"If you want something badly,, let it go. If it comes back to you, then it's yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never yours to begin with."

hmm... something yg terlalu common lately, naik muak + control ntah hapa2
betullah kata diana, kekadang bukan kaum adam je naik naik muak, aku pun cam meluat ... heh meluat, jaga imej,

well kekadang it happens when you need to choose either your imej or your keikhlasan,
heh warak macam mana pun kalau hati tuh sebenarnya nak ke lain, apa gunanya
aku menegur diri aku sendiri untuk itu,
huh, bab pakaian jaga habih, tapi bab hubungan sesama saudara take for granted, apa ingat dunia nih ko duduk sorang2 je ke, huh

i prefer those who have a balance in both, no one can be perfect i do agree, but by being too extreme just sucks!

betullah, tak kenal maka tak cinta, tapi kini bila dah kenal, naik bunci pun ada. huh!



i'm so excited about tomorrow, huh until i lost my concerntration on what i was supposed to do.... with the coming nsf scholarship, a bundle of works to finish, and a couple of tasks to be done.... huh
anyway, last night azno, azanie and me had quite a long haul of midnight chatting heh, ini sumua gara-gara nak ready for tomorrow,

well what's so special about tomorrow? hmmm.... tomorrow is a state after today, tomorrow is always a supprising matters for me... tomorrow may make me happy yet tomorrow still has the power to make me sad, no one can predict tomorrow, even if there is (nujum pak belalang heh!), still it won't be 100% accurate.....

no metter how tomorrow is viewed, tomorrow i'll be going for camping... bukan calang2 camping, camping ala2 survivor6... survivor amazon... this annual camp is organized by JIM (jemaah islah malaysia)... hmmm.. there will be 2 seperate groups - R&R, and iron - representing each district, i'm representing seberang prai selatan district as an R&R partipitaton... aznor will be in the iron team... heheh R&R stands for rehat and rawat, where we will be preparing all the iron participants - their food, their raft ( guest what, azanie, salam, yusup and me were given the task to make the raft-- heheh kalau terburat segala buluh2 tu alamatnya iron2 nih kena swim cross tasik laa..), rawat mr and ms iron ( ohh.. i'm aiming to rawat only mr iron... hehehe miss iron kita serahkan pada yg lain), fishing (eveluation will be done according to the biggest fish caught, the most fish caught and the most unique fish (hmm.. lipar-fish (selipar))...

apa2 pun the activities for iron seems much more interesting....hmm... they will start their journey early tomorrow mornin', about 3.30 am, aznor tidok kat umah dr rizal malam nih... hmmm... sharp at 4 am, they must reach juru check point, then the'll have 3 hour session of quiz (heh pepagi bita disuruh uji minda) -the'll have various of question ranging from JIM's organization to general knowledge- then abot 7 am, the'll go for jungle tracking, 2 path will be prepared (7km and 10km) , each team choose one and there will be a shorter distance but with difficult route (th 7 km for sure), then the'll have compassed hiking , kalau sesat dalam sana, sendiri bina khemah laa... the absailling (abselling), then they will have canouing, and lastly they'll have to swim across the river, to the base station where we, the R&R group will have to celebrate them.. heh eveluation will be done according to the way we celebrate them (cam lawak ada gaks).. night, we'll have presentation.. hah nasyid .. hehe






assalamualikum, waduh2, it had been 7 days from my previous visit here, and 22 days from my last episode of life..
too many things happened, yet i dun't haave any idea to blog.

anyway, Rock, thanks for da moral support,... the path is never end till we ourselves end it. everything starts with a dream, determination, and it tooks efforts to accomplish it, and not to forget, life is such beautiful, such challenging with the existance of luck!... once a while you may seem lost, bored, pressured but always remember there is ALLAH... insyallah 'manjadda wa jadda annajihin'

hmm... yesterday i played netball for usm's staff team... heheh.. i was imported, i have been in usm for a while and last monday aznor invited me to fill in one blank position... heh (bidan terjun), i played as GK... hehe the easiest position but with the most pressure. playing as gk yesterday reminded me during my 3rd year, huh how i missed dilla, the kapten of or campus., i wasn't with this netball game until i met her., heh we were close friend and that was the begining of my involvement in netball. i still remember when i was in standard 6, where i was rejected.. hahaha... sebab gemuk sangat kot, tak larat lari.. thus during the secondary years i played volleyball, .. we were one of the last team in daerah kuala muda yan back then,.. and i was only playing as reserved... not to be denied, at that time, whoever playing in the team was seen as the bright star,, heh and the rest sekadar nak cukupkan korum..up until one stage, i felt like quitting the team, but then , my mom's words keep me up- in sports generally. she said that it's not the team that your aiming for it's the satisfiction, which comes naturally with the passion that you have in it. .. till then i played, i love playing, i remembered playing with husna, pijah, rennee... i remembered the most that i played with husna, we dig (digging.. atau kata melayunya menyangga bola heh), and set up a 20 minuts of non stop 1 to 1record... and then i started to believe what my mos said., u can have the school player, even the district player, but only the passionate player that stays. and it grows, until F5 where i played in the school first team and we gained 2 place in the district (the theam that won is a stste champion- so tak heranlah leh kalah) ....

my netball story,... it begins like a typical bidan terjun story...i started playing during my 1st year in varsity. back then, i was simpanan untuk the 3rd team... heh tempat paling corot, while dilla was the captain for 1st team, heh usm engineering campus 1st team has a really good reputation, they won milo tournament, and even inter usm tournament.. while the 3rd tearm, sekadar hiasan... the 1st team trained daily while the 2nd and last, trained 2-3 days b4 tournament - since the scheduled differ among the players, it is sometimes hard to gather the players, even the 1st favourite team...
only dilla, and seangkatannya yg bersemangat setiap petang and since iwas close to her i followed to train ( heh duduk tepi gol- tulung kutip bola)... then slowly i built up my interest in netball,
halamak...sebenarnya apa yg aku nak tulih? huh.. ..
and during my final year in usm, i played in the first team tu je lah, pastu semalam dijemput main untuk staff, kalah tapi nya pun.. but satisfied me was, i was appreciated by the onther players
hmm.. kekadang kita tak leh nak halang how people view us, ..
aku selalu dapat that "lemah" kindof view.. heh impression yang nak memuatkan aku hanya sebagai simpanan.. hehe (exception for perempuan simpanan) .. heh dipendekkan cerita, don't look people with one eye and never also look with 3 eyes.. God knows the best when He created 2 eyes ... heh huh wek wek chow, lapar, any makanan free here??







get a life huh !






aku nak tukar templete...... huh ........nak tukar?><<<<<<<<<<



oo, man i couldn't sleep

Lying here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch
I'll think I'll get out of here

Where I can run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill

while surfing, i found this....

In the meantime, she wants to move forward. "It's more important that my suffering saves other women from this sort of thing in the future," she says. "Every time I hear about the birth of a female child, I worry about the powers working against her." She pauses a moment, then adds, "But at the same time, I know women can face anything. They have the strength.
yeah, it's odd when women rule, take the first step, choose... ahaks..... so sa beware.........They have the strength





huh, for the past 3 days, i've been doing nothing except configuring my computer
huh, balik2 masalah hardware not compatible, anyway, i found that linux is fun, hmm, since red hat got problem aje, i wanna tune to mandrake, but, kalo dok melayan menda nih tak terlayan dibuatnya,... huh







maybe ada hikmah... tak nak kasi riak..
heh apapun... content nya hanya lah...
i thanks rock... for the lovely satu harii bersama rock..
i congrates deman for his wedding
i thanks shareena for the exciting banana boat



it had been more than a week since my last entry... anyway hollo everyone.... especially rock... sorry coz yesterday i was away... i had planned to visit ur home (in conjunction with ur sis kenduri) but suddenly i was asked to go to my cousin's akad ceremony.... it was fun... yeah... the best pasrt was when my cousin... kak mizat thanks me for accompanying her during the aqad... the were a lot of poeple but my sis and me was the 2 among 3 to be honoured to accompany her... heheheh
chit... aku taip dah entry kali nih panjang berjela .. ilang.. chit chit