yennadey!! lu cakap senang la .. bila dah 'langsai' atau dah 'cekau'... nak mamposnya aku nih... kat tengah2... lepastu ditanya bertubi2 ... "annie are you ok, are you ok?" - smooth criminal ...heh! of course i'm ok... huh!

nikmat

apa itu nikmat? nikmat itu rusky... choi... if life could be dat simple...

nikmat makan ketika lapar... nikmat tido ketika ngantuk ... nikmat senang setelah susah.... nikmat gembira setelah sedih... nikmat kejayaan setelah kegagalan-> skema jawapan SPM ... heh

saleem cool planet...nikmati keindahannya

pleasure, as what a dictionary explain -->A fundamental feeling that is hard to define but that people desire to experience., An activity that affords enjoyment., Sexual gratification.. heh

'nikmat' only apears after a long navigation heh... a long 'toddling' across da 'death' ocean ... it happens at da moment when you could cock up ur head, after a deadly battle that had caused ur forehead to touch da bottom of the earth, hmm bottom of every bottom perhaps.......

tapi tulah nikmat... it's a phase which echoes a 'death' ... no other way of getting it except through da traditional-ortodox-pathetic-scary-exhausting 'death'



1,2,3 do re mi... apa nak jadi, alif ba ta a,b,c
apa nak jadi, akan terjadi, hujan pasti berhenti....
m.nasir

gee last night's carnival tv3 concert was nice... heh which also featured tv3's personalities, hmm.. ally looked a lil' stiff while singing... hmm zakiah anas sang quite ok... heheh Ogy.. heheh ala2 oogy .. heh jangan marah.. heh

hmm.. it had been a while m.nasir did't appear on tv.. his unplugged apokantare still captivates d audience. ... yeah ... despite his own way of music, m.nasir's songs also brings out wonderful lyrics .....

ezlynn... a little over-dancing.. heh! she made a good efforth though.. heh lompat2... ala2 avril.. but alas, she looks as if she's out of breath... elyanna did better (dalam jam@mcD).. and exist... best,best...

Oh goreng lempeng lempengnya hangus
Oh goreng lempeng lempengnya hancus
Oh goreng lempeng lempengnya haus
Oh perut ku kosong
Dia tetap ratuku






eerrmmm... how to begin eh?....

26th May oops 26th Jun.. nyanyok seyyy... hmmm.. of all da day in may, why was da 26th chosen?.. gee first and foremost, sorry to reenee.. i wanted to wish you, sing u a "live" birthday song heh... unfortunately, i dun't have ur number.. anyhow, happy birthday, reenee..

and .. i've just returned from nina's spot... heheh buat birthday party kat reenee eh.. bagus2... hmm.. 1/4 life crisis... heheh sounds like everyone will at least have it once.. making decisions can be really tormenting... anyhow.. you know what da best for you... good luck dude..

and back to 26th Jun... heh.. 'genting escapade' huh.. why was da 26th chosen?.. ... at first, da trip was also meant to catapult 2 birds with a stone ... hihi.. almaklumlah alang2 outing, satu hala lak tuh... but then it turned out that one of da bird was 'unwell' --> I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell.. thus da concerntration is now on d other bird... heh.. and 26th was chosen since

a. it fall on thrusday... a day that is near to da weekend... hmm but then kan why not on friday... aaa sebab friday is a sum-up day
b. pay day was dued to be on d 25th--> kekangan kewangan dapat dielakkan
c. fengsui bagus--> 8th day b4 3rd of july

so, on 26th we left parit buntar heading to kl as early as 0005.. heh the bus was scheduled on 2359 but only departed 6 minutes later... i sat next to satria and next to our seat was azareen's ... heheh we brought along sandwiches (kaw punya.. hehe syok aa jenjalan bawak bekal2 nih), bengkang roti (heheh jangan tak percaya, adhock recipy and cooked by satria).. hmm thanks to azno, for the f1 ride... hahaahah elok2 je sampai bas pun dah ada...

and heh and as expected, the bus was so damn cold.. tahap eskimo.. tipu tuh .. hmm slightly colder than da lab... heh tak sia2 bawak baju kalis peluru.. we slept along da journey.. heh tak macam ke mimos itu hari where diana and me BAS (borak apa saja) the whole bus ride.. heh!.. arrived duta around 0430.. and later we stepped down da bus at hentian pudu at ~0450.. heh lucky to have azareeen along... hehe once, satria and me went to t'ganu, last year to dilla's wedding.. hehe both of us never been there b4... thus cuak and terkial2 which way to go.. heh..

around 0615 we took lrt putra to kl central.. around 0830 we took da bus headed to awana genting.. hmm reached awana about 1.5 hours later... sayangnya the view was limited to a certain distance only.. heh due to da foggy weather .. heh takpe2 sebab da intention wasn't that much on viewing da scenery.. it's more to chill out (heh nearly 6 weeks jugaklah tak kuar kememana- since bukit larut's expedition) .. hmm as the genting theme --> nikmati keriangan di puncak kegembiraan.. heh.. took da sky way and reach genting's peak around 1000..

sampai2 atas..

masuk ke fasa Gentingland Outdoor Theme Park...we took pirate train...hehe lawak2.. macam bebudak ...then hop in da spinner spinning ala2 naik buaian.. ... we went to second phase,Magic Mountain Theme Park... lined for matahari ride ..

lepas tu..

HUJAN.. sih.. hujan tuh.. hujan! hujan!15x.. heh 26th Jun 2003 Genting Highland hujan... hujan.. hujan.. huh yennadey... of all da day.. 26th ..ia hujan (menurut akak yang jaga tiket, semalam hujan selepas beebrapa ketika ia tak ujan).. heh betullah skrg kan musim hujan yang gih musim hujan tu siapa suruh! (hehehe kata2 yang tak buleh nak terima waktu berada betul2 dihadapan tanda "close").. karipap ... memang karipap... nasib baik ada kata2 perangsang... hujan itu rahmat... yeah .. rahmat..

heh.

thus we went back to da indoor park... huh took lunch at kyros kebab.. heh! then azareen got this one idea .. to find another port elsewhere than da raining genting, KLCC was da destination playing in our mind....

thus we decided to have another 15 minutes taking some photographs... went back to Frontierland Outdoor Theme Park... and drove in da stupid antique car.. heh tak thrill langsung ah kunon.. but then,.. the clouds seemed to clear off .. and slowly mr.sun started to brighten... ten! ten! ten!... turun aje kreta antik.. we headed directly to Cyclone rollercoaster.. heheh .. ini baru berbaloi skit.. then we took da Spinner again.. while waiting for the other game to start it's system... ..

then off we go to da Solero.. solero shock !! heheh memang syok.. at first azareen wasn't quite sure to follow... heheh thus she look up our bagasi.. heh i sat next to satria.. heheh best best!... then baru it worth paying rm22.. for this genting trip... hehe memang best... the the three of us went riding on double-loop roller coasterCorkscrew.. hehe.. and we headed back to solero... heheh i had my 2nd ride with azareeen pulok... gee.. the 2nd time was much more thrilling...

heh later we stepped in Water Park Outdoor Theme Park... naiklah Sungai Rejang Flume Ride ... huh diana pesan bawak xtra baju.. mmg bawak.. tapikan diana... seluar yang basahnya.. heh! .. hmm then, it started to drizzle ...jeng! jeng! heh with a heavy cloud on top... so we took our last ride on Rolling Thunder Mine Train.. bak kata azareen untuk kering2kan badan.. heh our first thought it was a family ride... slow tut tut rain ... heh sekali ala2 roller coaster... this is really worth paying rm22!

around 1700 we reached KL central, about 1845 departed to KLCC.. spend all evening there... and around 2145 went to Bintang walk.. about 2230 azareen's mom and bro fetched us and drove us to "uptown" area.. heh i was't focusing much on da journey... mengantuk sey... hehehe sambil sembang ngan azareen's mom terpejam mata... wakakaka.. hmm... around 2345 reached duta... and sharp 0007 we went off back to pb...

reached pb around 0430... kak Gazi fetch and straightly went home...

apa2 pun it was fun .. bes .. thank you satria, thank you azareen... and also diana, azno, kak gazi... ... daaaaa!






eiuuuu... diana left me... huhu... takpe.. tonight aku raya... hahahaah... bukan nak berlagak eh diana... nak rai'...

new dude heh!




aahh... tonight i'm gonna to raya... kes kes.. bukan nak balagak eh diana.. nak rai'.. heheh

tried out model sim... hmm.. not that bad.. a liltle tedious but so far ok la..








uargh... oke oke.. aku akur dengan takdir...finally, i've decided, gee i'm forced to..acatually.. to begin dengan VHDL Xilinx... instaed of Schematic Xilinx...

bak kata dilla, takpa2
bak kata satria, takpa2 anggap ilmu



ches!.. all da downloaded blur-think-thank tak boleh didengar.. heh data ada 6M each .. huh!



lately... kekangan makin menjadi2.. kekangan idup.. akkk!!! kalau bukan aku pun ... dalm idup kawan aku... heheh siapa "kawan"2 aku ini.. hehehe.. erm..

kekangan emosi... heh kekangan yang menyorotkan kepada ketidakstabilan glen2 dalam kapla hotak.. kekangan yang menjerumuskan kepada andaian2 .. andaian2 yang hanya berdasarkan naluri sejauhmanakah kebenaran naluri ini... bulehkan naluri dipercayai? ... namun dalam situasi ini, naluri ini terbatas pada jarak.. jarak yang memisahkan satu perhubungan..

apakah itu perhubungan? satu situasi antara dua atau lebih pihak..
bagaimana berlakunya hubungan? pertembungan ..
di mana ia bertembung? ermm mana2 je.. blog? heh
kenapa berlakunya pertembungan? suratan takdir

maka kekangan ini juga suratan takdir.. apakah sudah ada jawapan untuk takdir ini? kalau ada, apakah ia? bulehkan ia diketahui? masalahnya, pada siapa ia buleh diketahui.. erm.. wajarkan takdir dikatakan misteri.. misteri itu sendiri satu ketidakpastian.. .. eiuuu.. semua benda tak pasti.. apa yang pasti?

Cinta yang pasti adalah cinta Ilahi .. need more to add?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

KENAPA AKU DIUJI ?
" Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan ;"
Kami telah beriman,"sedangkan mereka tidak diuji ? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka,maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta ."
Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3


KENAPA AKU TIDAK DAPAT APA YANG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN ?
" Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui ."
Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216



naomi campbell skin mode.. heh

yesterday, went for a half-day sps netball carnival... gathered at ida's house around 0715.. 25 minutes riding on her motocycle... gee.. da breezing, fresh morning weather was just nice.. yeah so nice.. moreover when it rain da night before.. riding cross da shortcut surrounded by palm oil plantation (bukit panchor).. eiuu memang bes.. it;s really refreshing and cool... heh moreover with ida's moto riding skill's... kona leper tuh... heh ..

i love riding motocycle..hmm.. hanya kalau membonceng ah.. relax skit...furthermore when riding a bike, you tend to get close to da surrounding, ... heh and you can feel da journey more.. and of course da danger is also more.. heh... semua benda camgitu.. no pain no gain .. heh!

ok back to da carnival... hmm.. da game started around 0800 and ended ~1330.. 5 hours of 4 matches.. 15 minutes per game.. so.. it's just 1 hour of game and da rest of 4 hours of loafing around.. heh .. an average of 1 game per hour.. 10 minutes of warming up and heh only 30 second of cooling down for each game .. thus for 1 game, 25 minutes and 30 second is needed.. and for da whole 25 minutes 30 second, you have no choice but to strongly standing alive under da mighty luminoius sun... for the first 2 game... the sunlight was not much a big deal... heh it's like sunbathing .. heh .. but in da remaining 3 games..it was really challenging... as more pressure was being topped - to win.. somemore with da increment of da sunlight intensity... but we manage to champ group A .. thus made da way to the semi final... and later to final... gee.. perhaps the final was da most challenging.. heh nama pun final.. moreover when you 're facing those who are trained under da same coach.. and dat group was da selected one... and da final was done exactly after azan zuhur.. huh pacak matahari atas kapla tuh... gilos.. nasib baik atas padang, kalau court.. mau melecet gak tapak kaki nih.. huh! hehe and there it goes.. hmm we lost da last game but frankly... i was satisfied... gee.. i am satisfied
satisfied with da game ... satisfied with my performance ... satisfied with my position.. - i played as WD .. at first .. i was asked to play C ... but then switched to WD after a negotiation heheh with k.isma... during da second-half of da second match k.chah was injured so i replaced her as GD.. but later when azno arrived, i returned to play as WD.. heh buleh rasa perbezaannya .. hehe

after da prize giving ceremony.. i followed k.atty pulok.. heh ride on her bike.. around 1400... on da way we dropped by jabatan pertanian.. heheh beli dadih.. dadih lembu yang ada la kot 3 tahun tak makan... heh.. sedap.. mmg sedap.. and straightly went to ida's house... to return her helmet .. ingatkan nak trus balik... sekali k.lang ajak lepak2 makan2 rehat2.. maka lepaklah .. heheh sekali ujan... hu tersadai kat sana hingga kol 4...

gee.. it was fun... but.. heh this mornin i woke up realizing that i'm now accompanied by 2 bruises.. 1 on my left arm ( heh nih WA Kelab SP punya siku la), 1 on my left thigh (nih waktu pertembungan dengan GA GPMS).. hmm.. and one more.. heh i'm in naomi's skin mode.. huakk!!! kalau badan takpelah jugak .. heheeheh ... really weh.. 5 hours in da sun will effect da skin for at least 3 weeks.. heh.. but then kan..... these are da price that i paid for da fun yesterday.. .. dat half-day fun.. heh that 5 hours fun only 5 hours..!

p/s .. semalam i was asked to read prayer (heh baca doa) before tha game... heh masa 1st game .... i was so anxious for da game .. and i started with Alhamdullilah hil lazi at a'mana ... .. .. (doa lepas makan tuh)... huh !!.. tapikan da meaning is still there... hmm...

*wes dilla... tahniah.. tahniah.. wey azno msg aku.. malek (1 org lagi adek angkat mu)nak nikah dah... huakkk!!
*wes rock.. wut's da 2nd thought? hmm..
*saman malu atau rugi? ... neither, sebab aferall it's a free publisity






They paved paradise and put up a parkin' lot
With a pink hotel, a boutique, and a swingin' hot spot
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lothehe satria... parking lot tuhhhh...

They took all the trees, and put em in a tree museum
And they charged the people a dollar and a half to see them
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise, and put up a parking lot
-Counting Crows







just finished browsing through blogspots... heh hmm.. i read back entries from my dudes... gee.. this blogging stuff does radiates auras.. auras which influence one's life... yeah...

does da blogging reflects it's doer?
gee personally i dun't know,....it depends on how da blogging is done .. but somehow, blogging does bring you close to one another, even with someone whom you never know before..

there are thighs that couldn't be said ... but can be written...
there are also things that couldn't be written.. but can be drawn... after all 'a picture potrays thousands of words,

all of these are just as a metter of conveying messages...



i've just returned from vistana... in an uweekk tahap 0.35% dewa mood.. huh!

it all begin....

last night, lam called ... hmmm she invited me to a seminar conducted by this omegatrend company which was sheduled today... gee, i wasn't that interested to join da stuff.. but since i wanted to meet lam, i agreed to follow her... hmm around 2100 justnow, she fetch me and my sista and then, five of us (heh i met another 2 of lam's friend , lucy and david) went to da vanue... heh ... with a plan to 'merendek' around, melihat keadaan hotel which once was hilighted as a sars balck area, in mind
hmm.. as we reached da lobby, i saw quite a big crowd, hmm...all of them were formally dressed, holding black suitcases... and this situation had somehow discomforted me and my sista since we were in casual outfit, almaklumlah baru balik dari berriadah bersama2 satria dan azareen petang tadi...

i could see a reception counter, we were asked to but a ticket... heh, and lam .. da 'generous' lam paid for me and my sista.. as we didn't bring enough money (gee mana nak tau kena kupon2 plak.. ingatkan nak gih meminum2 jek)..
maka terjebaklah kami dalam seminar omega trend nih..

heh da presenters, an ausie and a malaysian... luckily their presentation wasn't dat boring... though it does look like funny .. heh macam ceramah motivasi pun ada.. anyway.. layan je lah sebab no turning back... nak chow.. tak tahu guanne.. sebab lam yang jemput..

and it finally ended after about 2.5 hours....

as we we about to blah, this one young lady (beautiful amoi) aproach.. i was introduced to her - and she is lam's friend, karen ..and a moment later she starts a group discussion... pulak... heh and since karen's idea was entertaining-future of multi-level marketing - menyeronokkan memandangkan
memang aku tak tahu menahu ah pasal marketing2, bisnes2 nih... dah ada orang nak explain... dengar+diskas lah..

da discussion was fun.. informative... heh but only for da first 30 minutes... well.. it later turned to be a some sort like provokative when i made up a clear refusal,

" erm.. hehehe well i don't think that this omega stuff suits me "
heh then, karen tetiba sounds like forcing.. maka membebel lah dia.. heh erm.. in a quite sarcastic manner.. and it did arouse my anger.. heh.. the climax is when she said,

" this is the different between the rich and the poor... aftaid of taking risks.. and the rich will be more rich while da poor remain poor"

heh i smiled, ..heh what could i say ... i could only smile...i can articulate nothing more than some "he he he"..

ntah tetiba karen cam hangin semacam.. and later she ended,

" we're not forcing you... it's up to you to plan your future, to be rich or poor "
heh meluat bertambah2 bila lam and da gang dok pujuk2 suh masuk.. lorr.. na'ulla la lam nih.. ye ye aku ingat nak gi lepak2 minum2

this reminded me to colleen's class where we talk about 'power of stupidity'... pretending to be stupid does irritates..










too LEGIT... too Legit to QUIT - vanilla ice oooppss... Mc Hammer






" i don't want you to fell sorry for me, i want you to help me " - John Q

" remember fish are friends not food " Bruce - nemo

gee,... thankyou satria... heheh finally..






eiuuuuuuuuuuu... huh model sim framed me for abusing xilinx.. uwekkkkk!.. wait for my revenge... huh.. beware!






kuehs.. kuehs... apasallla aku tak terpikir dari semalam... huh! heh dah setel pun anyway..

hehehe the week has reached it's 'friday'.... a day towards d end of a week, a sacred day for muslims.. (i just love to see people busying around preparing for their jumaat prayer... heh not that i ushar's those ensom2 dudes... the gathering is just wonderful... ppl from various background assemble in da holy mosque, no metter how busy you are) .. and a day that will bring me back to home, for the past months... 'friday' is also a sum-up day, analysing the whole week activities... hmm... lets see... no netball for this week (i exampted myself due to my poor-bunk-eye prob), no outings (as this week i'm 'booked' by cold, cough, fever agents), no xilinx (heh...still...still and still pre-xilinx!!!!!)..
tetiba nak buat xilinx ah pulak.. ok continue later..

kuli.. or coolie?



something for you rockmah..






the new look of blogger.com .. nice attempt dude... but still,i prefer da previous one.. sometimes when you're tuned with a style... it's a lil' hard to change.. this include props... heh i've always believe that as long as it's functioning, it won't be in da dustbin... that will answers dilla & azno's queries on why i don't bother to change da faded blue-hello kitty-coin-pouch..

while having dinner last night, lum pui yong (heh nama penuh tuh) called

" nurul aa, this is lum.. remember me or not? "
" uii lum.. how wouldn't i remember.. hey hello.. " heh masakan buleh lupa.. dulu aku ngan kak fiza and selalu kutuk ko heh
" where are you now? working already aa?" huh nih yg maleh nak jawab..
" naa not at da moment, wut make you call me, tetiba je lum.. why? you're getting married is it?.. eh how's kok keong? long time never heard about him"
" aiyaa.. no lah... eh you didn't heard aa.. i've broke up with him "
" uik.. ala when.. erm.. why? "
" maybe we're too preasure with our stuff.. work, studies.. "

hmm.. i knew lum about a year ago.. and back then, she denies having realtionship with ah keong, eventhough they live in da same apartment during their undergrad years.. and only last night i knew about their 4-years-datings.. she adds ..

" aiyah... no one can know wut will happen in da future.. "
" hmm.. nevermind lum.. life move in a circle of up's and downs.. keep on rolling.. hehehe goling goling"
" hihi kamu tak habis2 dengan goling-goling "
" hahaha dah penin.. goling2 ah, btw lum, you still keep in touch with terrina, mr.loo, hatem? "
" last time only loh, when i was still with keong... eh you heard or not.. one new student commit suicide in Harapan "
" suicide!! aakkk... tak pun.. bila? bila?"
" this one chinese boy.. last sunday... due to pressure.. but pity him oo .. experience being student only a week... "
" uh.. Harapan is haunted now.. huh i bet his roomate move to another room "
" hihi imagine.. one nice beautifull sunday.. you come back to your room and found a hanging body "
" it's scary man... ha.. lum, 1 advice from me... don't you ever try to follow dat fellow... always remember... no metter what, kak fiza and me luv you.. hahaha" kak fiza memang sukakan lum kan.. kan kan.. kah? heehehehe
" oklah nurul, i'm going for my supper "
" alo.. supper dah ke.. saya baru je dinner "

one thing i notice - lum and her friends .. erm her kuncu2 actually.. always have early dinner.. around 7... hmm.. it's early .. but that's a good time to dine .. .. just about 4-5 hours for da digestion process...tapikan.. kalau makan awal.. heh lapar pun awal... tak gitu, dilla? hehe
don't you ever add pressure on top da pressured life!! because ... it could kill da innocence!












"Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
(Oh, ooh yeah, ooh yeah)
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter"
Fighter
Christina

"Biar aku laksana amal, menolak siksaan ajal
Dekat semakin hampir, aku semakin tersingkir
Dari diri aku hilang, dari waras aku tewas
kembali aku pungut nasibku, memanggil aku pada seruan
sujud aku sebentar tadi, sedar aku menitiskan insaf
kitabmu aku lidahi dengan ratap
sudah lama aku kembara ke ceruk sesat
kini aku pulang kepada aku"
ADi
akupunyapasal

"how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me from the nothing I’ve become"
Bring Me To Life
"still remember the world from the eyes of a child
slowly those feeling were clouded by what i know now
where was my heart gone
and i'd even dream for the real world
oh.. i wanna go back to believing in everything & knowing nothng at all"
field of innocence
Evanescence

"Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone"
Losing Grip - Avril

i wake in the dark showers of light
moments of emptiness surround
floating away no words of hopes
reality brings me to.... da ground.. huh!
what can ido what can i say
i need a place to hide away..
just for a while heh!
empty decoration
indecisive







live life to it's fullest

blog dearie,

gee, yesterday was a bad day... heh naa.. nothing wrong with yesterday, .. it's just that nothing interesting... forget about yesterday... live for today and plan for the next day...

despite doing da simulation that was suppose to be done by today, i finally finish my day with instaling and toying around with adobe photoshop... hmm..creating a gl card heh.. i wish i'm much more creative .. i wish i have the power, the strength to lay out my immigination on paper.. huakkk... guanne tu? heh creative ppl are so lucky... they make me jelouse all da time.. heh..

anyway...christina's "fighter" video clip is entertaining... heheh so does ADi's "akupunyapasal"... hmm they may seem unique with their own style... but one similarity for sure is their black, dark concept ...

by da way, i found this stuff justnow.. blog complex.

"When a girl blogger writes about her life, she is opening up herself to a new world where she knows no one; so that she could be touched, be appreciated, be loved; indiscriminately, and not for her looks, and not for her charm -- and to a girl, and not just a blogger girl, love is the one thing that she could never feel she had enough of. When a girl blogger writes, she is, literally, closing her eyes, and, with trust, letting herself fall into your arms, your warmth, your acceptance"

"When a guy blogger writes, he is, however, an egocentric pervert"

hmm... benarkah?






sapa terer...cuba teka .. ni iklan apa..

" i'm leaving "
" i'm not hungry "
" i'm closing da door "
" i missed my flight "



Say: "O Allah. Lord of Power (And Rule), Thou givest power to whom Thou pleasest, and Thou strippest off power from whom Thou pleasest: Thou enduest with honour whom Thou pleasest, and Thou bringest low whom Thou pleasest: In Thy hand is all good. Verily, over all things Thou hast power. "Thou causest the night to gain on the day, and thou causest the day to gain on the night Thou bringest the Living out of the dead, and Thou bringest the dead out of the Living and Thou givest sustenance to whom Thou pleasest, without measure."

Ali Imran : 26-27

hmm.. ayat hafazan spm.. i remember once..... i was in kampung back then.. i flicked through my cousin's KAFA revision book.. .. those ayat .. made me wonder ... hmm

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what a day today... heh .. i guess i'm still hooked with da weekend mood.... wut to say today? huh. ..
mati kutu.. ahaks!!.. heh a pal once said to me... write wut i feel..

heh wut i feel eh... i couldn't stop myself from holding back da 'scheduled' journey... it's just boring... heh normal is boring huh! i want something different... something which could differentiate my routine... huh.. does this mean dat i need to be away..isolating da isolated life perhaps!!.. something that is absolutely disordered ... from wut i have now.... OR something to govern da disordered phase ... heh Quater life Crisis kunon............ heh ! takde menda ah semua nih kalau tak layan.. hmm.. bila masa pulak aku melayan.. huakkk!!!.. heh... lay back .. get some fresh air... heh kalau dah memang tengah berfresh air? hmm.. maybe this is wut irawan had been trying to tell me since da beginning... accelerate ! accelerate !.. .. well .. da accelerateing is the one that bores da journey.. heh kalau gitu.. listen to yourself... don't bother what other says... but then.. what if i'm on da wrong track.. what if.. this is da beginning if 'inferiority' complex... heh mumbblling like kambing!..






first of all... to Agong Dearie...... Happy Birthday... and thank you for da holiday... though i'm not feeling that well today....i hope that you'll happy everyday....

something to ponder.......

"if you do a bad thing for a good reason, does the bad thing become a good thing??? and if so, how can it possibly be a good to do it?"
Ed - da worls most charming lawyer... hehehehe

jesreen called,
" alo girl.. pakai jeans buleh dak "
" pakai jelah .. hehe.. my sista was thinking of it too.. heh.. "
" ok, serius nih.. aku takdek baju kurung.... hihihi yang sesuai "
" nak pinjam? hehe sure tak nak kan... alah. pakai je.. suit yourself.. "

gotta stop now.. wanna join jess.. thanks to da sweet barley drink... hehe daia,.. lupakan yang lain
.... i wanna.. i wanna ...zig zag ah.......- spice girl






hmm... kerana pulut, santan habis diguna heh.... masaklah apa pun today... my tastebuds still doesn't wanna to negotiate huh!... ..on my way back to penang justnow, my mom called from soraya's house... asking me to drop by her house .. gee.. since muka nih macam panas semacam (akibat taburan haba yang tak sekata..ke seluruh rangkaian badan), i refuse to do so... and headed directly back home... anyway, soraya telah selamat diijabkan dengan yassin petang tadi... hmm.. and tomorrow will be their wedding reception day.... and justnow, i received a sms from shar... and.. as expected.. another last-minute cancellation.. heh tampaknya esok, i'll follow jesreen and da gang ah.. kalau larat...



kepada semua... sila jangan ke pejabat... hari ini student mula online (activate status pelajar).. jika buleh, elakkan dari memalui koridor pejabat... sila beri laluan... beri laluan kepada aku yang nak jumpa dosman.. soal idup atau mati.. heheheh



fill in da blanks ... ahaks!!!!





hallo world..

today, da days starts a lil' early than usual as i was awaken around 0300..and i was feeling a duration of tak tahu panas / sejuk... hmm rasa macam panas.. tapi macam sejuk.... rasa macam nak demam pun ada... thus i decided to switch off da fan, and cover myself with da maroon blanket.. gee.. that blanket really make me sweat.. heh kalis angin .. tetiba teringat kat kak gazi... heheh baru sehari balik kampung.... bilik rasa sunyi ah pulok bila dok soran2 ... heh beginilah kot rasa kak gazi setiap hujung minggu.. heheh... anyway.. on day way to school this mornin, i stop by da cafe... hmm.. bought nescafe ice... and tetiba this one guy cought my sight... hmm he looks familiar.. about 2 second later he waved his hand... hehe rupa-rupanya jimi... hehe jimi si beruang turbo, with his awek .. si puya... hehe .. 1 tahun tak jumpa.. well.. he doesn't look much different from before.. ermm.. cuma he looks a lil' 'smart'er... gee .. puya pulok.. cam malu2 heh.. tapi cam ayu2 hehe macam 'ayu2' ntah hape2 ah .. maybe i dun really know her... but from wut kak fiza says.. puya nih leh tahan jugak ke'laser'annya... hmm ape-apejerlah... janji idup bahagia..

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yesterdat i received an email, from a friend... gee a 'sis' .. somewhere over da "rainbow"... heheh


Nurul...
nak tanya sikit pendapat nurul tentang:
1. Sebagai engineer,patutkah kita tukar-tukar kerja selalu...even we haven't get work experience for one years..at one workplace?
..... In my opinion, we should struggle to achieve our target in current office, then may be later on we can switch to other job....

Yang peningnya...selalu bila chat dgn --- (nama dirahsiakan untuk menjaga status dan imej heheh) melalui msn..dia asyik tanya knp tak tukar kerja??tensen betull!!!..nurul..jgn cakap kat --- pulak..key!

Kak---- dah berbuih explain tmpt kerja kak---- banyak benda yg boleh belajar..dia tak terlalu khusus sangat..so banyak pengalman bole dapat! ..tapi dia kata kalu nak jadi engineer yg cemerlang mesti selalu tukar kerja..
masalahnya..pengalaman pon tak da..dah tu..nak tukar kerja...
ntah..pening2...nurul kasi opinion sikit pasal benda ni..
thanks

what can i say?... hmm.. or at least... what should i say? .. what i might say may not be based on experience because i myself isn't working ... heh isn't working YET.. well sis, .... what you can do is just listen to his opinion.. yeah.. everyone has the right to give opinion & tak dinafikan .. mr.-- memang suka memberi nasehat yang membina ... tapi tak semesting what he says musti diikuti.. ... kalau agak macam bagus, sesuai, ada future untuk dilaksana.. cedoklah... and if it isn't... hmm.. nyahkan.. apa2 pun the choice is in ur hand... not to be denied, mr.--- 's thought has it's own credibility as this is the trend in Agilent .. mr.--- minggled a lot with da engineers there during our industrial training together dolu2.. .. gee that reminded me to thanee.. heheheh the 'kiasu' of all... huakkk!!!!

however, what you are doing is just great sis.. develop from da root.. hmm.. personally... i don't think that it's totally from base... heh within a year working there... you had attend courses in spain and denmark..kalau ayik tukar2 kerja je guanne nak dapat attaend courses sana sini?..... (hmm... maybe mr.--- is jelous heheh).... the main thing to consider is actually da stability of da company and da satisfactory that you gain when working there.. .. hehe tetiba i lost word.. hmm tapi apa2 pun... keep it up ... as long as you're happy with it... proceed...till da top... top of da world...!!!!.. ... p/s..by da way bila nak balik penang? hehe .. lama tak pi picnic.. sotong bakar!

rasa macam nak balik ah.. balik tido..huh kan best kalau boleh pilih sama ada nak demam atau tak nak demam!...huakkkkkk!!!






huh... bila 2 kawan bertempur.. heh mana harus aku buat?
a. biarkan - "nothing to lose nothing to gain" lah katakan
b. layan - in another word... ask for their shoe.. try to put myself in others' shoes
but then which of those 2 should i entertain
i. the one who seek my help
ii. the one who seems to win
iii. the one who think da same way as i do (who will listen to what i might say... heh pretty much like who seems to appreciate my interuption)
c. hangatkan pertempuran mereka - sebab life without chalanges is really dull.... ibarat dunia tanpa musik... heh banyak lah ko park joo bong..
d. buat-buat blur... now, d. and a. is different... in da sense that ... in situation a, you know... but you try to look as if da 'pertempuran' does nuthing harm on you..., ... but d. ... is a situation where you try to become a lil' naive... whereby you need to be told each and every bit of da story..... kalau hebat.. biar nganga skit mulut tuh... real.. real

gee... tetiba aku rasa macam lab nih panas (gara2 mamat cina tulah ... pakai seluar pendek...huh apa aircon nih tak cukup sejuk ke?? heh ahaks!!!!!!!!!)... need some fresh air.. chow..

p/s ADi... oktober eh? tak lama tu.. tak lama.... july, august, september, oktober... july.. busy dengan gig, august.. busy dengan blog 2nd edition layout... september .. busy decorate umah... then oktober menjelma...



sahabat2.. sila answer......

dilla
Two three cats running,
Not same like cat has striping,
Two three i can finding,
Not same like honey aloning.

rokmah
Island pandan far to middle,
Mount Daik branching three angle,
Crush body containing handle,
Kindness good remembering candle

satria
Today planting corn,
Tomorrow planting silicon,
Tonight popcorn,
Tomorrow night we feel air-cond.

ghazi
slow-slow we walk,
so that we can talk,
i dunno where i put da chalk,
i'm sorry cause you also need to walk

ADi
Cradle fast-fast,
Arrive at belfast,
Not yet grow fast,
Already clever make breakfast.

dr osman
Fruit cempedak outside fence,
Take galah help defence,
I'm a girl with new license,
If wrong help me reference.



By the (Steeds) that run, with panting (breath),And strike sparks of fire,And push home the charge in the morning,And raise the dust in clouds the while,And penetrate forthwith into the midst (of the foe) en masse -
AL-'AADIYAAT (100:1-5)


The following is an excerpt of commentary on this ayah, from Tafsir Ibn Kathir:

Allah takes the oath of the horses galloping and pointing in the cause of Allah... Mujahid, Ikrimah, Ata, Qatadah, Dahhak and Aufi agreed with ibn Abbas and said the word (aadiyat) meant "horses"..Ibn Jarir also preferred this view. Ibn Abbas and Ata said the word "dabh" is not used for any animal other than horses and dogs..The expression "striking sparks of fire" has been interpreted in various ways. Some say that it means the sparks coming out of the hooves when they strike the rocky surface of the earth. Another view is that it means the raging of the fire of battle. Another interpretation is war tactics. Still another opinion is that it refers to lighting fire by the riders after returning to their camps or by the pilgrims after their arriving in Muzdalifah after sunset.There is also a view that says it refers to the horses galloping in the cause of Allah..The Prophet used to arrive at an enemy settlement and wait until just before dawn. If he heard the sound of the azan (call to prayer) he would stop; if not, he would attack......Abu Bakr Bazzar quoted a hadith that the Prophet once despatched a cavalry. A full month passed but no news came to the Prophet. Then this revelation came to inform the Prophet that the galloping horse riders attacked the enemy in the morning and routed them...Allah takes the oath of the horses galloping and pointing in the cause of Allah, striking sparks of fire by their hooves and reaching the enemy at dawn.

i was asked once... "apa ada pada nama?".. gee... "nama" ada segala-galanya..thus, owning such name is kinda motivating...yet... it doesn't also mean that one can just simply rely on it.. because... the reality is not easy as "nothing to lose, nothing to gain"-linkin park..... it's more like "no pain , no gain"-offspring.... obstacles are pain moreover with a tortured emotion .. however.. as long as the sun rises... the remedies are still there... it may be a lil' hard to reach...but .. it's always reachable.. heh yapperdeii! .. hmm ... hehe... bak kata yon... hidup tak bermakna tanpa cabaran... heh yon.. kalau rasa2 tak cukup cabaran tu.. meh amek dari aku skit!!



good mornin'...

"Aways put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too".. eh?... hmm..--> "Aways put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, your feet must have been bigger than the others, get them a new shoe... or give them ur shoe.. maybe they are hurt because the shoe itself is small, .. stop squeezing in something that had already squeezed! "..

"Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried"... --> Onion always make me feel happy then... i cry when slicing it.... it's hurt to know ur onion is out of stock... moreover when you've search throughout da kitchen... after trying not to call for assistance..






I'm listening to coldplay, the scientist.. at this very moment... and out of sudden , while browsing the net... i came cross this song... heheeh ... tetiba.. thanee's face pop in my mind... heheh mana taknya... we sang this song waktu bosan2 meeting ajko... heheh well.. dilla at that time was busy with the secretarial tasks... heh.. this was one of da song sang during "malam jasamu dikenang" and was conducted by zairul... hehhe zairul weh... ingat rokmah? ingat tak?? heheheeh


Such a feelin's comin' over me ..There is wonder in most everything I see..Not a cloud in the sky ..Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream ..Everything I want the world to be..Is now coming true especially for me..And the reason is clear..It's because you are here ..You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen.
i'm on the top of the world..Looking down on creation.. and the only explanation I can find..Is the love that I've found ..Ever since you've been around ..Your love's put me at the top of the world.
Something in the wind has learned my name..And it's tellin' me that things are not the same..In the leaves on the trees ..And the touch of the breeze ..There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me. ..There is only one wish on my mind ..When this day is through I hope that I will find..That tomorrow will be ..Just the same for you and me ..All I need will be mine if you are here.

p/s --> opposite reaction heh... it's chemical... huh! " it just happened" ... hehehe.. dillos, any comment!... heh, satria, wanna add more?.. erm. rock, i'll scan da pic.. by d end of this week.. hopefully.. amacam school oliday?



adoi laaa.... bijok bijok.. huh.. aku tertinggal manual Xilinx dalam keta azno ... huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wek 10001 juta kali wek!!!!! huh



ok ok which of these you like most....

no. 1
" if you are so terrer ha.. what is 10+10+10 "
" haiyaa... obviously 30 la"
" wrong..wrong... it's ten !ten! ten!"

no. 2
" you hang up first "
" no, you hang up "
" no, no, you hang up first "
" ok.. we hang up together"
" 1,2, 3 "
" ahihihihih ahihi "
" you lie..."

no. 3
" aku dapat keje di luar negara "
" pergilah, jika tidak, engkau akan menyesal "
----rehat seketika---
" sudikah engkau mengahwini ku? "


heheh hmm... satria would obvoiusly choose no 2... whereas azno no.3 and cik diana no.1... ahaks!

sometimes...gee.. most of da time... blunders happens in advertisments..hmm... is blunders da right word? aaak .. .. hmm.. heheh it irritates, moreover when it interrupts our attention / tengah asyik menonton... however... these are the elemnts that chher life huh!

well... yesterday i finally went to watch "finding nemo" ...heh after a last-minute cancellation by shareena, nadia and jesreen... overall... the story is cute, humorous... yet touching towards the ending... erm... it'll be more catchy if marlin(bapak nemo) is dead in the end...
"finding nemo" is about a struggle faced by a father to save his son and in da same time to conquere his own fear... the father, marlin worries too much about his only son, nemo... and .. his annoying 'cares' somehow interrupt nemo's childhood.. heh.. it all begins when nemo is caught by a group of divers and was taken to sydney... marlin is phobia of da deep sea( erm.. as tey live in coral area), due to da danger .. as such sharks,... but he tries to ovecome da fear and wnt to search for nemo.. acompanied by dura ... an "al -heizmer" (nyanyok) cattlefish..
meanwhile,... nemo was placed in an aquarium, where he mets other fishes.... (cat fish, seko buntal, starfish )... he somehow slowly develop his confidence... and lastly... with all da help from the other makhluk Allah... nemo found his dad...

da stroyline is simple,light ..(heh i nearly cried though - masa marlin nak giveup) ..typical father and son's tale... but... the characters that were being brought are slightly different from previous pixar's film... hmm.. dura's character did help to put humor in da scenes.... d turtles, who potrays cool dudes also convey it's messages well.. yeah taking things too serious will only RUIN... heh!

when will it be my turn huh?.... my turn to be serious.... hehe my turn to ruin perhaps.. ..... one day... and the day will come... if it doens't want to come... heh i'll chase ... track it until da bottom of every bottom...

p/s --> dilla, at last, i trimmed... heh ni suma gara2 nak ikut jejak puan Trinity lah nih... wes ptg nih lawan bebudak baru orentasi... hehe teringat waktu dolu2.. lawan ngan school kimia..
--> k.fiza, ... hihi nenanti kita plan merdeka 2003...
--> adi... amek ini selimut tarik ini bantal,
bila dah rasa nak tido.. offkanlah segala pager,
kekadang keadaan memang sukar untuk dikawal,
you've just got to stay cool and be stronger.






oh mannnnnn... when will i ... when? when?