Saturday, June 25
ok, I'm limiting this for 15 minutes.
heck, i'm turning green. wanna know why, because it feels like shit. damn pengampu.
let's start. well, for a start i felt like everyone is wrong. wverything that is being presented in the meeting justnow was like perasan bagus. as i felt like no one except me who throughly refer to books. and i felt like betrayed as the other members follow what was being suggested blindly - membabi buta because to please the supervisory team. even when they were suggested 'm.y' sound 'mai' instead of 'mi'. if its english then you probably not membabi buta but haven't you guys consider it might just be not english. say its malay where it should sound 'mi' rather than 'mai'.
then i have this one who appear to have solved my proposal. saying shit that what has been done could improve my initial design. heck. read the book first, and because those bosses knew nothing except feel like it was good, none was being revised and everyhitng was being accepted bulat2. damn shit.
as for me, i felt like i'm doing some shit for the meeting as i have to reserve those killer points in order to camouflage what i have. heck. this tires me to boredom. damn damn damn.
ok. 15 minutes is up! shit
Thursday, March 10
yes as the title goes, after all the facebooks and tweeter, i'm choosing to return to the old school blog. sort of feeling pissed off but cool at the same time. hot and cold, in and out. yes maybe katy perry has a point there. but alas from a 'far field' point of view i should say it's more cool than pissed off.
as long as i lay my faith that ultimately this knowledge belongs to The Al-Mighty, i seems to have a 'cooler' blast.
i pissed off. why? because i felt like this all thing had hold me back. or is it because i got caught in those cynical words. oops maybe i shoulod write in Malay then. well, to avoid being 'known', to remain disguised. but, as what J-lo says spanish is the langusge of love, and i'm saying that eglish is the language of pissed off. heh.
genuinely, i make a move to solve things but again, there's 'a' reputation on stake. and yes, i deserve those cynical words, as what had happend did tarnish the reputation. and at least, professionalism is the rule that he played.
i'm pissed off because his words were pointing at me but his eyes says differently.
well, or am i pissed off that he play it profesionally. but, as good as it sounds, having it written all over my long left blog, i think i was pissed off. and the piss is getting dried.
anyway, i'm changing those skins as i felt like those building on upper corner left sort of says where I'm now (out of sudden I is capital here hehe)
this is a beautiful country, I admid however, it's incomparable with Malaysia. as much as I love the snow here, I also missed the scroaching sun. you bet yep the scroacing sun, because the transition works awesome with such amount of UV lights.
Qas Jrs. are doing fine, so does Mr. Qas. Praise to Allah. the is the most important milestone throghout this training time. because as long as they are doing fine, I can spare some 'pissed' moments in my routine day life.
Diyana chan, believe me you're the first to read this post as I'm going to email you now. Thanks for those lovely advice and knd words. when things 'shit'ted last monday, all that came cross my mind is to have your say (no that those 'shit' has something to do with you - don't get me wrong here hehe, it's simply I felt you're more than anyone who know my very situation now. thanks again dude)
Saturday, September 26
Alhamdullilah.
it was a small gathering, nevertheless it met the relatives-reunion goal in Penang.
since staying in Pahang, 1st syawal is never in penang. but dis year, the plan changed. 1st syawal is still away from penang but, the gathering is shifterd to 7th syawal.
selamat hari rrrraya!!.
Friday, September 18
esok is the last day of ramadhan. 1430.
k dilla, een, diana, azanie, aznor, k gazi, nora,
i'm in a library nearby hehe to get a free internet access. in the computer lab, which is airing raya songs.
kehidupan manusia indah kerana ketidakpastiannya. ketidakpastian itu membawa kepada satu pertaruhan yang acapkali ada risiko. tanpa risiko tiada ketidakpastian dan tanpa ketidakpastian, ia bukanlah hakiki kehidupan manusia itu.
banyak2 lagu hehe aku tak tahan nih lagu ala~ nasyid dulu2 nasyid raya uh. uh. apaaara banyak lagu raya bes2 pi pasang lagu raya yg tak umph.
selamat hari raya. i'll be in penang somewhere during 6th syawal. will be having a kenduri on 7th. aznor, azanie kaalu free mai la. aku reserve kek kat hangpa.k dilla, een, k gazi, nora, diana, by any chance kalau happen to be area2 sini cakap kat aku, nak bg direction mai ke rumah di kulim ni. hehe
secara langsung aku ada buat dosa. hehe paling tidak dari mulut yang masih sukar untuk dikawal supaya mengikut 'pace' akal yang berfikir tentang dosa/pahala. oleh itu,
aku mohon maaf atas segala kesalahan yg disedari mahupun tanpa disedari. kerana aku juga takut andaikata ketidakpastian dalam kehidupan manusia ini berakhir tanpa sempat memohon maaf. for what it's worth, it a blessed to be friend to you guys.
salam aidilfitri!
Friday, September 4
to a best friend of mine... happy belated birthday, 3.9.2009.
thinking of posting it rather than sms. as sms is limited in terms of space and time. hehe.
I've known dis birthday girl nearly umm... (+- informal, kebetulan, ..) nearly 20 years jugakla.
it was during our tertiary studies we've become close. and yep, i believe it last till today. as she's the one i call d moment yas fell from bed ( uh cuai gila aku heh) recently. luckily yas is ok with no injuries Alhamdullilah.
being her friend, or having her as a best friend was a great experience. i believe lots of what i'm today is a reflection of what i saw or learn from her.
ah ada meeting eac cipan. tak dan habih.
to my best friend out there, sometimes things is just don't happen d way it should. but always remember (a reminder to myself as well).. Allah knows the best.
let time be the cure. as it's the best medcine afterall.
at dis moment ada 4 ym ajak aku pi eac.
aku choew dulu.
happy birthday!
