well the last time i step in this room i left this mystic question WHY HAH, THE GRASS ALWAYS LOOK GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE??!! .. and after a while, i recap it and i think it's not apropriate to say so... the first reason is that i recite back the song by no doubt and i found out that this song could be misunderstood... what i meant was that sometimes i tend to feel lonely because i used to do things with the existance of a mate, heheh schoolmate, dormmate, classmate, lecturemate, 'aerobic'mate, 'dsbg'mate.... and eversince i graduated it seems that i'm now paddling the bicycle alone... sailing the tiny boat of mine, cruising around the world alone, and yes of course i do board people in my boat, but it last only a while, because they too have their own boat, or should i say 'ship' to sail... but eventually the song stated that

I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

and i re'thought'-heheh pikir balik of the lyric... and it wasn't the situation that i'm having right now, and i'm now so sure that i won't.. hopefully that i won't.. bacause up till today, the day where i officially stand on my own feet... i do have FRIENDS that still care to know about me no metter where they are, JB, KT,KL, even a penangite that tour to Sp. and today in conjunction of the 22nd day of syawal, i apologize to all my FRIENDS for granting the spirit of 'friendhip' !!...

and i did also find the answer for my own question... WHY HAH, THE GRASS ALWAYS LOOK GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE?
there are probably 3 reasons which are;

1st : the fertalizer that the other side use is more productive, due to the modern technologies

2nd : something wrong with my pair of bunkeye.. eventhough i've been consuming carrots as much as i can, still the power of my glases increases

3rd: well, maybe the grass on this sight is green or perhaps greener, and it looks less green because of the shadow i made myself. when comparing the grass of this side and the other side, i was eventually standing on this side ,.. and due to the bright sunny sun, my body somehow made up a shadow thus make the other side looks brighter...








WHY HAH, THE GRASS ALWAYS LOOK GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE??!!

Artist: No Doubt
Song Title: Don't Speak
Album: Tragic Kingdom


You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always

I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
It's all ending
You gotta stop pretending who we are
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
I know you're good
I know you're good
I know you're real good

heh!






iread this one article... by diane fiona... she wrote a story of a confused child, larry... larry was brought up in a stable family background.. during his 15th birthday.. his mother told told him that he's now is a young man... and will soon be a man... she advised him... that one day, her son will marry ... and she advised him to marry someone that loves him, and not someone that need him... she also added that females are the one who confused between both , love and need .. all the time...throughout the story, fiona had brings out a good description of a mother and son relation, which eventually turns to an unexpected ending... the climax is when his mom said that she 's going to leave her family as to proceed with her career. .. larry was the 1st one to be told.. and the story ends with a question, does his mom love his family or she actually only needs it... 2 things fiona highlighted here... it is better not knowing than knowing.. heh apadaa..menda aku tulih.. and the second thing...the issue of needing and loving... we shall discuss latter... The practice is on air.. chow...



what a day today... full of functions.. heh!.. anyway... i met ewan through msn chatroom this evening... well i deleted his email once... because i was uneasy with his way of treating my friend.. sometimes delayed clarification and precaution do harm people feelings... maybe he didn't meant to ..but the choice is in his hands whether to tell the truth or continously 'mingling' around.. ... relationship between man and woman is really confusing... anyway back to the story... he greeted me... and at first i didn't recognize his nick name.. but later i acknowledge his email... he wishes me good luck in life... hmm.. ,.. what a good2 friend... and later we chatted about his work... heh.. his salary sounds tempting...mana taknya basic+outstation elounce can reach up to 3.0k....... but the interesting part is that he is now in the process of 'settling' down with ayu... his x, x, x-girlfriend... ayu used to be my roomate when i was in 1 st year .. she is someone who is really full of courage, well we do fight ocasionally hehehe (mujur ada dilla hehe) but the best thing is that the 'friendship' is maintained till today.... she's a sort of easy going and due the fact that she took only a short moment to accept my appologize.. once.. we went through a really big fight... (hmm.. almost the whole floor of the dormitory herad the fight)... it took me ¬3 days to settle the matter.... i asked for her forgiveness for my impatience ... and at the same time both of us berdamai... i asked her ... frankly .. whether she really doesn't mind...she said that everytime when she involved in a quarrel.. she'll always remind herself about late mother's advise... that nometter how bad people harm us... the best thing to do is to give forgiveness....since then... i alway remind my self that the courages of a human is never proven till they successfully overcome their temper.. at the same time i do admit that i do have a place of 'qisas' thought in my mind.. qisas-balas dengan apa yg diterima..sometimes .. we need fair judgements... however...most of the time we must be unfair in order to be fair.... no one in this world is fair.. and only God is fair..






va va... i plan to write ... but then i'm thinking of changing it to reading..... lately i've been reading this one book, short literature.(ala 2 cerpen)... and i find out that .. i need to quench my thirsty thoughts with ideas and the journey towards these ideas seems endless... read is the path of knowledge ... knowledge is power.... i bet everyone knows this... .... i heard this b4 ... but only at the moment i'm apreciating it... who says unemployed life is buring hah... life will never be bored unless you 'bored' it...



Bintang-bintang berkerdipan
Hanya satu mengusik pandang
Hanya satu antara seribu pilihan ku
Berkerdipan menghiasi
Hanya satu bintang di hati
Hanya dikau dalam seribu yang telah menawan ku

Kenapa, mengapa, usah ditanya
Kemana, di mana ohh tiada bezanya
Hatiku ceria bagai sang suria
Hari minggu hari bergembira
Hilangkan rasa rasa curiga
Duka dan nestapa
Mari kita menyanyi
Lagu sha na na na na

Siapalah aku ini
Yang ingin memetik cinta mu
Siapalah seadanya
Diri ku di sisi mu
Biarlah usahlah
Bermain dengan api
Kelaknya terbakar sendiri
Biarkan tersimpan
Segala perasaan
Rahsia hati ku terhadap mu
Siapalah aku ..b>

heh!

posted by Nurul @ 00:02

Friday, December 13

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
for I can't help falling in love with you


i first time heard this song during my school band marching parade... well if i'm not mistaken in smk ibrahim... hmm.. juliana was the one who miming this song hm.. i wonder where she is now... well we used to be friends.. heh with rock.. but then i never meet her since SPM.. i know that she still keep in touch with juwaini.. but i can't help myself to reach her... there is some like inner conscience that tell me to give for people who want, answer for people who ask, ... hmm... but maybe one day i'll meet her... yeah one day... if only a can asure mysel that i will die another day... or perhaps tomorrow will never dies... ..
anyway

huh jelesnya ... fiza is in spain when she pop in my blog ... huh... i was gratefull that she still remember to drop by my spot no metter where she is... huh... how was spain... heh ...lucky.. cause you can finally get the chance to see Betty... hehehh 0.01% to board the same plane with betty.. while i can only see spain through the tv box... hmm.. keep it up.. fiza... geee.....

back to mr elvis' song.. .. eventhough this song was written ~ 20years ago... the lyric is still catchy till today... hm... words are same but they bring out different meaning ... like the pendulum's swing.. hmm...
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posted by Nurul @ 15:18

selamat hari raya semua....
heh .. this raya was marvellous... all the open houses i attended and organized was fun.. i met almost every member of the 'tree'.. heh... heh... every one... except one... huh !1

posted by Nurul @ 14:17