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Saturday, September 28


heh... masuk ke saat ini.... i've been 'internating' using this pub. com at usm library fot straight solid 4 hours.... heheh kematu satu badan... heheh... kepada yang queue ammik nombot tunggu turn ... nasiblah yea... heheh sebab it's a tradition... me myself have once waited until about an hour... hmm....

i dedicated this songs to all my prend ....specially yg baru grad... erhan,... delay this dedication to next year ...

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives, Where we're gonna be when we turn twenty-five, I keep thinking times will never change, Keep on thinking things will always be the same, But when we leave this year we won't be coming back,No more hanging out cause we're on a different track, And if you got something that you need to say, You better say it right now cause you don't have another day, Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down,These memories are playing like a film without sound"

"As we go on, we remember, All the times we had together, And as our lives change, come whatever, We will still be friends forever"

"So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money, When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?,Will we still remember everything we learned in school?, Still be trying to break every single rule, Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?,Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?, I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye, Keep on thinking it's a time to fly"

As we go on, we remember All the times we had together And as our lives change, come whatever We will still be friends forever


posted by Nurul @ 11:40



yup... keboringan........... tapi keboringan yang baru ke tahap anak dewa... huh....
anyway.. erhan.. what's your email add?? ... i've some question to ask... apparently ... i have a discussion these last few days... with a member of mine... a china-christian guy ... heheh he ask me alot-not really asking... some sort like condemning- regarding what islam is..... until a stage where i have no idea to answer... ... just wanna ask your opinion...

hmm.... yesterday i went to watch 'changing lanes' with fiza and yasmin.... heheh donia nih kecik.. sebab aku jumpa dilla sebelum nak masuk panggung... dilla... a fan of stuart.... heheh well.. i wanna watch that movie .. one day.... ..
well changing lanes is such a nice movie... hmm... i like the storyline... a day which eventually changed 2 persons journey of life... hhuh!.... well.. at first i look at mr.james (alamak.. terlupa nama dia apa.. but it was act by samual jackson) as the starting point of the disaster... he lost his temper easily, his emotion rules rather than intelligent... (i have always hated when emotion conqure the intelligence of a human... and out of a sudden when both of them are stable... we kindof 'insap' ... huh)... but.. as the film roled... mr. darvin (darvin or darwin -i'm not sure..acted by ben afflect) too did some flak that day... both were some sort like changing their lanes... as 1 of them was about to correct their 'lane', the other one pushed away.... it's like the politics nowadays... the palestine and israil... and the palestinians always become the prey......however, when both of them finally met each other - face to face - everything started to be untanggled (heheh apa untanggled ?? nih heheh).... this movie give me a picture of:
being able not to let emotion taking over intellegent do help in many ways
solving a problem need both party to discuss the matter face to face
- it will save a lot of time..heh (but dilla method ini tak menjadi masa kita pi makan malam ngan aisyah, mas era, nagn ija.... heheheh salah satu punca kegagalan ialah kerana aku selaku pengoder makanan cuak sangan nak tengok pbw kat restoran no 1... )

earlier that day... my classmates went to mc donanld green lane... we have our last fast food lunch with fiza ... hmm.. nadia and fiza tried nasi ayam mc d... taste good... but the amount is as tiny as a pack of pulut inti.... hehheh untuk nadia ngan fiza sesuai aa.. heheheh well i ate mcspicy- as usual....lam.. mc crispy... shah heheh a multiple of choice... bigmac, sunday... ...
about 2 hours b4 that, we have our monthly graduation.... and a drama presentation from level 6.... heheh kindoff funny because they all did it with full of emotion and they can really act well...clement played as the hero... siaw chee... as his partner..a story of a chinese legendary..2 snakes... heheheh cerita alam dewa budha....this month's drama was conducted by teacher justina... a veteron teacher who is full of spirit and spoting.... the drama however is dominated by china students... thus the profiency is a little bit bad... but overall.. it is entertaining....hmm... abby said she wanted to bring along her guitar.... to demo to me that she can teach me to play 3 simple song in one day... well, i told her that i like to hear the melodies of a guitar but i never know how to play and she just said that she got a method to teach the fastest way to play guitar.... hehheh .. heheh ... but it turn out that day... she came late... thus abby pon tak bawa gitarnya....lain kali lah yeah...

movie review presentation - which i did last tuesday... about shrek... was quite well... allison gave me quite a good habuan ..anyway i like nadia's presentation ... about lord of the rings... hehehe gee... i never knew that movie was like that... i remembered wathing it with azareen, aznor, ngan sapa ntah lagi... yg pasti kat bilik een... i watch 15 minitus of the first disc... and apa yg aku ingat pastu aznor (tak pun aima) .. kejutkan aku dari lord of the dreams...- dah abih dah cerita ... hehe ketiga-tiga cd..
penjelasan yg menarik oleh nadia ... membuatkan aku nak tgk balik cita tu... heheh

hmm... before tgk wayang (changing lanes) semalam... i brought fiza and nad to my house... hehhe my hut... no.... no make it this way.. my hut, the kingdom of my heart... hehhe fiza said ... no wonderlah why i like to do more of the out door actvities and watch tv alot...hehehmy house is sunyi... tak dak orang... compare to her, where all her nieces and nephews living together... hmm she once told me that she was curious why i still like to go out - swimming, aerobic-ing... after 8 hour of class (9 to 4) ... well i dunno how to answer when she asked me 4 months ago... but it seemed that yesterday... she got my answer... no one is at my home..

posted by Nurul @ 09:28



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Friday, September 27


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Wednesday, September 25


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Monday, September 23



posted by Nurul @ 14:29




posted by Nurul @ 14:28



"life.... is a drama where you are the main character", ... used to be my propaganda heh in life... it's true in a way, because everyday you wake up... the drama begins..... especially when you are in school... residential school... surrounded by friend who mught or might not be in your side.... well.... i find out i had a hard time for me to apart from friends... living away my mates... in my secondary school... i did't take anyone address... accept a couple of friends phone numbers...i tend to think that it will end (the relation ship...) and can only bear in mind.... further more... i felt like everyone, creature, living or unliving thing will stamp together with the memory...
in uni... it went the same... i had always told dilla about how sad i'm going to be.... somewhere in furute that would for sure not same as today.....
until... allison pointed out that life can also mean the journey of a destination.... which i found to suits better the definition of life for me...
because.. acting in a film... make me feel unsincere ... it hurts sometimes...in order to please some one, so do everyone , to please me...vice versa....
but ... by having this new propaganda.... life is a journey..... everything is in a flux... flux of life.... toward one death...

posted by Nurul @ 14:24



i rewatched sherek yesterday... and i recall this song..ALL STAR... it's nice.. heh !!


Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me,I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running Didn't make sense not to live for fun Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
So much to do so much to see
So what's wrong with taking the back streets
You'll never know if you don't go
You'll never shine if you don't glow

Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play, Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid, And all that glitters is gold, Only shooting stars break the mold

Judging by the hole in the satellite picture, The ice we skate is getting pretty thin, The waters getting warm so you might as well swim
My world's on fire how about yours, That's the way I like it and I never get bored, somebody once asked could you spare some hange for gas, I need to get myself away from this place,I said yep what a concept, I could use a little fuel myself

So much to do so much to see
So what's wrong with taking the back streets
You'll never know if you don't go
You'll never shine if you don't glow




posted by Nurul @ 14:05




Sunday, September 22


Alam siber teknologi terkini, kejayaan semakin menghampiri, biar di kota mahupun desa, kita semua pasti merasa bangga…

Last 2 days we have a debate about a classic tittle heh "money can't buy happiness"... i was in the affirmative group... .. nothing much to be said... we did it informally since the attendence wasn't full.... abby was in the opposition party...with fiza... it went out smoothly ... but evebtuallyturn out emotionally..... and i have always hated when debating emotionally.... for one reason-hi volumn presentation involving personalities.....
this reminded me with a conversation that i had with nabil... a friend of mine in matriculation, she was MRSM taiping first debater... what made me curious is that she refused to represent usm eventhough she was givena chance to do so.... she told me that she will no longer return to debating world.... it used to make her looks stupid... you need to stand on an argument although you might not agree with it. nabil had helped her mrsm team won the debating championship inter mrsm... she had a great talent and a unique kind of presentation... but behind all these 'gift'.. heh
but what highlighted me was that... debating is good in a way... being forced to agree in a stand do help in life...it make you to think from 2 main aspect- the pro and the con of an issue.... however debating echoed by emotional feeling isn't fun .... moreover when it involved your friends.... heheh Why you have to go and make things so complicated??
apa pun.... Derek tips on debate is good.... listen, think, voice out.... such a waste of time agruing on a point that in'argueable'....

posted by Nurul @ 10:38




Friday, September 20


yesterday... i went swimming... i met with this lady aged ~30.... she brought her children... 4 of them... aged 3-7... cute.... it was lady day yesterday.... this lady wear tudung labuh... heheheh (TLC)... from a first look... she was like an ustazah... but the way she treated her children was quite sproting... well she swam quite good too.... heh what am i trying to say here?? huh... well.. i wish one day i can be like her... bring all my kids to sim with me.... hehhehe
it was quite a small pool... i swam near the children... well.. since i don't rally know them... i just ignore them... .but as i past by... the youngest child 'doughnut'ed with the pelampung... said hi.. ( geee so cute...cute,.....)heheh .... then he asked is that yours ( pointing to my blue sling bag)... i replied yup... the boy then sain bunyi lagu... hehhehe telefon ku berbunyi.... dilla called

posted by Nurul @ 17:51



huh.... huh huh
yapppperdei.... no nicemove today...
huh,..
anyway...while waiting for fiza this morning, i decided to 'trgur' this one pakcik... aged 50-60... he looked familiar... look like arwah kak asma's brother.. kak asma used to be my baby sitter ( heheh during my primary school..) she came to my house during the working hours... she was nice... she taught me many things and she was very strict... at that time she was in the middle of 30's.... as i grew older.. i went to a school in kedah and since then we lost contact..... to keep in touch, one day (when i was in form 1) i visited her house... it was in gelugor.. a kampung house surrounding.... kak asma used to take me and my sister to her house and we went to the beach near by (last time there was a beach but now it had been 'tambun' and become a part of the penang bridge highway)... her elder brother (we used to call him nana) will carry my little sister in a 'black basikal tua' ... when we reached kak asma house, my dad knock the door since it was quite quiet hehe ... and an old lady open... welll she was kak asma's mother... she recognized us.. and welcomed us in... i asked for kak asma, the old lady replied that she had passed away... we were all surpurised... it had been 6 months... my mom asked when and why... that lady said kak asma was admitted to hospital for diabetis a weeek be4 her death... and then nan came back home.. he was surpurised to see us and ask us to have 'kopi' meanwhile he went out for a second.... about 5 minutes he returned and brought us air-kotak-bandung each... what toudched me alot is that... kotak air kotak tu berhabuk- menunjukkan agak lama kotak tu terletak atas para-para di kedai... heheheh ... and he gave my sister and me 2 ringgit each be4 we went home... he said ... duit pi sekolah... welll... their family was not financially stabled and all his efforts to served us was touching....
thus this morning... i approached the man who looked like nana ... the man was washing the pinggan mangkuk(org gelugor makan sup pagi2 huh.!! mengherankan) he worked with the bihun soup shop... i asked him... are you nana... he replied yup.. he didn't recognized me (of course ooo... it had been 10 years since we last visited him)... he was quite surpurised... then i saw fiza coming... so i ended and said .. jumpa lagi nanti..
maybe... i'l see him... chatting for a while...

posted by Nurul @ 17:32




Thursday, September 19


hello... yesterday i watched the bourne identity kat mega pavillion, perangin mall.. disusuli patch adam kat TV3.... hmm.. 2 ari lepas .. i watched the sign...
the bourn identity
i joined els students to watch it... well for me it's better than bad company.... the stunts are quite smooth as it look real with a typical CIA agent storyline, mat dammon??.. jason bourne looked smart especially during the cutting hair scene ... i rate this movie 4 out of 5.....

the sign
well... quite nice...quite slow though.. it focused more on the feeling of every character rather than action... in a way the story promotes 'having faith in god' propaganda...

patch adam
dilla told me about this mmovie long2 time ago... 2nd year kot... it is like a typical charity story... but the script was nice..... one old man told patch not to focus only on the problem... because the solution is always near by... just as a matter of how difficult it is...

huhuhh i dunno why ... lately i felt no mood in doing things,... the bordom is echoing me lately..... so much things to take care with so little passsion ... heh heh
i need some fresh air... perhaps after swimming thes eve everythin' will be fine....

aa.. nak pi makan... soto..
weh erhan, satria ...jemput2 makan

posted by Nurul @ 16:20



weh... beca... what's up? anything you wanna inform me... ...?

posted by Nurul @ 14:24



i believe in free speech. anyone can say whatever they want without any fear of retribution.- erhan, September 17


... gee.. gee.... jop...jop.. weh erhan, apa ada pada war declaration .... don't take my statement that serious....


you can talk whateva you want and condemn whoeva you wish as long as you are open-minded to face people critism on you... ... this goes same to me .... heh
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?

posted by Nurul @ 14:22



A demonstration with nadia.... ta'da....

posted by Nurul @ 14:12




Tuesday, September 17


i contribute this to satria....gee... she declared a war with erhan... heheh must have been so giishi hah!!!
sing this song long huh!!!
"Complicated"

Uh huh, life's like thisUh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like thisUh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be you will see
I like you the way you are When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no



posted by Nurul @ 19:32



well we discussed about racism... it was quite a hot conversation since it invonved debates between the chinese and malay... hmm.. shelley pointed that it is a sensitive issue to discuss the matter but then surani said ... it won't be if everyone is open minded... yeah it's true... you can talk whateva you want and condemn whoeva you wish as long as you are willing to face people critism on you...
it was an hour of discussion, CJ (the china man) pointed out that in China .. no racism ever occured , due to it's comunist policy... but when he arrived here, he noticed that malaysian mind aren't open and are seriously racist... hmm surani didn't quite agree and ask CJ to elaborate..... well he then began his hipothesis story,.....once he said to a malaysian chinese girl that he like the look of a malay girl (hehehe specifically yasmin)... he was surpurised when the malaysian chinese lady reply that he shouldn't say like that because he himself is a chinese man... what made cj unsatisfied is that why couldn't he admire malay female look... and why is that chinese lady so frustrated when he mention of his view (well... everyone is free to express his opinion - that is what a democracy policy is all about).... CJ concluded that malaysian- although seem harmony living together as a multiracial nation are actually racist......
well... he do have a point.... well... for some people 'hak keistimewaan orang melayu' is also considered as racist....
racism is abstract...... Lam then pointed out that racism is a need in a way.... we can protect the tradition as well as converting them to future generation.... well... i supposed she meant 'hak keistimewaan orang melayu' then..... yeah... what other alternative can we do to preserve hak warha watan nih..... i then pointed out about the arpatied matter- in south africa ... where the balck african are facing difficulities in order to get their land ownership which are 70% now owned by the white african......
hmm... well.. it's true.... in order to be fair... sometimes you tend to be unfair
surani then asked if anything else that can be discussed about the matter....
well.. i bring out the case of vecepia (the winner of survivor 4)..... she condemn the previous survisors saying that they were racist.... ahe stand out proudly as african american... (i still remember in an episod of survivor 5 when she openly said that there is racism in s4).....what i highlited was... racist occurs when you brings out the metter... for me vee is racist... because what she talked was only based on the hard time faced by the african-american community.... while other factors aren't being bothered..... for me ... you are as what you mentioned.... you complain much about racism.... it is in a way you become racism because you view it on the perspective of races......

posted by Nurul @ 19:25




Saturday, September 14


fuh... can anyone tell me, who look like this guy?!!!!.... ?

..what if i enlarge this pic.....
the SIDE LOOK

how about this angle then..

FRONT LOOK

what can i say MORE huh..... huakkkkkkk!

posted by Nurul @ 08:41




Friday, September 13


okeh... justnow we discussed on the relation ship between a mother& daughter and a mother&son
well we compared the situation of both relation ship... norsham pointed that they differ in manyways... she asked us to compare these 2 songs... mama from spice girls and mama from boyz2 men.... hmmm... what do you think of that?

spice girls
Mama
She used to be my only enemy and never let to be me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shoudn't be,
Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you become the friend I never had,
Back then I didn't know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
All that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,

boyz 2 man
You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times





posted by Nurul @ 14:20




Saturday, September 7


what a day yesterday....
i went to an interview... .... the job sounded like something nice to be xplored ...........i first met the hr girl, a woman whose age probably is same me. i was the told to fill out the form... at first i was cool cause in my mind, i was only thinking of this is a practise- if i couldn't manaage to get through i can try another time, then while waiting for shenen lee i read back my final year project report.... for the past 4 months ihave been attending this english class... well i was kindof enjoying myself there and didn't bother about my past exams- what i mean was i didn't touch anything related to my previous study.... my finala year project was ti develope a chipset that can used as encoder in a mobile phone...... it was quite a hard time for me during my developing project periode and as far as i could remember i was lucky to have friends- near and far- that support me morally .... then a man asked for my resume and transcript while i fill out the form.. a minute later 2 other interviewer came, ... the ladi look similar but till today i can't figure who she looked like... heh bule kening satu line beb-lantak kat dia lah kan....
then the interviewing began........... i dunno why i suddenly freak out.. maybe the super 'condesive' small room, with 3 person to encounter made me feel nervous...
anyway.. he began asking me about my fyp.. the question was simple... what is your goal... it took me ~30 minutes ... really 30 minutes to define my ftp... i lost words... i started to lose confident ... but ... i tried to maintain an 'reactionless' face ... then the oter guy ... asked me tell me about gsm... i told him as what i've been telling ppl and dr.osman... i'm quite sure about it... but unfortunately i was 'bang'ed and was then told that what i explained was 60% fraud... huh ... well then i felt like crying, it's not only because his raising voice... i felt everything was useless and as if they don't really want to hire me just to play around.. the lady pulak.. while i answered shennon lee quest she laughed...... as if my stupidity that i brought along to accompany me during the interview.. not my knowledge ... and totally i lost my confident... i expected i was going to be released in a couple of minutes ... since everything is wrong for them.... anyway.. i think my fluency in approaching ppl is totally out... i jargon alot .....heh but at the same time all the 3 interviewer told me about the insentive that i might get if ther were to hire me... the way they tell is as if i passed this interview but the way they reacted to my answers is really cutting me heart... well i supposed if i seemed not like the one they sre searching for... the just let me off... the game of appreciating and condeming me did make me felt such a dumb i was.....
2 hours after the interview.... no kidding 2 hours latter ... then we dismiss..... before i left i asked them when can i know the result... he said it will probably took them 1.5 months since there are a bunch of interviwee more for them to interview... the other guy said 'sinis'ly.. nevermind our hr will inform you and if by the time there is no call from them, heheheh .. aku rasa out dah... cam cipan nak mampos.. i drove back home using the furthest route ...i want to cool myself so that i can act naturally when i arrived home...because i burst out into tears... heh i couldn't tahan anymore... hehe cam apa je... tapi itulah hakikat nya. .. i cried!! well no big deal kan... kalau setitis 2 air mata nak kuar .. i couldn't use my academic qualification to get something that i wished... selama nih ... i was just depend on luck... aku baca blogger orang... semua org ada kekuatan kabagusan dan kenikmatan dalam idup... at that point aku rasa aku stupid not only academically bahkan 'soul'ly...apa 'soul'ly pun aku tak tau... yg aku tau failure seemed to be my twin... heh tak baik cakap lagi nih...aku rasa kalau cakap ngan dilla... jawapan dia nanti kita org lain2.... masing2 ada kekuatan... (dialog dia suatu masa dahulu yg aku pegang) .. kalau cakap ngan rock ... dia nasehat .. tak pa .. hg akan jumpa kekuatan hg satu hari nanti... satu benda yg buat kan hg lain dari yg lain.......... kalau cakap ngan satria ... dia nanti kata .. huh aku pun tak tau.......... kalau cakap ngan fiza .. dia kata .. takpa.. boleh cuba lagi.............. ini semua andaian jawapan yg aku forecast ... what happen was i talkend to my moyher then... heh she replied simple...boleh tahanke pressure kalau keja... nih baru interview... huh............
ntah aaaaaaa.... .. sebab apa yg nak ditonjolkan quality dalam idup but eventually.... tarak quality pun yg aku dapat bagi dalam tempoh 2 jam intw tuh.........once i've talked with YT (he is the manager of ELS-kelas eng yg aku pi tu) ..he urged me to work..and find my capabilities... either production line / service line i'm good with..... hmm.. camna nak pi... heh intw pun tak lepas... intention aku nak buat master ngan rock... huh at the same time aku nak juga analisa tahap aku dalam working surrounding ni..........fiza cerita ... naja senang je dapat keja..ok balik ke isu semua orang unik... takkan sama jalan hidup antara sorang ngan sorang........
semalam jugak sblm intw aku online.. sesaja nak cari ilham ... aku baca blogspot satu member nih... he planned to further his study in politics (science)... and wanted to do something for the society... huh... bagus ... bagus... buat buat ... bagus ... sebab aku rasa aku fail nak buat apa2 kat society nih... ada 3 benda.. kalau tak dapat buat/halang ngan tangan... buat/halanglah ngan mulut.... kalau still tak dapat nak buat/ halang ngan kata2 ...buat/halanglah ngan hati... aku support sepenuh ati apa yg nak dibuat utk masyarakat... bagus bagus ...semua dalam dunia nih baguus... shennon lee bagus...kawan2 dia bagus .adi irawan bagus adi-demam bagus said bagus dila bagus fiza bagus rock bagus yt bagus nadia bagus semua .. bagus ... hanya aku main tain... heh tak bagus! huh !!!!!!!!!!!!!

posted by Nurul @ 08:14




Thursday, September 5


Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer
Is there something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer

huh how i wish..............
if ever i have someone that can guide me crawling out from this dark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

posted by Nurul @ 16:31



okeh... masuk hari nih... 1 minggu aku dapat sms misteri nih... hehhe
okeh.. it happened when..my cousin, dedek wanted to phone flirting since there was a free line (someone left $0.50 at the public phone ).
so i told her i got this number ..belong to someone that i'm not familiar chatting with... heh sapa lagi... 012-4728219...huh... dedek was good in this phone flirting./... well i felt a little yerk... when she made the itchi-slyish-eksyen slang..heh...
hmm.. then we both went swimming... hmm...
at about 6.45pm .. this sms was delivered to me

+60164580272 : awak ke yg chat tadi
i replied : aik, tak online pon
+60164580272 : tul ke
i didn't reply
+60164580272 : tul ke awak tak on
i didnt reply since i dont feel like replying
+60164580272 : saya tahu awak yg chat
+60164580272 : saya tahu awak on tapi takpelah kalau tak nak ngaku. saya pun nak lik KL
i replied : uik, sapa ni? (recycle the dialogue that was used when i first sms 012472)

the the smsing ended... but around 7.15 i recieved a call from +60164580272 hmm... bab mis call nih suka lah pulak main.. i missed call that no back... then ~5 minutes .. +60164580272 called but i kindof ran out of idea and acted as if i was a chinese lady... heh gunapakai dialog kat els.

misteri (1) walaupun dedek yg call, guna public fon plak tuh... no aku yg terima sms.. hmm.. is this a coincident.. ??@@#!@


moral (2) takdak paedah pun.. kalau main2 - buat naik bil je
(3) hebat jugak dedek nya skill !

posted by Nurul @ 16:05



ok...actually this is for yesterday post but eventually it was erased!!!!!!!!!!! so i made up again buat one day ahead...

well I'M WISHING DILLA A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY... AND CONTRIBUTE TODAY's POSTING TO HER... ...


Hepi besday to you (3x)
Allah slamatkan kamu (3x)



posted by Nurul @ 15:41



what had happened???

posted by Nurul @ 15:34






posted by Nurul @ 14:29



posted by Nurul @ 14:28


"life.... is a drama where you are the main character", ... used to be my propaganda heh in life... it's true in a way, because everyday you wake up... the drama begins..... especially when you are in school... residential school... surrounded by friend who mught or might not be in your side.... well.... i find out i had a hard time for me to apart from friends... living away my mates... in my secondary school... i did't take anyone address... accept a couple of friends phone numbers...i tend to think that it will end (the relation ship...) and can only bear in mind.... further more... i felt like everyone, creature, living or unliving thing will stamp together with the memory...
in uni... it went the same... i had always told dilla about how sad i'm going to be.... somewhere in furute that would for sure not same as today.....
until... allison pointed out that life can also mean the journey of a destination.... which i found to suits better the definition of life for me...
because.. acting in a film... make me feel unsincere ... it hurts sometimes...in order to please some one, so do everyone , to please me...vice versa....
but ... by having this new propaganda.... life is a journey..... everything is in a flux... flux of life.... toward one death...

posted by Nurul @ 14:24


i rewatched sherek yesterday... and i recall this song..ALL STAR... it's nice.. heh !!


Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me,I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running Didn't make sense not to live for fun Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
So much to do so much to see
So what's wrong with taking the back streets
You'll never know if you don't go
You'll never shine if you don't glow

Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play, Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid, And all that glitters is gold, Only shooting stars break the mold

Judging by the hole in the satellite picture, The ice we skate is getting pretty thin, The waters getting warm so you might as well swim
My world's on fire how about yours, That's the way I like it and I never get bored, somebody once asked could you spare some hange for gas, I need to get myself away from this place,I said yep what a concept, I could use a little fuel myself

So much to do so much to see
So what's wrong with taking the back streets
You'll never know if you don't go
You'll never shine if you don't glow




posted by Nurul @ 14:05




Sunday, September 22

Alam siber teknologi terkini, kejayaan semakin menghampiri, biar di kota mahupun desa, kita semua pasti merasa bangga…

Last 2 days we have a debate about a classic tittle heh "money can't buy happiness"... i was in the affirmative group... .. nothing much to be said... we did it informally since the attendence wasn't full.... abby was in the opposition party...with fiza... it went out smoothly ... but evebtuallyturn out emotionally..... and i have always hated when debating emotionally.... for one reason-hi volumn presentation involving personalities.....
this reminded me with a conversation that i had with nabil... a friend of mine in matriculation, she was MRSM taiping first debater... what made me curious is that she refused to represent usm eventhough she was givena chance to do so.... she told me that she will no longer return to debating world.... it used to make her looks stupid... you need to stand on an argument although you might not agree with it. nabil had helped her mrsm team won the debating championship inter mrsm... she had a great talent and a unique kind of presentation... but behind all these 'gift'.. heh
but what highlighted me was that... debating is good in a way... being forced to agree in a stand do help in life...it make you to think from 2 main aspect- the pro and the con of an issue.... however debating echoed by emotional feeling isn't fun .... moreover when it involved your friends.... heheh Why you have to go and make things so complicated??
apa pun.... Derek tips on debate is good.... listen, think, voice out.... such a waste of time agruing on a point that in'argueable'....

posted by Nurul @ 10:38




Friday, September 20

yesterday... i went swimming... i met with this lady aged ~30.... she brought her children... 4 of them... aged 3-7... cute.... it was lady day yesterday.... this lady wear tudung labuh... heheheh (TLC)... from a first look... she was like an ustazah... but the way she treated her children was quite sproting... well she swam quite good too.... heh what am i trying to say here?? huh... well.. i wish one day i can be like her... bring all my kids to sim with me.... hehhehe
it was quite a small pool... i swam near the children... well.. since i don't rally know them... i just ignore them... .but as i past by... the youngest child 'doughnut'ed with the pelampung... said hi.. ( geee so cute...cute,.....)heheh .... then he asked is that yours ( pointing to my blue sling bag)... i replied yup... the boy then sain bunyi lagu... hehhehe telefon ku berbunyi.... dilla called

posted by Nurul @ 17:51


huh.... huh huh
yapppperdei.... no nicemove today...
huh,..
anyway...while waiting for fiza this morning, i decided to 'trgur' this one pakcik... aged 50-60... he looked familiar... look like arwah kak asma's brother.. kak asma used to be my baby sitter ( heheh during my primary school..) she came to my house during the working hours... she was nice... she taught me many things and she was very strict... at that time she was in the middle of 30's.... as i grew older.. i went to a school in kedah and since then we lost contact..... to keep in touch, one day (when i was in form 1) i visited her house... it was in gelugor.. a kampung house surrounding.... kak asma used to take me and my sister to her house and we went to the beach near by (last time there was a beach but now it had been 'tambun' and become a part of the penang bridge highway)... her elder brother (we used to call him nana) will carry my little sister in a 'black basikal tua' ... when we reached kak asma house, my dad knock the door since it was quite quiet hehe ... and an old lady open... welll she was kak asma's mother... she recognized us.. and welcomed us in... i asked for kak asma, the old lady replied that she had passed away... we were all surpurised... it had been 6 months... my mom asked when and why... that lady said kak asma was admitted to hospital for diabetis a weeek be4 her death... and then nan came back home.. he was surpurised to see us and ask us to have 'kopi' meanwhile he went out for a second.... about 5 minutes he returned and brought us air-kotak-bandung each... what toudched me alot is that... kotak air kotak tu berhabuk- menunjukkan agak lama kotak tu terletak atas para-para di kedai... heheheh ... and he gave my sister and me 2 ringgit each be4 we went home... he said ... duit pi sekolah... welll... their family was not financially stabled and all his efforts to served us was touching....
thus this morning... i approached the man who looked like nana ... the man was washing the pinggan mangkuk(org gelugor makan sup pagi2 huh.!! mengherankan) he worked with the bihun soup shop... i asked him... are you nana... he replied yup.. he didn't recognized me (of course ooo... it had been 10 years since we last visited him)... he was quite surpurised... then i saw fiza coming... so i ended and said .. jumpa lagi nanti..
maybe... i'l see him... chatting for a while...

posted by Nurul @ 17:32




Thursday, September 19

hello... yesterday i watched the bourne identity kat mega pavillion, perangin mall.. disusuli patch adam kat TV3.... hmm.. 2 ari lepas .. i watched the sign...
the bourn identity
i joined els students to watch it... well for me it's better than bad company.... the stunts are quite smooth as it look real with a typical CIA agent storyline, mat dammon??.. jason bourne looked smart especially during the cutting hair scene ... i rate this movie 4 out of 5.....

the sign
well... quite nice...quite slow though.. it focused more on the feeling of every character rather than action... in a way the story promotes 'having faith in god' propaganda...

patch adam
dilla told me about this mmovie long2 time ago... 2nd year kot... it is like a typical charity story... but the script was nice..... one old man told patch not to focus only on the problem... because the solution is always near by... just as a matter of how difficult it is...

huhuhh i dunno why ... lately i felt no mood in doing things,... the bordom is echoing me lately..... so much things to take care with so little passsion ... heh heh
i need some fresh air... perhaps after swimming thes eve everythin' will be fine....

aa.. nak pi makan... soto..
weh erhan, satria ...jemput2 makan

posted by Nurul @ 16:20


weh... beca... what's up? anything you wanna inform me... ...?

posted by Nurul @ 14:24


i believe in free speech. anyone can say whatever they want without any fear of retribution.- erhan, September 17


... gee.. gee.... jop...jop.. weh erhan, apa ada pada war declaration .... don't take my statement that serious....


you can talk whateva you want and condemn whoeva you wish as long as you are open-minded to face people critism on you... ... this goes same to me .... heh
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?

posted by Nurul @ 14:22


A demonstration with nadia.... ta'da....

posted by Nurul @ 14:12




Tuesday, September 17

i contribute this to satria....gee... she declared a war with erhan... heheh must have been so giishi hah!!!
sing this song long huh!!!
"Complicated"

Uh huh, life's like thisUh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like thisUh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be you will see
I like you the way you are When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no



posted by Nurul @ 19:32


well we discussed about racism... it was quite a hot conversation since it invonved debates between the chinese and malay... hmm.. shelley pointed that it is a sensitive issue to discuss the matter but then surani said ... it won't be if everyone is open minded... yeah it's true... you can talk whateva you want and condemn whoeva you wish as long as you are willing to face people critism on you...
it was an hour of discussion, CJ (the china man) pointed out that in China .. no racism ever occured , due to it's comunist policy... but when he arrived here, he noticed that malaysian mind aren't open and are seriously racist... hmm surani didn't quite agree and ask CJ to elaborate..... well he then began his hipothesis story,.....once he said to a malaysian chinese girl that he like the look of a malay girl (hehehe specifically yasmin)... he was surpurised when the malaysian chinese lady reply that he shouldn't say like that because he himself is a chinese man... what made cj unsatisfied is that why couldn't he admire malay female look... and why is that chinese lady so frustrated when he mention of his view (well... everyone is free to express his opinion - that is what a democracy policy is all about).... CJ concluded that malaysian- although seem harmony living together as a multiracial nation are actually racist......
well... he do have a point.... well... for some people 'hak keistimewaan orang melayu' is also considered as racist....
racism is abstract...... Lam then pointed out that racism is a need in a way.... we can protect the tradition as well as converting them to future generation.... well... i supposed she meant 'hak keistimewaan orang melayu' then..... yeah... what other alternative can we do to preserve hak warha watan nih..... i then pointed out about the arpatied matter- in south africa ... where the balck african are facing difficulities in order to get their land ownership which are 70% now owned by the white african......
hmm... well.. it's true.... in order to be fair... sometimes you tend to be unfair
surani then asked if anything else that can be discussed about the matter....
well.. i bring out the case of vecepia (the winner of survivor 4)..... she condemn the previous survisors saying that they were racist.... ahe stand out proudly as african american... (i still remember in an episod of survivor 5 when she openly said that there is racism in s4).....what i highlited was... racist occurs when you brings out the metter... for me vee is racist... because what she talked was only based on the hard time faced by the african-american community.... while other factors aren't being bothered..... for me ... you are as what you mentioned.... you complain much about racism.... it is in a way you become racism because you view it on the perspective of races......

posted by Nurul @ 19:25




Saturday, September 14

fuh... can anyone tell me, who look like this guy?!!!!.... ?

..what if i enlarge this pic.....
the SIDE LOOK

how about this angle then..

FRONT LOOK

what can i say MORE huh..... huakkkkkkk!

posted by Nurul @ 08:41




Friday, September 13

okeh... justnow we discussed on the relation ship between a mother& daughter and a mother&son
well we compared the situation of both relation ship... norsham pointed that they differ in manyways... she asked us to compare these 2 songs... mama from spice girls and mama from boyz2 men.... hmmm... what do you think of that?

spice girls
Mama
She used to be my only enemy and never let to be me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shoudn't be,
Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you become the friend I never had,
Back then I didn't know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
All that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,

boyz 2 man
You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times





posted by Nurul @ 14:20




Saturday, September 7

what a day yesterday....
i went to an interview... .... the job sounded like something nice to be xplored ...........i first met the hr girl, a woman whose age probably is same me. i was the told to fill out the form... at first i was cool cause in my mind, i was only thinking of this is a practise- if i couldn't manaage to get through i can try another time, then while waiting for shenen lee i read back my final year project report.... for the past 4 months ihave been attending this english class... well i was kindof enjoying myself there and didn't bother about my past exams- what i mean was i didn't touch anything related to my previous study.... my finala year project was ti develope a chipset that can used as encoder in a mobile phone...... it was quite a hard time for me during my developing project periode and as far as i could remember i was lucky to have friends- near and far- that support me morally .... then a man asked for my resume and transcript while i fill out the form.. a minute later 2 other interviewer came, ... the ladi look similar but till today i can't figure who she looked like... heh bule kening satu line beb-lantak kat dia lah kan....
then the interviewing began........... i dunno why i suddenly freak out.. maybe the super 'condesive' small room, with 3 person to encounter made me feel nervous...
anyway.. he began asking me about my fyp.. the question was simple... what is your goal... it took me ~30 minutes ... really 30 minutes to define my ftp... i lost words... i started to lose confident ... but ... i tried to maintain an 'reactionless' face ... then the oter guy ... asked me tell me about gsm... i told him as what i've been telling ppl and dr.osman... i'm quite sure about it... but unfortunately i was 'bang'ed and was then told that what i explained was 60% fraud... huh ... well then i felt like crying, it's not only because his raising voice... i felt everything was useless and as if they don't really want to hire me just to play around.. the lady pulak.. while i answered shennon lee quest she laughed...... as if my stupidity that i brought along to accompany me during the interview.. not my knowledge ... and totally i lost my confident... i expected i was going to be released in a couple of minutes ... since everything is wrong for them.... anyway.. i think my fluency in approaching ppl is totally out... i jargon alot .....heh but at the same time all the 3 interviewer told me about the insentive that i might get if ther were to hire me... the way they tell is as if i passed this interview but the way they reacted to my answers is really cutting me heart... well i supposed if i seemed not like the one they sre searching for... the just let me off... the game of appreciating and condeming me did make me felt such a dumb i was.....
2 hours after the interview.... no kidding 2 hours latter ... then we dismiss..... before i left i asked them when can i know the result... he said it will probably took them 1.5 months since there are a bunch of interviwee more for them to interview... the other guy said 'sinis'ly.. nevermind our hr will inform you and if by the time there is no call from them, heheheh .. aku rasa out dah... cam cipan nak mampos.. i drove back home using the furthest route ...i want to cool myself so that i can act naturally when i arrived home...because i burst out into tears... heh i couldn't tahan anymore... hehe cam apa je... tapi itulah hakikat nya. .. i cried!! well no big deal kan... kalau setitis 2 air mata nak kuar .. i couldn't use my academic qualification to get something that i wished... selama nih ... i was just depend on luck... aku baca blogger orang... semua org ada kekuatan kabagusan dan kenikmatan dalam idup... at that point aku rasa aku stupid not only academically bahkan 'soul'ly...apa 'soul'ly pun aku tak tau... yg aku tau failure seemed to be my twin... heh tak baik cakap lagi nih...aku rasa kalau cakap ngan dilla... jawapan dia nanti kita org lain2.... masing2 ada kekuatan... (dialog dia suatu masa dahulu yg aku pegang) .. kalau cakap ngan rock ... dia nasehat .. tak pa .. hg akan jumpa kekuatan hg satu hari nanti... satu benda yg buat kan hg lain dari yg lain.......... kalau cakap ngan satria ... dia nanti kata .. huh aku pun tak tau.......... kalau cakap ngan fiza .. dia kata .. takpa.. boleh cuba lagi.............. ini semua andaian jawapan yg aku forecast ... what happen was i talkend to my moyher then... heh she replied simple...boleh tahanke pressure kalau keja... nih baru interview... huh............
ntah aaaaaaa.... .. sebab apa yg nak ditonjolkan quality dalam idup but eventually.... tarak quality pun yg aku dapat bagi dalam tempoh 2 jam intw tuh.........once i've talked with YT (he is the manager of ELS-kelas eng yg aku pi tu) ..he urged me to work..and find my capabilities... either production line / service line i'm good with..... hmm.. camna nak pi... heh intw pun tak lepas... intention aku nak buat master ngan rock... huh at the same time aku nak juga analisa tahap aku dalam working surrounding ni..........fiza cerita ... naja senang je dapat keja..ok balik ke isu semua orang unik... takkan sama jalan hidup antara sorang ngan sorang........
semalam jugak sblm intw aku online.. sesaja nak cari ilham ... aku baca blogspot satu member nih... he planned to further his study in politics (science)... and wanted to do something for the society... huh... bagus ... bagus... buat buat ... bagus ... sebab aku rasa aku fail nak buat apa2 kat society nih... ada 3 benda.. kalau tak dapat buat/halang ngan tangan... buat/halanglah ngan mulut.... kalau still tak dapat nak buat/ halang ngan kata2 ...buat/halanglah ngan hati... aku support sepenuh ati apa yg nak dibuat utk masyarakat... bagus bagus ...semua dalam dunia nih baguus... shennon lee bagus...kawan2 dia bagus .adi irawan bagus adi-demam bagus said bagus dila bagus fiza bagus rock bagus yt bagus nadia bagus semua .. bagus ... hanya aku main tain... heh tak bagus! huh !!!!!!!!!!!!!

posted by Nurul @ 08:14




Thursday, September 5

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer
Is there something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer

huh how i wish..............
if ever i have someone that can guide me crawling out from this dark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

posted by Nurul @ 16:31


okeh... masuk hari nih... 1 minggu aku dapat sms misteri nih... hehhe
okeh.. it happened when..my cousin, dedek wanted to phone flirting since there was a free line (someone left $0.50 at the public phone ).
so i told her i got this number ..belong to someone that i'm not familiar chatting with... heh sapa lagi... 012-4728219...huh... dedek was good in this phone flirting./... well i felt a little yerk... when she made the itchi-slyish-eksyen slang..heh...
hmm.. then we both went swimming... hmm...
at about 6.45pm .. this sms was delivered to me

+60164580272 : awak ke yg chat tadi
i replied : aik, tak online pon
+60164580272 : tul ke
i didn't reply
+60164580272 : tul ke awak tak on
i didnt reply since i dont feel like replying
+60164580272 : saya tahu awak yg chat
+60164580272 : saya tahu awak on tapi takpelah kalau tak nak ngaku. saya pun nak lik KL
i replied : uik, sapa ni? (recycle the dialogue that was used when i first sms 012472)

the the smsing ended... but around 7.15 i recieved a call from +60164580272 hmm... bab mis call nih suka lah pulak main.. i missed call that no back... then ~5 minutes .. +60164580272 called but i kindof ran out of idea and acted as if i was a chinese lady... heh gunapakai dialog kat els.

misteri (1) walaupun dedek yg call, guna public fon plak tuh... no aku yg terima sms.. hmm.. is this a coincident.. ??@@#!@


moral (2) takdak paedah pun.. kalau main2 - buat naik bil je
(3) hebat jugak dedek nya skill !

posted by Nurul @ 16:05


ok...actually this is for yesterday post but eventually it was erased!!!!!!!!!!! so i made up again buat one day ahead...

well I'M WISHING DILLA A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY... AND CONTRIBUTE TODAY's POSTING TO HER... ...


Hepi besday to you (3x)
Allah slamatkan kamu (3x)



posted by Nurul @ 15:41


what had happened???

posted by Nurul @ 15:34