chess... iye iye aje.. sekali, minggu depan baru leh berbincang... huh.. what adie irawan said is proven... sometimes, well, most of da time actually, you yourself gotta make decision on what, how you'll be doing da project... huh!.. huh! but i need consolation.. huh from a consultant heh, ... uhuhuhhhuhuhuhuhuh....i'd better move on next phase because no use mumbling about things that you can't control... heh
ok things that i can control..-.
emotion heh really?... hmm.. is emotion something can be controlled? rational vrs emotion...
satria said that ... it's hard to controll emotion, eventhough that rationality is there...
well, hmm... can emotion be trained?... are we catogerized as stupid, if we let emotion control our actions?.. because only with emotion, satisfaction echoes... satisfactory is something we aim in doing things afterall...
given a situation like this.... i like someone... i really2 like that someone - i like that someone as if my life would be completely destroyed without that someone ... if i were to follow my rational.... there is probabilities for me to follow this ancient sayings.... which is - i will set him free... if he returns he is forever mine and if he doesn't, he was never mine from the beginning.... .. hmm.. if i were to follow my emotion, i will straightly aproach him and
articulate loudly and clearly...10 reason why i like that someone.. hmm.. weh.. RELEVENKAH contoh di atas.. heh..
well... i was told once (during my chilhood) ... Allah had given each human a set of aqal and nafsu hmm ..(brain and lust?- ape2 jerlah).... use your brain to conquer your lust... yeah life is like playing games.. formulated strategies is essential... strategy to conquer oneself... building a strength from the inner sight... it's the finest weapon against mutation (x-men).. heh!
firman ALLAH,
Sekiranya kamu bersikap keras lagi berhati kasar, tentulah mereka menjauhkan diri dari sekeliling mu
Ali Imran:159
huh i delayed again! tomorrow, by hook or crook i'll meet d.os, regarding my project which seems to be in a passive mode... anyway, yesterday, huh, i dunno how to begin.. the night was lovely... the sweet sour dish, chocolate fudge, sunkist quenched drink... all in one move.. it's great.. congrates everyone..
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
- somewhere i belong
last night's gilmore girls was nice.. jess made a good move.. compared to dean, jess is much more unexpected kindof person... which is better? having someone who didn't really understand us but have the fullest effort to entertain and do things as expected for us (umpama masa rory dengan dean) OR having someone who understand us very well, knows what interest us best but lack of effort to entertain (as wut happen to jess and rory in da episode) ?
hmm.. if we look in depth, for sure 'understanding' is given the highest priority in a relationship... this implies to everyone... bestfriends, families, spouses and also mates... sometimes, consideration as a friends counts.. somehow, pre-judgement on a case seems to be synonim.. huh - !
p/s "soul" agenda have been hovering my mind for the past days.. ... searching for the best path... which is to be included with those secured ending... huh.. then rose the "-mate" question... heh.. bak kata pepatah, say your prayer before your prayer is being said... heh
said
I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
- numb.. teringat kat nombi, cucu mami combi.. heh!
aku mengantuk siut... tahap dewa...
dewa mata sepet dah nih... leh lawan Lucy Liew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AIM was good... the presenter did their job well-their jokes works, the singers-performers had lighten the night succesfully... echoed by a wonderful orchestra troop heh yeke a troop?...
well... i quote some lyrics that i felt had drop by my mind and ponder my thought... music of soul...
Alleycats
Datanglah kekasih datanglah padaku kesetiaan diriku janganlah kau ragu betapa kukasih betapa kurindu seandainya kau tahu benarnya cintaku
oag
Slumber yaya... kau menghilang-hilang Engkau khayal dunia kau yang punya Tapi sebenarnya engkau lupa Tara Tarappapa... Slumber papa... kau mengata-ngata Tentang kita yang tak pernah dilupa Tentang kisah hal peribadi hidupmu Tru ru tru ruru...
sudirman
Sebuah cinta dan harapan Menjadi mimpi berterbangan Tersekat nafasku kabur pandangan mataku Amat tersiksa diriku Kerana kehilanganmu Oh mengapakah terus mengharap menanti Walau cukup kusedari Kau tak kan kembali
ramli sarip
Tuhan mengapakah ku keliru di sini Hawa dirusuk ku bagai duri di hati A... aaa manakah syurga u
Hawa dalam syurga atau syurga dalam HawaCinta tanpa Hawa di syurgakah tempatnya A... aaa cinta yang berhawa A... aaa sengsara
amy mastura
Siapalah aku ini Yang ingin memetik cintamu Siapalah seadanya Diriku di sisimu Kau punya segalanya Sedangkan aku insan hina Hidupku penuh dengan kisah duka Antara kita jurang nya berbeza Biarlah usahlah Bermain dengan api Kelaknya terbakar sendiri Biarlah tersimpan Segala perasaan Rahsia hatiku terhadapmu Siapalah aku
p/s of all AIM winners justnow, i like So7's winning speech.. ..they begin with assalamualikum, alhamdullilah.. heh well ... yeah....umpama - apa ada pada nama, pada nama terpancar segala2nya.. well...not to be forgotten, metalsia's drumer, who just says assalamualikum and terima kasih -short yet meaningfull.
gee... siti, erm... nice gaun you have there ..
hey, i found this song..
Higher Deeper Hey you, what to do What the world you know comes down on you You'll feel vile, you hate you You're loosing your youth You're loosing your chi
Hey you, keep it cool
Life isn't what you plan but choose So take time to know you And just a little of life comes shining through With just a little hope The pain you'll cope Lay truth to your lies And life won't explode... mmm Fill you up with bliss Be... higher than mountains Feel... deeper than seas Open your eyes and see all the love that you'll feel Be... higher than mountains Feel... deeper than seas
Be all that you want
a life after a birth.. heh a day after a birthday.. a moon after a sun, and a happiness after a sorrow... all of these circulating smoothly in order... huh !
rock called me justnow... yeah rock, lately, my life kinda busy... hehehe busy touring around.. almaklumlah, jalan-jalan cari ilham bila keadaan serabut... aku pun tak tau apa yg aku nak buat... huh my motivating urge seems to fluctuate... heh!
yesterday, i went to dilla's house in penang... she'll be going home today.. we chated for almost an hour... the scop varies... from politics to life... then i learned that she PURPOSELY came to this nothern region
to visit me..... because only at this period she is free before preparing herself to oversea...
i'm speechless dude!!.. huh dahlah yesterday, my naive "plans" made me forget to bring fahim any goodies.. heh .. i'll foward it to one day!!
hi bloggie...
yesterday, dilla came to campus.. gee... i was really grateful and touched.. hehehe mana taknya, she was on her way to penang, but then she divertad the journey to my place... well eventhough it's on the way, still.. it's of highwway.. apa2 pun THANK YOU for da visit... hmm... fahim is really cute.. his button-ed round eye -mengingatkan aku pada yusanani yushak (pembaca berita tv3)... heh, well.. i helped dilla to bath fahim... hehe.. syok oo.. the 52-days-old baby was so fragile (hmm... smooth-)..
then later last night, azno, kak gazi and me and diana went to pesta air kerian... it was not officially launch yet but there are a couple of stalls... it was beautifull... as the calm, dark kerian river reflects the bright lights..... picturesque view... cumanya, the krian river is quite dirty, there are rubbish spots.. that eventually spoil da panorama....
hmm... i'm going back home now, and my mom just called, she asked me to directly drive home as SARS have been a hot issue nowadays...
thus, i blog-off now.
p/s rock, if you happen to read this post, jom pizza sabtu nih.. nak?
well... diana, hmm... nak blogging nih kena pada waktu-waktu tertentu... hehehehe anyway, last 2 days, after we came back from mimos, i learned a bunch of things.... as such never sleep in da bus (kalau idak kena amik gambo), never forget to bring an amount of cash (tempting for lovely shirts) and never speaks to strangers... heheheh
but most of all...only then i realized what this statement actually means,- " kalau kita menyukai seseorang, menyimpannya adalah satu jihad" -... there are things that you can "broadcast" and there are also things that remain between you and Allah,The Mighty Creator... hmmm... heheh i mean no offence here.. peace dude..
putrajaya was nice, mimos-hmm.. so-so but still it's a good move.. towards hi technology...
yesterday, i went to balik pulau, with usm netball team, there was a match between us and puspanita balik pulau... heheh we lost but overall, the team played well... i can feel da improving sportmanship and well formulated strategy while plying yesterday.. pakcik was good in training, in another view, his cool instructions reflects his professionality (well there are some trainers who like to yell - heh yelling will only increase pressure on da player)....
on the way back, the panoramic view of balik pulau catch my attention.. (gee i slept all along da way to balik pulau- keletihan balik dari mimos tak habih lagi)... anway the view on balik pulau's hill was marvellous, moreover around da sunset time... well i can actually see the red round sun... hehe it was only at this time people can watch the sun with their bear eyes..... heh the temtation made me wanted to go there again... another time...
salamualaikum pakdi, yeah, i do agree with you, there are reasons for things to happens .. it's just a metter of consoling oneself... rock, jom pizza?
dilla, can't wait to meet you
~~~~~
erm, wut is my say today... heh -->
okeh babeh, it's the turning point, learning curve is starting to blossom, after an abrupt recall of a crush emergency... it's a cutting edge dude!!.... life is still a long way, really... it's not easy, but surely it can be implemented in anyway...
nurul dearie,
it's just a momentum of life, people can say wuteva they wanna say and.. do learn from diana's frog story... you know da best who you are and it's you who make, lead the way...be though dude... in this hazardous environment... life isn't just about one single authority, it's about da majority.. YET, it still counts da individuality... thus, discard which-eva unsung melodies, mime the tone that brings life...
an email ehich i just received..
Dalam keadaan yang sedemikian kita amat digalakkan untuk mengamalkan
doa tadi. Kedua, mengerjakan solat Istikharah dan berdoa : " Ya
Allah, aku suka orang ini, kalaulah dia ini betul-betul pilihan yang
tepat untuk aku dunia akhirat, pertemukanlah jodoh kami. Jadikanlah
dia isteri (atau suami) ku. Kalau tidak baik, Ya Allah, elakkanlah"
"if you love someone" mintalah kepada Allah yang mencipta diri kita.
Ini kerana orang yang kita cintai itu juga adalah makhluk Allah.
Allah berhak untuk menjadikan makhlukNya suka atau tidak. Silap
kebanyakkan kita sekarang ini, terus direct kepada empunya diri.
oklah dude, whatsoeva -- you still have SPICE to be done! chow!
nothing much happen today... except i heard new from rock... well "kalau dah keling, keling jugak" heh kata2 semangat for today...
anyway... i ran out of money... heheheeh due to my lastweek's gama-shoping-gala... heh pandai gama buat sale.. heh
i bought an applemint denim, a fidelo and a disney shirt .. heh while shopping, my mind kept recall gurmit singh's (PCK)sayings in an interview with shireeen sidhu from ringgit sense - .. money is for spend, no use having a nice figure but unpleasant lifestyle.. heh!
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly...
Somebody once told me that "Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong..."
It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...
You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...
and don't rush things... coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you.
You can never be perfect... the person you love can never be perfect... but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through the both of you.
But, no relationship is complete without God...
That's why we have marriage.
It's a bond not only between you and your loved one, but also with God.
Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not the right person.
It's because we expected too much and we decided on our own.
Let God do the work.
You may call it waiting time... but while you are waiting... pray.
Let God guide you always. He knows better. No, He knows best.
Love is not what you think it is... Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life.
Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us.
We say this phrase, "You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received." After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say "You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!" Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?
Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like "Forever, Till Death do us apart, etc." would end up "Never" and "We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!"
Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree "S/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come." But the big question anyone could not answer is "Is she/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?" That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer.
Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship.
You're right, There is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it.
You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life. It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.
Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, its just pity.
We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, its just that we're too much dependent to them.
We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, its just insecurity.
But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy nor beg.
It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart.
You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come.
It can make you the Happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.
that was an email which i received yesterday....
after reading it twice, it make me wonder..!!..did you feel da same??
mini tanjung piandang project-success.. heh
finally, today, we did reach tanjung piandang!... well...at first we planned to go around 5.00 pm yesterday and...it happend to rain... heavy rain, thus we decided to follow the actuall plan which is morning's sunrise view....
last night, azno and satria, so did usop and salam and hafizam stayed up at lab until ... finishing some of thier assignments while me , kak gazi and diana went to pekan lama - we were told that there will be water carnival at the riverside - however, as we reached there, no carnival, only a few carnival's workers (building up tent for the carnival which will be on 27th april)... thus, kak gazi, diana and me loafing around, discussing matters - well we discussed about the alcohol stuff... discussion that eventually risen more confusion ...as you said een, sabut yang serabut! ) but what i learned is that we need to be clear with the core of a problem or confusion...besides logic reasoning, we also need to support our argument with proper nas- that will help to formulate solution for the particular problems...
anyway.. i woke up at about 4.15, then prepare some sandwiches, then around 4.35 alfiz and gang arrived, about 4.45 we departed from taman pekaka... the scenary was calm, cool breezing air, .. we reached tanjung piandang's fishermen spot around 5.30... it was just about the time when the first trip of the fishermen come ashore...well, then they gave us crabs, prawn and fishes which were about 3-4 kg foe FREE... heh that wah the nice part FREE... ..
around 6.00 am, we went to a mosque nearby to perform our subuh prayer... then, we headed to the beach... everything was fun untill out of a sudden, azno's car stucked on to of a cement-made-pavement (hmm.. i dunno what it is said actually, somesort like a small bridge..) huh, kemek, and the tyre puntured!!... we halted the journey... and we changed the tyre... gee it was my first experience... heh selama nih theoritical part je..- huh kalau sorang2 cuak jugak.. mana nak ada daya . heh.. about 30 minutes later... we reached the seaside... well it was not as sandy as batu feringhi but quite ok for mind relaxing... heh ape2 jelah... yg pasti, my intention to view the sun rise vanished... heh perhaps one day, at the same place, we could watch the sun set...
at about 8.00 am we returned home.. on day way - we took our breakfast...
sampai saje rumah, outing ngan kak gazi pulok, this time we rode salam's motobike.. we went to the market to but all da cooking stuff... on the way back, aroung 10.00 am jalan tutup, keretapi lalu... huh masa tu i realized that the sun was really hot (heh statement ntah apa2 mmglah sun tu hot).. riding a bike on a sunny day.. is really a challange... heh panas siut.. kalau naik keta panas jugak, tapi ada bumbung ... heh
only then i feel a moment of fatigueness..... tired wey....letih.... thus, i dozed in the hall.... sambil pasng2 lagu...about 11.00 am, after a lavender rejuvenating shower, i dressed for work... heheeh for school actually.... suddenly, kak gazi called me... i rushed down, .. to my surpurise, she said she saw a snake in our kitchen! .. heh satu keja lah pulok! ular dalam umah... i tooked the mop, but was afraid to act as we were not sure what type of snake it is... then... i called salam.... heheh salam ask me to call 994 BOMBA... hahahha... then, instead of calling the firemen, i called usop...--> proceed to next column!! hehehe
about usop
about 15 minutes later usop arrived with alfiz... heh, eventhough it was a small snake ( baby snake i guuss)... we took about 20 minutes to remove it.... heh ala2 crocodile hunter....
then, we cooked nasi goreng udang and mee kari ketam.... well.. kak gazi was the head chef.. about 11 person attended da dinner last night... those were, me,satria,azno,diana,gazi,alfiz,salam,usop,almin,kak cik,en azmi,and theri 2 children... kak cik brought sate... really, last night was wonderful... heh there were a lot of foods.. ... it ended aroung 11 pm... then kak gazi and me went for a "night" walk ... to ease our body for digestion.. heh... ..
wey
tanjung piandang !!!! hehehe
actual plan,... wake up at 4.00 (usop's idea) and 4.30 depart to tanjung piandang from taman pekaka... heheheh that the plan reschedule... wake up around 6.00 (azan subuh) - heh ...
tonight, the plan (as stated above) will be attempted again... insya-allah.. hehehe
i read through a pal's blog.... his confusing dillema.. to choose either to stay or to leave... heheeh it's life dude....
for all the time you crave for something... perhaps someone ... and after quite a while trying, you finally see there's a hope of success to win it, another oppurtunity arrive.... oppurtinity that is said to be once in a life time pulak tu.... hmmmm
well.. i could only say...--> buat istiqarah!
not to be denied that things get much more complex as we grow older... the hardest decision that i ever made, that i could remember is to choose either a or b, either to a or to b.... i ask for opinion... what i gain was "follow your heart"... huh my heart says a but b seems to be much more promising.... i've told rock about it... remember rock?... it's like maniac! heh...
after a while, searching for right formula, i found that give priority for the most promising.... and if it involves human... ask for clarification, straight foward... but again.... everything is actually an ujian from Allah.. which varies..... it can be sadness, happiness, beauty, intelligent, dumbness (heh all the adjectives)..
hey, i got SPICE simulation to be done, see ya later... chow
about usop
0610
012 hehe mana tanjung piandang nih?
0613
019nih kat tanjung piandang la nih... heheh .. .. pukol 4 td aku bangun dah,... .. .. .. ... .. .. .. dah takde orang bangun
012esok?
019esok, esok heh
maka esok jadi ke idak azno? alfiz? satria?
a very good day, it's 12.52 noon.... about 8 hours away from my last trip to da dreamland... heh last night before i went to bed, we made up a plan to go to tanjung piandang, a cape --> tanjung, since it's in the mid of the lunar month... it is said that, fishes, crabs, prawns are fond to be captured during these 2-3 days (bulan nak penuh)... but eventually, it was cancelled since, well ntah, since it was an abrupt cancellation... only now, i realize, sometimes, thinking a lot can actually stops you from doing things..fun things... somehow,
letting your heart decide without the interuption of mind is denger too... anyway.. there 2-3 days, i've been halting my programs for a while,... no idea actually... well, how to propose a novel aproach if you know nuthing about the current aproach?.. thus learn the current aproach ntahlah labu, idea pun abih nak sambung menda2 ...
dilla called last night... ha.. after subuh satria and me went cycling, we cycle to azareen's house then.... we ate breakfast, then we went to school , then i did some revision then , i blog... heheh daily routine --> i better type-off .. even i need a halt in blogging.. heh
halt..halt..halt -----> end(RIP)... well will i surely be
Resting In Peace?? heh malaysia for peace.. chow chow! shuh shuh
ahaks... nearly forgotten.........................
about usop
va.. va..
012 Inbox Outbox Write messages Picture messages Message settings Kwetiaw basah Nasi Ayam heh bagus hp nih, banyak menu. Mana beli??
019 Beli kat kayangan..
well, this reply made me wonder
*does he know about this site?
*has he been reading alfiz's site?
hmmm...
well, satria, yeah memangla da statement was nuthing, but, it is still something... anyway, i think that we're not that bad... yeah, it's just that we're not "intact" with it... heh lets ask them to mimic songs playing lets say keyboard or organ or maybe harmonica, i bet it would be da same too dude!... ... huh!
okeh, 21:37, sitting here in front of kak Gazi,
i'm planning to post an entry before today ends....
we've just returned from Billion, buying some houshole stuff ... then i remembered that i wanna blog some thought that came into my mind last saturday..
i watched "now you're on air" a talk show program hosted by JEnny malai ali, paula malai ali's twin sister... the issue for that particular show was music for the soul. . the guest was 2 men, one, mr. boe represent muslim's souls artist while the other one is christopher, a christian-song singer -heh i dunno what they were really called.. anyway, the discussion was about how "for soul" kind of music could be on par with those modern pop, rock music....
both boe and christopher are well known "music for soul" artist.. they were't that popular in malaysia but their album were said to be in europe, us market (why don't they distribute it in malaysia too?)
what poked my thought is christopher definition of "
music for soul". he claimed that it is simple, opposite of
for is
against ... so music for soul is those music that is not against soul.... which is the food for soul... the jenny ask him to eloborate, and be more specific on type of music - whether those linkin park stuff and rock, metal considered music against the soul.. to make it shorten... music and lyrics both are food for soul... you can have linkin park kindof melodies, hijazz kind of tone and raihan kind of acapella, but what makes them different is their lyrics.. soul and mind are both connected to each other... some of those heavy stuff melodies potray good issue, while there are too some smooth music that brings in immoral thought... use ur mind to judge it and never ever make pre-judgement.. in any situations, problems... bak kata si mamat nih:-
"People deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong. Why not try and see positive
things, to just touch those things and make them bloom?"
*Thich Nhat Hanh
oke, while in the car, kak gazi and kak sit told me the story of Nabi Yusoff and Zulaikha.. search the net for more information .. heh
about usop
well, satria told me that azno told her that fizz told her that usop told him that he (usop) knows this stuff and his reaction was to make things as it was never happens before... heh good solution for me too, pretend as if nuthing happens.. ahaks!.. then life will be much flexible... yeah nuthing happens lah katakan... heh
well... well
finally, after a half day... well not really 12 hours, about 3 hours, i came out with this templete... it's a lil' contra compare to my previous since this is much more bright colours...
i went to usrah justnow, we discussed about magrifatul rasul.. an interesting topic,
dr rizal began his lecture today by quoting a hadith -
apanya yang banyaknya memabukkan maka sedikitnya adalah haram
-di riwayatkan oleh abu daud
well, clearly this is meant to arak...
*this answers a my friend's inquiry regarding wine, alcohol in cakes....
*this too can become a tourch of guidence to my neverending - thick grey line - yesterday, i have a short discussion about it with fizz, who seems to agree with me for a lil' reason...
*this too is a gigantic issue to define how much is consider much....
while adjusting the templete, my mind kept moving.... in a cycle .. trying to perceive the content of dr. rizal's usrah ... then this question arise
does the hadith include "insticnt of a man and a women" as well?... heh, apa issuenya di sisni?
what een said in her blog,
you poke into one question.... you dont necessarily get an answer.. instead.. you come out with more questions than what you had started with.
then, this question pop in,
we should fit our lifestle in da religion or we should fit da religion in our lifestyle?
then i answered my own question, tak jadi masalah kalau the religion it self is our lifestyle..
too many path towards an ideal practice of islam, muslim's lifestyle ...which should i consider the right one? how to consider? what to choose? who to choose?
dr. rizal also talked about hati- instinct, tanya hati apa yg hati mahu moreover when we're in the middle of making decision... well.. of couese then, we should assure that our instinct is on the right side.. .hmm.. jagalah hati.
about usop
azno told me that salam tol her that usop knows about all this stuff...
azno also told me that fizz tol her that usop knows about all this stuff...
but the best part is that i told dilla what the real things that bothers me... cumanya insufficient time for further discussion..
Originally, this started out as a sample of Chester playing acoustic guitar. Mike took the sample, replayed it, effected it, flipped it backwards, and cut it up into four pieces. Creating the main sample of the song. By the time it was finished, almost a year later, the band had rewritten most of the music around the sample. On another note, Mike and Chester wrote over 30 finished choruses for this song, each time scrapping the last one in search of something better. They eneded up recording the final version one week after the rest of the album was finished, in the studio where they were mixing....
heh... it sure rock, dude!!
about usop
well, i dedicate this linkin pork's heh linkin park's song to this column..
I want to heal,I want to feel
What I thought was never real,I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone][It's gone]
I want to heal,I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I Belong
What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there
What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
women and politics
last night, after playing badminton, i have an interesting discussion about politics... all da umno, pas stuff.. it all begins with an inquiry about BABYLON... hmm... then the discussion prolonged ... until about 1 am...
we covered from hudud, to teaching math and science in english implementation, with the interrupt of tabung haji issue... it was fun as i felt as if it was 1 to 1 discussion.. hmm
well, usop did poke some ideas, and one of his saying which catch my attention is that, the issue can be simplified when we learned more about islam... and he add "tu la, dulu usrah tak nak gi"... i later replied, that it actually depend on who's the naqibah, it's true that we should hear to what is being said not who's saying... but "who's" saying will also have an
unsangkarable influence to the audience...
anyway, during the discussion, i kept recall erhan's note in his blogspot, .. i'm impress with his writting the same way as i'm impress about last night discussion, cumanya , i felt erhan's won more points as he says with a concrete proof, quoting from authentic source, and much more realistic... as our surroundings aren't just muslims,... huh, apa yg nak dikata ha
then this morning, i discussed with een, reporting about yesterday's discussion, she seemed to agree and told me that her house mate, who studied in us before felt that it's more difficult to practice islam here compared to in us..as there are a bunch of different understanding, heh..
bak kata avril lavinge..
"Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
to azno, life is a bunch of chocolate, you never know what you gonna get, you might want it to be caramel, or maybe just a plain dairy chocolate... only when you taste and suck it you will feeel it .. bak kata robin williams..
mornin, something to comment about ajno's posting
yesterday 7-4-2002.....
heh what can i say more dude? ...
a lovely day, a bright sunny day with a rejuvenating motivation... after a long walk through the cloud, the cloud which "they" claim to have a silve lining somehow.... a bunch of undetermined thought... an endless flying question - with a drop of rejection... but hey... it does also means mean a cup of untouch BON.. yeah the BONBON drink (buleh didap[ati di pasaraya -KBJ)...
well nuthin' much actually to comment...
last week dilla called, asking me da same question, hmm.. what could i say... nuthin' heh...besar mana dah arman fahim nih.. hmm.. rock, well.. quiet for a while hah... yeah...
i met dr os and dr bad yesterday... regarding my project... heh CUAK ... i'm reminding my self to aware... yeah, i'll keep up with it as highly as possible.. yeah, i wanna join you fiza, one day,... i do... yeah I DO...
after a throughly thinking... i decided not to discard the
about usop's column..... because i believe in the right of being a human being... heh the right to judge and being judged......but let things rest for a while coz, now i'm leading such a thing... heh my project...
motto for da day... 'YOU MUST START TO BE SPECIFIC... SPECIFIC WITH THE PROJECT' huakk!!!
hello babeh ... mornin, a long haul, a long sleep... and of course a long journey... well actually, it's not that far, but far enough for students like us... heh, yeah, as what alfiz wrote in his blogspot, we went to taiping, after a super "bowl" match.. bowling was fun yesterday, hmm.. despite all the "stoking"'s troublesome, i can still have a nice day,
and it goes again-->the outing was fun, really fun , with all da security... yeah, not to be denied, having a bunch of friends to spent da day make me felt safe, hmmm... bak kata pepatah ada duri melindungi durian.. heheeh
alfiz, your quote for today --> macam pernah ku dengar... tapi di mana ya... heheeh ohooo dalam kereta satria rupanya... anyway... it's true though ... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.provided --> INSYAALLAH.. so usop, get rady..
a lil' tired today, shall proceed later.
about usop
the outing was fun, yeah fun.... a new hot story from satria...
va va usop..
well.. it was quite late last night when we arrive at taiping... after having a great time at the palyground, the six of us then went hiking.... welll, we hiked to jwww birch resident,... on our way up, we pased through a group of mamat motor.. who make unplesant noise... heheh actually who tried to wooed satria... it was really unconvenient ! having disturebed like that.. moreover when you're trying to enjoy the panoramic scenary... then..... USOP spped up his steps and walk beside satria, huh, such protective.. huh... i didn't realize it yesterday.. but now, after satria narrate me the incident, i'm melting .... uhu melting as if i'm an ice-cream under a hot sunny sun... huh, i would choose to be durian ice-cream then..... huh... heh
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself,
There is nothing wrong with you,
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart...
heh, well... easier heard than believed... heh perhaps better like this, easier said than done..heh.. anyway.. what eva ways it'll look like.. i'm reminding my self -->
Tiada yang dicintai melainkan ALLAH Tiada yang ditakuti melainkan ALLAH Tiada sumber rezeki melainkan ALLAH
hmm.. life kinda busy.. with the SPICE asignments on my forhead.. heh..the evening was really fun.. tenis, volleyball, basketball and netball all in one shot justnow.. however, i'm bad in playing tennis.. it's either, me or the opponent pick the ball .. anyway, volleyball was the best among all.. since now, i met kak tik, who likes volley as much as i do... i can feel that i'm losing my stamina, where i can only continously dig'ing for a duration of 30 minutes instead of an hour during those days- yeah
those days
i discussed a matter with a pal justnow- a metter of getting intact with some one who are totally different than what we are used to... yeah relationship between man and woman does confuse... moreover when it's pressured with other obstacles... YET, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, Insya-Allah for sure.. i'll try my best to help you my pal wheneva, hoeva i can......
heh i felt my post for today is quite cipan, with all the
keling2 structures.. i shall continue later..
p/s rock, ur site is sweet... nice color dude!
dilla, sit call aku dia kirim salam, nak kumpul duit nak melawat arman fahim... dia ucap hidup BN!
about usop
halt... or maybe the end... but who cares ... it will not be the end until i myself end it... heh
anyway, he did a yoga post at the basketball court today.. ahaks!
chess... iye iye aje.. sekali, minggu depan baru leh berbincang... huh.. what adie irawan said is proven... sometimes, well, most of da time actually, you yourself gotta make decision on what, how you'll be doing da project... huh!.. huh! but i need consolation.. huh from a consultant heh, ... uhuhuhhhuhuhuhuhuh....i'd better move on next phase because no use mumbling about things that you can't control... heh
ok things that i can control..-.
emotion heh really?... hmm.. is emotion something can be controlled? rational vrs emotion...
satria said that ... it's hard to controll emotion, eventhough that rationality is there...
well, hmm... can emotion be trained?... are we catogerized as stupid, if we let emotion control our actions?.. because only with emotion, satisfaction echoes... satisfactory is something we aim in doing things afterall...
given a situation like this.... i like someone... i really2 like that someone - i like that someone as if my life would be completely destroyed without that someone ... if i were to follow my rational.... there is probabilities for me to follow this ancient sayings.... which is - i will set him free... if he returns he is forever mine and if he doesn't, he was never mine from the beginning.... .. hmm.. if i were to follow my emotion, i will straightly aproach him and
articulate loudly and clearly...10 reason why i like that someone.. hmm.. weh.. RELEVENKAH contoh di atas.. heh..
well... i was told once (during my chilhood) ... Allah had given each human a set of aqal and nafsu hmm ..(brain and lust?- ape2 jerlah).... use your brain to conquer your lust... yeah life is like playing games.. formulated strategies is essential... strategy to conquer oneself... building a strength from the inner sight... it's the finest weapon against mutation (x-men).. heh!
firman ALLAH,
Sekiranya kamu bersikap keras lagi berhati kasar, tentulah mereka menjauhkan diri dari sekeliling mu
Ali Imran:159
huh i delayed again! tomorrow, by hook or crook i'll meet d.os, regarding my project which seems to be in a passive mode... anyway, yesterday, huh, i dunno how to begin.. the night was lovely... the sweet sour dish, chocolate fudge, sunkist quenched drink... all in one move.. it's great.. congrates everyone..
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
- somewhere i belong
last night's gilmore girls was nice.. jess made a good move.. compared to dean, jess is much more unexpected kindof person... which is better? having someone who didn't really understand us but have the fullest effort to entertain and do things as expected for us (umpama masa rory dengan dean) OR having someone who understand us very well, knows what interest us best but lack of effort to entertain (as wut happen to jess and rory in da episode) ?
hmm.. if we look in depth, for sure 'understanding' is given the highest priority in a relationship... this implies to everyone... bestfriends, families, spouses and also mates... sometimes, consideration as a friends counts.. somehow, pre-judgement on a case seems to be synonim.. huh - !
p/s "soul" agenda have been hovering my mind for the past days.. ... searching for the best path... which is to be included with those secured ending... huh.. then rose the "-mate" question... heh.. bak kata pepatah, say your prayer before your prayer is being said... heh
said
I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
- numb.. teringat kat nombi, cucu mami combi.. heh!
aku mengantuk siut... tahap dewa...
dewa mata sepet dah nih... leh lawan Lucy Liew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AIM was good... the presenter did their job well-their jokes works, the singers-performers had lighten the night succesfully... echoed by a wonderful orchestra troop heh yeke a troop?...
well... i quote some lyrics that i felt had drop by my mind and ponder my thought... music of soul...
Alleycats
Datanglah kekasih datanglah padaku kesetiaan diriku janganlah kau ragu betapa kukasih betapa kurindu seandainya kau tahu benarnya cintaku
oag
Slumber yaya... kau menghilang-hilang Engkau khayal dunia kau yang punya Tapi sebenarnya engkau lupa Tara Tarappapa... Slumber papa... kau mengata-ngata Tentang kita yang tak pernah dilupa Tentang kisah hal peribadi hidupmu Tru ru tru ruru...
sudirman
Sebuah cinta dan harapan Menjadi mimpi berterbangan Tersekat nafasku kabur pandangan mataku Amat tersiksa diriku Kerana kehilanganmu Oh mengapakah terus mengharap menanti Walau cukup kusedari Kau tak kan kembali
ramli sarip
Tuhan mengapakah ku keliru di sini Hawa dirusuk ku bagai duri di hati A... aaa manakah syurga u
Hawa dalam syurga atau syurga dalam HawaCinta tanpa Hawa di syurgakah tempatnya A... aaa cinta yang berhawa A... aaa sengsara
amy mastura
Siapalah aku ini Yang ingin memetik cintamu Siapalah seadanya Diriku di sisimu Kau punya segalanya Sedangkan aku insan hina Hidupku penuh dengan kisah duka Antara kita jurang nya berbeza Biarlah usahlah Bermain dengan api Kelaknya terbakar sendiri Biarlah tersimpan Segala perasaan Rahsia hatiku terhadapmu Siapalah aku
p/s of all AIM winners justnow, i like So7's winning speech.. ..they begin with assalamualikum, alhamdullilah.. heh well ... yeah....umpama - apa ada pada nama, pada nama terpancar segala2nya.. well...not to be forgotten, metalsia's drumer, who just says assalamualikum and terima kasih -short yet meaningfull.
gee... siti, erm... nice gaun you have there ..
hey, i found this song..
Higher Deeper Hey you, what to do What the world you know comes down on you You'll feel vile, you hate you You're loosing your youth You're loosing your chi
Hey you, keep it cool
Life isn't what you plan but choose So take time to know you And just a little of life comes shining through With just a little hope The pain you'll cope Lay truth to your lies And life won't explode... mmm Fill you up with bliss Be... higher than mountains Feel... deeper than seas Open your eyes and see all the love that you'll feel Be... higher than mountains Feel... deeper than seas
Be all that you want
a life after a birth.. heh a day after a birthday.. a moon after a sun, and a happiness after a sorrow... all of these circulating smoothly in order... huh !
rock called me justnow... yeah rock, lately, my life kinda busy... hehehe busy touring around.. almaklumlah, jalan-jalan cari ilham bila keadaan serabut... aku pun tak tau apa yg aku nak buat... huh my motivating urge seems to fluctuate... heh!
yesterday, i went to dilla's house in penang... she'll be going home today.. we chated for almost an hour... the scop varies... from politics to life... then i learned that she PURPOSELY came to this nothern region
to visit me..... because only at this period she is free before preparing herself to oversea...
i'm speechless dude!!.. huh dahlah yesterday, my naive "plans" made me forget to bring fahim any goodies.. heh .. i'll foward it to one day!!
hi bloggie...
yesterday, dilla came to campus.. gee... i was really grateful and touched.. hehehe mana taknya, she was on her way to penang, but then she divertad the journey to my place... well eventhough it's on the way, still.. it's of highwway.. apa2 pun THANK YOU for da visit... hmm... fahim is really cute.. his button-ed round eye -mengingatkan aku pada yusanani yushak (pembaca berita tv3)... heh, well.. i helped dilla to bath fahim... hehe.. syok oo.. the 52-days-old baby was so fragile (hmm... smooth-)..
then later last night, azno, kak gazi and me and diana went to pesta air kerian... it was not officially launch yet but there are a couple of stalls... it was beautifull... as the calm, dark kerian river reflects the bright lights..... picturesque view... cumanya, the krian river is quite dirty, there are rubbish spots.. that eventually spoil da panorama....
hmm... i'm going back home now, and my mom just called, she asked me to directly drive home as SARS have been a hot issue nowadays...
thus, i blog-off now.
p/s rock, if you happen to read this post, jom pizza sabtu nih.. nak?
well... diana, hmm... nak blogging nih kena pada waktu-waktu tertentu... hehehehe anyway, last 2 days, after we came back from mimos, i learned a bunch of things.... as such never sleep in da bus (kalau idak kena amik gambo), never forget to bring an amount of cash (tempting for lovely shirts) and never speaks to strangers... heheheh
but most of all...only then i realized what this statement actually means,- " kalau kita menyukai seseorang, menyimpannya adalah satu jihad" -... there are things that you can "broadcast" and there are also things that remain between you and Allah,The Mighty Creator... hmmm... heheh i mean no offence here.. peace dude..
putrajaya was nice, mimos-hmm.. so-so but still it's a good move.. towards hi technology...
yesterday, i went to balik pulau, with usm netball team, there was a match between us and puspanita balik pulau... heheh we lost but overall, the team played well... i can feel da improving sportmanship and well formulated strategy while plying yesterday.. pakcik was good in training, in another view, his cool instructions reflects his professionality (well there are some trainers who like to yell - heh yelling will only increase pressure on da player)....
on the way back, the panoramic view of balik pulau catch my attention.. (gee i slept all along da way to balik pulau- keletihan balik dari mimos tak habih lagi)... anway the view on balik pulau's hill was marvellous, moreover around da sunset time... well i can actually see the red round sun... hehe it was only at this time people can watch the sun with their bear eyes..... heh the temtation made me wanted to go there again... another time...
salamualaikum pakdi, yeah, i do agree with you, there are reasons for things to happens .. it's just a metter of consoling oneself... rock, jom pizza?
dilla, can't wait to meet you
~~~~~
erm, wut is my say today... heh -->
okeh babeh, it's the turning point, learning curve is starting to blossom, after an abrupt recall of a crush emergency... it's a cutting edge dude!!.... life is still a long way, really... it's not easy, but surely it can be implemented in anyway...
nurul dearie,
it's just a momentum of life, people can say wuteva they wanna say and.. do learn from diana's frog story... you know da best who you are and it's you who make, lead the way...be though dude... in this hazardous environment... life isn't just about one single authority, it's about da majority.. YET, it still counts da individuality... thus, discard which-eva unsung melodies, mime the tone that brings life...
an email ehich i just received..
Dalam keadaan yang sedemikian kita amat digalakkan untuk mengamalkan
doa tadi. Kedua, mengerjakan solat Istikharah dan berdoa : " Ya
Allah, aku suka orang ini, kalaulah dia ini betul-betul pilihan yang
tepat untuk aku dunia akhirat, pertemukanlah jodoh kami. Jadikanlah
dia isteri (atau suami) ku. Kalau tidak baik, Ya Allah, elakkanlah"
"if you love someone" mintalah kepada Allah yang mencipta diri kita.
Ini kerana orang yang kita cintai itu juga adalah makhluk Allah.
Allah berhak untuk menjadikan makhlukNya suka atau tidak. Silap
kebanyakkan kita sekarang ini, terus direct kepada empunya diri.
oklah dude, whatsoeva -- you still have SPICE to be done! chow!
nothing much happen today... except i heard new from rock... well "kalau dah keling, keling jugak" heh kata2 semangat for today...
anyway... i ran out of money... heheheeh due to my lastweek's gama-shoping-gala... heh pandai gama buat sale.. heh
i bought an applemint denim, a fidelo and a disney shirt .. heh while shopping, my mind kept recall gurmit singh's (PCK)sayings in an interview with shireeen sidhu from ringgit sense - .. money is for spend, no use having a nice figure but unpleasant lifestyle.. heh!
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly...
Somebody once told me that "Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong..."
It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...
You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...
and don't rush things... coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you.
You can never be perfect... the person you love can never be perfect... but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through the both of you.
But, no relationship is complete without God...
That's why we have marriage.
It's a bond not only between you and your loved one, but also with God.
Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not the right person.
It's because we expected too much and we decided on our own.
Let God do the work.
You may call it waiting time... but while you are waiting... pray.
Let God guide you always. He knows better. No, He knows best.
Love is not what you think it is... Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life.
Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us.
We say this phrase, "You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received." After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say "You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!" Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?
Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like "Forever, Till Death do us apart, etc." would end up "Never" and "We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!"
Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree "S/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come." But the big question anyone could not answer is "Is she/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?" That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer.
Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship.
You're right, There is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it.
You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life. It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.
Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, its just pity.
We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, its just that we're too much dependent to them.
We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, its just insecurity.
But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy nor beg.
It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart.
You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come.
It can make you the Happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.
that was an email which i received yesterday....
after reading it twice, it make me wonder..!!..did you feel da same??
mini tanjung piandang project-success.. heh
finally, today, we did reach tanjung piandang!... well...at first we planned to go around 5.00 pm yesterday and...it happend to rain... heavy rain, thus we decided to follow the actuall plan which is morning's sunrise view....
last night, azno and satria, so did usop and salam and hafizam stayed up at lab until ... finishing some of thier assignments while me , kak gazi and diana went to pekan lama - we were told that there will be water carnival at the riverside - however, as we reached there, no carnival, only a few carnival's workers (building up tent for the carnival which will be on 27th april)... thus, kak gazi, diana and me loafing around, discussing matters - well we discussed about the alcohol stuff... discussion that eventually risen more confusion ...as you said een, sabut yang serabut! ) but what i learned is that we need to be clear with the core of a problem or confusion...besides logic reasoning, we also need to support our argument with proper nas- that will help to formulate solution for the particular problems...
anyway.. i woke up at about 4.15, then prepare some sandwiches, then around 4.35 alfiz and gang arrived, about 4.45 we departed from taman pekaka... the scenary was calm, cool breezing air, .. we reached tanjung piandang's fishermen spot around 5.30... it was just about the time when the first trip of the fishermen come ashore...well, then they gave us crabs, prawn and fishes which were about 3-4 kg foe FREE... heh that wah the nice part FREE... ..
around 6.00 am, we went to a mosque nearby to perform our subuh prayer... then, we headed to the beach... everything was fun untill out of a sudden, azno's car stucked on to of a cement-made-pavement (hmm.. i dunno what it is said actually, somesort like a small bridge..) huh, kemek, and the tyre puntured!!... we halted the journey... and we changed the tyre... gee it was my first experience... heh selama nih theoritical part je..- huh kalau sorang2 cuak jugak.. mana nak ada daya . heh.. about 30 minutes later... we reached the seaside... well it was not as sandy as batu feringhi but quite ok for mind relaxing... heh ape2 jelah... yg pasti, my intention to view the sun rise vanished... heh perhaps one day, at the same place, we could watch the sun set...
at about 8.00 am we returned home.. on day way - we took our breakfast...
sampai saje rumah, outing ngan kak gazi pulok, this time we rode salam's motobike.. we went to the market to but all da cooking stuff... on the way back, aroung 10.00 am jalan tutup, keretapi lalu... huh masa tu i realized that the sun was really hot (heh statement ntah apa2 mmglah sun tu hot).. riding a bike on a sunny day.. is really a challange... heh panas siut.. kalau naik keta panas jugak, tapi ada bumbung ... heh
only then i feel a moment of fatigueness..... tired wey....letih.... thus, i dozed in the hall.... sambil pasng2 lagu...about 11.00 am, after a lavender rejuvenating shower, i dressed for work... heheeh for school actually.... suddenly, kak gazi called me... i rushed down, .. to my surpurise, she said she saw a snake in our kitchen! .. heh satu keja lah pulok! ular dalam umah... i tooked the mop, but was afraid to act as we were not sure what type of snake it is... then... i called salam.... heheh salam ask me to call 994 BOMBA... hahahha... then, instead of calling the firemen, i called usop...--> proceed to next column!! hehehe
about usop
about 15 minutes later usop arrived with alfiz... heh, eventhough it was a small snake ( baby snake i guuss)... we took about 20 minutes to remove it.... heh ala2 crocodile hunter....
then, we cooked nasi goreng udang and mee kari ketam.... well.. kak gazi was the head chef.. about 11 person attended da dinner last night... those were, me,satria,azno,diana,gazi,alfiz,salam,usop,almin,kak cik,en azmi,and theri 2 children... kak cik brought sate... really, last night was wonderful... heh there were a lot of foods.. ... it ended aroung 11 pm... then kak gazi and me went for a "night" walk ... to ease our body for digestion.. heh... ..
wey
tanjung piandang !!!! hehehe
actual plan,... wake up at 4.00 (usop's idea) and 4.30 depart to tanjung piandang from taman pekaka... heheheh that the plan reschedule... wake up around 6.00 (azan subuh) - heh ...
tonight, the plan (as stated above) will be attempted again... insya-allah.. hehehe
i read through a pal's blog.... his confusing dillema.. to choose either to stay or to leave... heheeh it's life dude....
for all the time you crave for something... perhaps someone ... and after quite a while trying, you finally see there's a hope of success to win it, another oppurtunity arrive.... oppurtinity that is said to be once in a life time pulak tu.... hmmmm
well.. i could only say...--> buat istiqarah!
not to be denied that things get much more complex as we grow older... the hardest decision that i ever made, that i could remember is to choose either a or b, either to a or to b.... i ask for opinion... what i gain was "follow your heart"... huh my heart says a but b seems to be much more promising.... i've told rock about it... remember rock?... it's like maniac! heh...
after a while, searching for right formula, i found that give priority for the most promising.... and if it involves human... ask for clarification, straight foward... but again.... everything is actually an ujian from Allah.. which varies..... it can be sadness, happiness, beauty, intelligent, dumbness (heh all the adjectives)..
hey, i got SPICE simulation to be done, see ya later... chow
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0610
012 hehe mana tanjung piandang nih?
0613
019nih kat tanjung piandang la nih... heheh .. .. pukol 4 td aku bangun dah,... .. .. .. ... .. .. .. dah takde orang bangun
012esok?
019esok, esok heh
maka esok jadi ke idak azno? alfiz? satria?
a very good day, it's 12.52 noon.... about 8 hours away from my last trip to da dreamland... heh last night before i went to bed, we made up a plan to go to tanjung piandang, a cape --> tanjung, since it's in the mid of the lunar month... it is said that, fishes, crabs, prawns are fond to be captured during these 2-3 days (bulan nak penuh)... but eventually, it was cancelled since, well ntah, since it was an abrupt cancellation... only now, i realize, sometimes, thinking a lot can actually stops you from doing things..fun things... somehow,
letting your heart decide without the interuption of mind is denger too... anyway.. there 2-3 days, i've been halting my programs for a while,... no idea actually... well, how to propose a novel aproach if you know nuthing about the current aproach?.. thus learn the current aproach ntahlah labu, idea pun abih nak sambung menda2 ...
dilla called last night... ha.. after subuh satria and me went cycling, we cycle to azareen's house then.... we ate breakfast, then we went to school , then i did some revision then , i blog... heheh daily routine --> i better type-off .. even i need a halt in blogging.. heh
halt..halt..halt -----> end(RIP)... well will i surely be
Resting In Peace?? heh malaysia for peace.. chow chow! shuh shuh
ahaks... nearly forgotten.........................
about usop
va.. va..
012 Inbox Outbox Write messages Picture messages Message settings Kwetiaw basah Nasi Ayam heh bagus hp nih, banyak menu. Mana beli??
019 Beli kat kayangan..
well, this reply made me wonder
*does he know about this site?
*has he been reading alfiz's site?
hmmm...
well, satria, yeah memangla da statement was nuthing, but, it is still something... anyway, i think that we're not that bad... yeah, it's just that we're not "intact" with it... heh lets ask them to mimic songs playing lets say keyboard or organ or maybe harmonica, i bet it would be da same too dude!... ... huh!
okeh, 21:37, sitting here in front of kak Gazi,
i'm planning to post an entry before today ends....
we've just returned from Billion, buying some houshole stuff ... then i remembered that i wanna blog some thought that came into my mind last saturday..
i watched "now you're on air" a talk show program hosted by JEnny malai ali, paula malai ali's twin sister... the issue for that particular show was music for the soul. . the guest was 2 men, one, mr. boe represent muslim's souls artist while the other one is christopher, a christian-song singer -heh i dunno what they were really called.. anyway, the discussion was about how "for soul" kind of music could be on par with those modern pop, rock music....
both boe and christopher are well known "music for soul" artist.. they were't that popular in malaysia but their album were said to be in europe, us market (why don't they distribute it in malaysia too?)
what poked my thought is christopher definition of "
music for soul". he claimed that it is simple, opposite of
for is
against ... so music for soul is those music that is not against soul.... which is the food for soul... the jenny ask him to eloborate, and be more specific on type of music - whether those linkin park stuff and rock, metal considered music against the soul.. to make it shorten... music and lyrics both are food for soul... you can have linkin park kindof melodies, hijazz kind of tone and raihan kind of acapella, but what makes them different is their lyrics.. soul and mind are both connected to each other... some of those heavy stuff melodies potray good issue, while there are too some smooth music that brings in immoral thought... use ur mind to judge it and never ever make pre-judgement.. in any situations, problems... bak kata si mamat nih:-
"People deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong. Why not try and see positive
things, to just touch those things and make them bloom?"
*Thich Nhat Hanh
oke, while in the car, kak gazi and kak sit told me the story of Nabi Yusoff and Zulaikha.. search the net for more information .. heh
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well, satria told me that azno told her that fizz told her that usop told him that he (usop) knows this stuff and his reaction was to make things as it was never happens before... heh good solution for me too, pretend as if nuthing happens.. ahaks!.. then life will be much flexible... yeah nuthing happens lah katakan... heh
well... well
finally, after a half day... well not really 12 hours, about 3 hours, i came out with this templete... it's a lil' contra compare to my previous since this is much more bright colours...
i went to usrah justnow, we discussed about magrifatul rasul.. an interesting topic,
dr rizal began his lecture today by quoting a hadith -
apanya yang banyaknya memabukkan maka sedikitnya adalah haram
-di riwayatkan oleh abu daud
well, clearly this is meant to arak...
*this answers a my friend's inquiry regarding wine, alcohol in cakes....
*this too can become a tourch of guidence to my neverending - thick grey line - yesterday, i have a short discussion about it with fizz, who seems to agree with me for a lil' reason...
*this too is a gigantic issue to define how much is consider much....
while adjusting the templete, my mind kept moving.... in a cycle .. trying to perceive the content of dr. rizal's usrah ... then this question arise
does the hadith include "insticnt of a man and a women" as well?... heh, apa issuenya di sisni?
what een said in her blog,
you poke into one question.... you dont necessarily get an answer.. instead.. you come out with more questions than what you had started with.
then, this question pop in,
we should fit our lifestle in da religion or we should fit da religion in our lifestyle?
then i answered my own question, tak jadi masalah kalau the religion it self is our lifestyle..
too many path towards an ideal practice of islam, muslim's lifestyle ...which should i consider the right one? how to consider? what to choose? who to choose?
dr. rizal also talked about hati- instinct, tanya hati apa yg hati mahu moreover when we're in the middle of making decision... well.. of couese then, we should assure that our instinct is on the right side.. .hmm.. jagalah hati.
about usop
azno told me that salam tol her that usop knows about all this stuff...
azno also told me that fizz tol her that usop knows about all this stuff...
but the best part is that i told dilla what the real things that bothers me... cumanya insufficient time for further discussion..
Originally, this started out as a sample of Chester playing acoustic guitar. Mike took the sample, replayed it, effected it, flipped it backwards, and cut it up into four pieces. Creating the main sample of the song. By the time it was finished, almost a year later, the band had rewritten most of the music around the sample. On another note, Mike and Chester wrote over 30 finished choruses for this song, each time scrapping the last one in search of something better. They eneded up recording the final version one week after the rest of the album was finished, in the studio where they were mixing....
heh... it sure rock, dude!!
about usop
well, i dedicate this linkin pork's heh linkin park's song to this column..
I want to heal,I want to feel
What I thought was never real,I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone][It's gone]
I want to heal,I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I Belong
What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there
What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
women and politics
last night, after playing badminton, i have an interesting discussion about politics... all da umno, pas stuff.. it all begins with an inquiry about BABYLON... hmm... then the discussion prolonged ... until about 1 am...
we covered from hudud, to teaching math and science in english implementation, with the interrupt of tabung haji issue... it was fun as i felt as if it was 1 to 1 discussion.. hmm
well, usop did poke some ideas, and one of his saying which catch my attention is that, the issue can be simplified when we learned more about islam... and he add "tu la, dulu usrah tak nak gi"... i later replied, that it actually depend on who's the naqibah, it's true that we should hear to what is being said not who's saying... but "who's" saying will also have an
unsangkarable influence to the audience...
anyway, during the discussion, i kept recall erhan's note in his blogspot, .. i'm impress with his writting the same way as i'm impress about last night discussion, cumanya , i felt erhan's won more points as he says with a concrete proof, quoting from authentic source, and much more realistic... as our surroundings aren't just muslims,... huh, apa yg nak dikata ha
then this morning, i discussed with een, reporting about yesterday's discussion, she seemed to agree and told me that her house mate, who studied in us before felt that it's more difficult to practice islam here compared to in us..as there are a bunch of different understanding, heh..
bak kata avril lavinge..
"Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
to azno, life is a bunch of chocolate, you never know what you gonna get, you might want it to be caramel, or maybe just a plain dairy chocolate... only when you taste and suck it you will feeel it .. bak kata robin williams..
mornin, something to comment about ajno's posting
yesterday 7-4-2002.....
heh what can i say more dude? ...
a lovely day, a bright sunny day with a rejuvenating motivation... after a long walk through the cloud, the cloud which "they" claim to have a silve lining somehow.... a bunch of undetermined thought... an endless flying question - with a drop of rejection... but hey... it does also means mean a cup of untouch BON.. yeah the BONBON drink (buleh didap[ati di pasaraya -KBJ)...
well nuthin' much actually to comment...
last week dilla called, asking me da same question, hmm.. what could i say... nuthin' heh...besar mana dah arman fahim nih.. hmm.. rock, well.. quiet for a while hah... yeah...
i met dr os and dr bad yesterday... regarding my project... heh CUAK ... i'm reminding my self to aware... yeah, i'll keep up with it as highly as possible.. yeah, i wanna join you fiza, one day,... i do... yeah I DO...
after a throughly thinking... i decided not to discard the
about usop's column..... because i believe in the right of being a human being... heh the right to judge and being judged......but let things rest for a while coz, now i'm leading such a thing... heh my project...
motto for da day... 'YOU MUST START TO BE SPECIFIC... SPECIFIC WITH THE PROJECT' huakk!!!
hello babeh ... mornin, a long haul, a long sleep... and of course a long journey... well actually, it's not that far, but far enough for students like us... heh, yeah, as what alfiz wrote in his blogspot, we went to taiping, after a super "bowl" match.. bowling was fun yesterday, hmm.. despite all the "stoking"'s troublesome, i can still have a nice day,
and it goes again-->the outing was fun, really fun , with all da security... yeah, not to be denied, having a bunch of friends to spent da day make me felt safe, hmmm... bak kata pepatah ada duri melindungi durian.. heheeh
alfiz, your quote for today --> macam pernah ku dengar... tapi di mana ya... heheeh ohooo dalam kereta satria rupanya... anyway... it's true though ... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.provided --> INSYAALLAH.. so usop, get rady..
a lil' tired today, shall proceed later.
about usop
the outing was fun, yeah fun.... a new hot story from satria...
va va usop..
well.. it was quite late last night when we arrive at taiping... after having a great time at the palyground, the six of us then went hiking.... welll, we hiked to jwww birch resident,... on our way up, we pased through a group of mamat motor.. who make unplesant noise... heheh actually who tried to wooed satria... it was really unconvenient ! having disturebed like that.. moreover when you're trying to enjoy the panoramic scenary... then..... USOP spped up his steps and walk beside satria, huh, such protective.. huh... i didn't realize it yesterday.. but now, after satria narrate me the incident, i'm melting .... uhu melting as if i'm an ice-cream under a hot sunny sun... huh, i would choose to be durian ice-cream then..... huh... heh
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself,
There is nothing wrong with you,
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart...
heh, well... easier heard than believed... heh perhaps better like this, easier said than done..heh.. anyway.. what eva ways it'll look like.. i'm reminding my self -->
Tiada yang dicintai melainkan ALLAH Tiada yang ditakuti melainkan ALLAH Tiada sumber rezeki melainkan ALLAH
hmm.. life kinda busy.. with the SPICE asignments on my forhead.. heh..the evening was really fun.. tenis, volleyball, basketball and netball all in one shot justnow.. however, i'm bad in playing tennis.. it's either, me or the opponent pick the ball .. anyway, volleyball was the best among all.. since now, i met kak tik, who likes volley as much as i do... i can feel that i'm losing my stamina, where i can only continously dig'ing for a duration of 30 minutes instead of an hour during those days- yeah
those days
i discussed a matter with a pal justnow- a metter of getting intact with some one who are totally different than what we are used to... yeah relationship between man and woman does confuse... moreover when it's pressured with other obstacles... YET, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, Insya-Allah for sure.. i'll try my best to help you my pal wheneva, hoeva i can......
heh i felt my post for today is quite cipan, with all the
keling2 structures.. i shall continue later..
p/s rock, ur site is sweet... nice color dude!
dilla, sit call aku dia kirim salam, nak kumpul duit nak melawat arman fahim... dia ucap hidup BN!
about usop
halt... or maybe the end... but who cares ... it will not be the end until i myself end it... heh
anyway, he did a yoga post at the basketball court today.. ahaks!
