mis(ntah lupa namanya) push both of us as we were standing at da entrance of da hall... hmmm we were a lil' surprised and we were given a mic. and a card (da lyric was typed on it- heh punyala besar tulisannya - heh untuk mata budak2) to sing along with him .. heh and there it goes, my first 'karaoke' session hahahah ..






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mornin' early bloggers...

hadn't got enuff sleep last night.... huh ... there was these youngsters fighting loudly around da corner... gee... it was disturbing... such yell, shouts and dat 'vroom'2 stuff... it's a holiday though, but i choose not to 'resume' my dream as it wasn't much fun as i hope it would be...

anyhow.... d open water diving has been rescheduled... instead of postponing it (to 2 weeks later), we brought it forward to this weekend… yup… this coming merdeka day… though it was like a 3-day-holidays (enuff rest after those ‘anticipating’ dives), yet d idea of dat pulau payar trip on merdeka day is not a good one… yalah.. heh not to say dat I’m such a patriotic, hmm after all, da previous merdeka2 day count down pun was celebrated in front of tv… thus it should make no difference la kan… but still, payar trip on merdeka day is not what I’ve been expecting… anyhow.. it’s a new experience… hehe celebrating d merdeka day with a bunch of divers who are multinational, multiregional and ‘multiplier’ isn’t dat bad –hopefully..

sebut pasal celebration, there were a couple of dis merdeka day thing carved in my momory… hmm… during my childhood days, secondary years and varsity era… hmm next coming post maybe (since at 10, I’m having my last diving class b4 da payar trip)

diving class has been very interesting lately… heh! now, it was much fun in da early clases (as i was a bit ‘jakun’ with all those scuba equipments – pengalaman pertama lah katakan… and all those skills (basic scuba) was something new) compare to da second stage where we were thought finning skills, cramp surviving skills (it was a lil boring… ) ..but the end , heh grand finale stage.. it’s getting merrier… heh as yenji (da sweet girl who taught me how to make pool entry) kindly show some of swimming tricks (hmm.. da pool entry)… hmm… k.fiza had taught me once… but I kindof cuak (heheh ketar lutut gak – after bending, pointing hand to da pool) - though I’ve made da 3 meters jumping (from diving board) … it was somehow scary to enter da pool, having da head to lead da leg (funny hah,… ) … heh tapi I did it last Friday, and going to do more today… heh

I went to ong, da ‘skin’-man.. heh sabit my mom’s confident with his ‘remedies’ ja… it was like a 5 minutes and he prescribed me with a bunch of tablets and anti-septic… yeah those rashes did interfere my day… heh!!!! memula I thought it was just some kind of allergy… chlorine ke.. food ke… but it seems to be wrong… heh oklah dulu…it's nearly 9.. wanna prepare my dive stuff

P/s rock… ingat dok mc Donald 31-8-1997…. Hahah lepas kena candid !!







keadaan kinda serabut.. huh... too many stuff tangled ... productivity seems to slow down... huh.. anyhow... life is still fun... when 'practising' -> life is about enjoying what you have.... heh...

about 3 days ago, da mpp launch a computer game tournament... da game, which is in it's second season, is held in lembaran cafe... sponsored by several departments lead by pukom (pusat komputer)... about 40 pc are placed in da cafe... some of da games is war craft, fifa.. and worm.... worm.. heh sayangnya during those2 time da mpp weren't as creative as these new fellas... (heheh ye tak dilla?)










ah.. chatterbox is now filtered by websense... choiiiiiiiiiii.. no wonder it was always unavailable... thus, a help from another proxy is needed!.... heh urgently..

settled... hahaha






frantic endurance - luckily it happens only yersterday.... heh!...

really, a chaotic aura hovered my soul, my mind and my move yesterday... gee, all those fpga stuff wrinkled my forehead.. everythings seems not in order- discussions, luckily it was yvonne's day yesterday... her moves did help me rejuvenate my day!!!...

and thank you satria ... for accompanying me last night... heheh almaklumlah Ed has been changed to wednesday pulak... thus, monday will be a lil' bit boring...

ahhh... 2 hours ago, i wa in my cube...doing my stuff... but now, i'm right in front dis super-granny-public-computer... huh out of sudden, my pc refuse to tolerate ... huh! nak marah pun tak guna... it will only tense myself ... huh I HATE MACHINE ERROR... heh.. though without machines human are nowhere, i still couldn't embrace IT into mylife..

'you are what you choose' ... is it? will it? was it? ..... how about da existance of fate?.... something dat has been choosen (hmm... something dat was given) for you whether you like it or not... if life depends on fate, how selective can a human be?..
what you were in da past are 'histories' and what you plan to be in future are just stories, ambitions, dreams, nightmare, ...... they are all FATE... you are what you are now... which deals on how well you handle da current moment.. and yup....you choose what you are now... you choose which way you are cruising now...

questions of qada' and qadar is another matter .... so thus tawakkal....


Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else

-pink, don't let me get me-









kenyang.. serius kenyang.. hehe.. just came back from kampung... yesterday's menu - durians, fried rice, cheese cake, passembur, fried mee, koewteaw sup, cucur chempedak, heh nasib baik satay tak sempat... bloated till today man... hehe i guess i'll be excused from wearing weight belt during training dis evening... gerenti tenggelam... wakakaka

p/s een, tetiba aku takut ah pulak... heheh takut mengetuk dulang si paku serpih... hehehe






ritz-zy friday

ya Allah, sesungguhnya waktu Dhuha ini adalah waktu DhuhaMu,
dan kemegahan itu adalah kemegahanMu,
dan kecantikan itu kecantikanMu,
dan kekuatan itu kekuatanMu,
dan kekuasaan itu kekuasaanMu,
dan kudrat itu kudratMu,
dan perlindungan itu perlindunganMu,

ya Allah, sekiranya rezeki itu dalam bumi, kau keluarkanlah ia,
dan sekiranya ia di langit kau turunkanlah ia,
dan sekiranya ia sukar kau permudahkanlah ia,
dan sekiranya ia haram kau sucikanlah ia,
dan sekiranya ia jauh kau dekatkanlah ia

dengan waktu Dhuhamu, kemegahanMu, kecantikanMu, kekuatanMu, kudratMu,
Atini ma atai ta i'badikassolihin...






thrusday's dilemma......










wet-ty wednesday...

blog dearie,

..... hehe.. how i missed you so much... a lot of things i wanna tell you but my fingers just can't flow smoothly on dis usual, loyal, intel-donated keyboard... hmm.. yeah the same old keyboard dat i've used since .... umm since i was here.. heh lama gak tuh... yet i still wanna you to be alive... hope you can digest those nutricious piccies that i fed you... yeah2... they were not dat tasty... but as long as it's halal... telan sajalah labu!!

anyway... allow me to wish my dudes....
to

Dilla - i'll post... weh ada tgk siri 'fellicity' to dok? i was thinking nak guna method dia la - which, she taped her life stories and send it to her buddy hmm.. weekly... senang.. more stories can be transfred in a short while (heheh kita kan cakap laju)

Rock - i miss you dude.. i'll assure da visit jadik.. i have like... thousands (heh make it about 7,825) of story-mories to trade with you... glad dat you're now working... heheh leh blanja aku ..

Nina - gee... how's life lately dude?... activate kanla balik ur blog... weh i'm planning a trip to ur santuary... leh?

Satria - yeah ... roy shouldn't just naked around .. ahaks.... !! heh!

Azno - congratulations on ur convocation.... thanks sebab sudi amik gambar grad dengan aku... hehhehehe

Azareen - ur 'sweet-boroy-ivan' kinda debonair ...haha.. tanya satria untuk ulasan lanjut.. hehe

Diana - uhooo... when i was just about returning to da campus... you pulak flown back to ur nest... anyhow good luck dude for da presentation

Shuth - wallaweh... ur smsme rocks la.... dat's ur project ke? wanna know more about 'smsme' leh?

D1n - hang gheja kat kl ka? dulu hang kat mana? tak balik kulim?

ADi - phew man... phew... phew ... phew,.. heh!


okeh... last week i went to USM's 36th convocation... gee... jesreen, azno, een, were some of my graduating cliques...they graduated on Sunday... hmm... this year's convocation is like those previous convocation2 jugakla... heh... as far as i could remember la kan.. i've been visiting, wandering around tapak konvo since i was 10 (hmm.. lepas kelas tajwid kat masjid al-malik usm) and.. now, counting to 23, the occasion remain as it is used to be... cumanya last year it's a bit different... heheh ya la kan... because i was one of those celebrated convo-yinkies..... hahaha...

beside awarding those high achivers, excell nerds heh, i personally think dat USM should also honor those usm-branded-homosephians.. jugak... kasi la penghargaan ke, diskaun ke.....to those who starts their early literate breeding (tadika koperatif / tadika pusat islam misalnya)... and finish their tertiary education.. (and during their primary and secondary years they used usm learning facilities -lib, museum, pools) in USM... buat lah pingat ungu ke (sebab pingat emas dah digazet)... heh calon2 nya ramai... heheh ye tak dilla?

about two weeks ago, i finally joinned usm's scuba club.. heh .. it was fun.. hmm.. it is fun... i'm applying for PADI open water licence which enable me to make up until 18 meters of diving... 18 meters is about da height of 6 storeys building... and to accomplish da course, i need to complete 5 moduls (theory) of basic scuba diving activities (heh we dragged back all those physics theories - bouyancy, water pressure calculation), water confined skills (hmm.. this is da interesting part.. calibrating those scuba equiptments, snorkeling, finnning) and lastly i need to succesfully make 4 dives in da 'real' surrounding ( in da sea... no pools anymore... we chose pulau payar (which is dued on da 6-7 th of september) since it's da cheapest)...

so there it goes... scuba lessons for my weekend's activity la kan for this coming weeks (untill da pulau payar trip)... and da tan - gee da word 'burn' suits dis description better....anyway da 'burn' was quite obvious too... heheh tapi hanya kat muka jelah .... naomi mode.. haha!

last week, i took 1 week off... hehe illegally... but who cares la kan... asal keja jalan (kata2 addie irawan)... why 1 week off? hmm... tazkiyatun nafsi... heh... soul searching?... hehe.. sort of... during da week, i accompanied my dad settle things, followed my parents looking around for a new house (they wanted some new touch... new surrounding.. new air), watched tv (watched almost every programs aired)

one of da programs i've screened was edisi siasat... ... hmm.. i prefered tv3 documentaries / news / siasatans to ntv7 programs ... because tv3 presentings are much more interesting ... and ntv7 for me is like much more provokating... not dat i dislike provokating issues ... i just dislike their way of presenting those issued... and they kindof like to mimic those westerners style ...tapi tak jadi .... heh ntv7 dipihak anda.. heh! heh!

but i still watch ntv7... Ed punya pasal lah nih... hehe ... anyway .. last week's edisi siasat on 'lesbians among malaysians' caught my attention ... gee,.. they interviewed this one girl ... hmmm a woman kot.. agen around 25++.. .. this fellow claimed to be a penkid ...she said dat girls are much more interested in them because they are much more understanding, soft yet still they have dat masculine personality.... gee... penkid - soft ke? one more, these girls actually still seek dat masculine figure, i mean masculinity... it's like as if they were given da oppurtunity to choose, they would choose a man la ....
hmm...da unique/mystery about these lesbians/gays is dat why they have dat feeling on those who are similar to them ... (ala~ lucy liu + drewberry)
well, anyhow, the issue is there - the rising number of lesbians among malaysians... but da expounding about it is somewhat fragile.. heh fragile, not strong enough to divert people's perceptions about these homosexual stuffs...not strong enough to make people think twice before saying no to homosexuals.. hmmm ... it would be better if edisi siasat .. siasat more on why these people don't have dat chemestry (feel for da opposite)... why these women turned back on man... what in women dat they look for.. . .. ntah apa2 jela yg rasa nak siasat... hehe yang pasti tv3 rocks ! heh!

ok... chow for now...






Tuesday's horay... hoooooray...








howdy monday....








supposedly, i am to be in bed now... heh.. but then, i couldn't stop my mind from boggling about things dat can't be controlled... or better make it dis way... things dat i can't control ..thus I think blogging might help.. hmm maybe...

'dare to fail'... huh .. if only failing is fun... tapi kan ..in a way it is fun.. sometimes, gee… but, most of da time ..it sucks, it stinks, it hurts ...
dealing with da failure is another catalyst! one way to heal da pain is by simply forget da past… plan for da next step… plan for tomorrow… huh…

what do I want to say here? Heh sangkut la pulok..

failures come and go… heh the world is balanced… there are male-female, beauty-ugly, clever-stupid, black-white, success-failure…not until you fail you’ll know your strength..

anyway..
it’s worth trying… tak kesahlah dalam papehal pun, life, commitments, career, … it’s worth… bak kata rock, ‘selagi tak ada orang cop gagal kat dahi, selagi tuh tak dak sesiapa leh stop us from trying’…

hehe so what’s da prob here?… hmm I couldn’t let dis frustration buried with time… although it’s subtle,…it’s existence still can’t be denied…huh! it bothers, and i'm bothered ...

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went to komtar… it was said dat da ‘oooh penang’ photos exhibition will be held there… but then it was cancelled… last week, some of da photographs was presented in gurney plaza… they were all wonderful and creatively captured.. gee da beauty of photographing - not only does it paint pictures, it also carved da moments on it...
hmmm.. bilala boleh ada camera best2..

i like drawings, paintings, pictures.. but i don't know how to draw.. thus, lawatan ke komtar ini dikira bertepatan lah ..

.. unfortunately da exhibition was cancelled in komtar… heh promo saja lebih.. anyway.. while walking through da bridge (between perangin mall dengan komtar), I met with this one familiar face… (heheh adek angkat dilla) .. istmeth yasmin (maseh ingat dilla?)…

‘bila balik?’
‘ada la kot dalam 2 bulan’
‘so, tgh buat apa sekarang’
‘tgh lepak2, I’m graduating this coming september’
‘eh, hg grad bawah apa eh?’
‘university of Minnesota, aku buat exchange trus.. complete programme’

heh… once, yasmin was mysteriously gone with da wind… and now she has returned… hehe for those who wish to know about her ‘student-exchange cum terus-blah’ story (hehe sampai pegawai jabatan antarabangsa marah) .. can get her number from me….

‘dulu dengar memacam cerita pasal hg kat sana.. tapi kira orait ah.. tgk sehat je skrg’ (gaya poshnya leh tahan gak)
‘takde masalah .. semua setel.. ‘
‘bagus, bagus’
‘tu la .. dulu hg dapat, hg tolak’
‘heh .. hg ingat lagi?.hmm.. buat guanne, fund tarak’
‘mana leh tak ingat, hg dengan nana, mumtaz kan.. … nih kawan hg tu jadi pi ?’ (dia ingat kat hg lagi dilla .. hehe)
‘tak, masa tuh timbalan dekan tak kasi +dia tak mau extend’ (betul apa kan masa tuh d.marizan tak galakkan pi…)

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to Wong Choon Hann,

congratulations... because you played well... bravo for da tough fight...

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yesterday's bicara siswa - demokrasi dalam universiti..
gee.. heh






memula fiza, then atty then een... gee sorry can't reply ur messages... heheh i'm out of credit..
yup een, today is yvonne's & the good news is that ooi will be away for next 2 months... hehehe






watched lara croft actions yesterday... hmm...

she says...

(somewhere 25 minutes in da beginning of da show)
" lost things are ment to be found..."
......
......
" some lost things aren't ment to be found..."
(somewhere 15 minutes before the show ends

in between those two lines... i dozed off.. heh!

however...a credit should be given to lara croft....
her hair is charming.... perhaps her hair that capture my attention most.. .. besides her accent la kan...


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